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Oliver, i was in that situation. scared that my past will affect on my family. depression, wish to die, pecause no peace inside me. only one i did want - just peace and that my family could be happy. didnt get any relief for my heart. what can i say, after i knew some of about Father, if you already are father, then get married is one thing Father really like you to do Psalm 33:5 He loves righteousness and justice; depression come from lack of knowledge and from lack of knowledge comes entrust. thats why you feel depression and anxiety. study Bible. if you (like it was for me) feel, while reading/study Bible, that almost everything you read, blames you, make you feel guilty - its ok, IT WILL END. it is cleaning process. Jesus did go it through. i did rebel against it (isnt pleasure to feel yourself most corrupted, unworthy and useless, right?). but then i did give up. just start seek answers, what to do with that, that hurt me most - myself. i start study what is "right and just" and how to do it. simple saying - i just start follow Jesus literally, how He teach, those things i did understand then and i could do. it did bring some relief. but honestly, until you are in cleaning, it wont end, just some days are better some not. trust make you feel less depressed. Father want you suffer less, that i know for sure. so, if you feel bad - seek answers. study Bible by yourself, to FASTEN that process. 1 Peter 4-1 Since therefore Christ suffered in the flesh,[a] arm yourselves with the same way of thinking, for whoever has suffered in the flesh has ceased from sin, 1 Peter 4-12-13 Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice (1) insofar as you share Christ's sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed (2). (1 - i could just cry) (2 - i thought that will happen in heaven, but no, it will happen on earth. and rejoice is correct word, when that day comes ) now about protect your family. Psalm 32:10 Many are the sorrows of the wicked, but steadfast love surrounds the one who trusts in the Lord. just think now, what you are ready to do, to protect yours child, that you love? Father will do much more dont live in fear "what if.." NEVER. if that "if" happens, He will lead you out. He will find a way, if you didnt recognize He's voice yet. that is also matter of trust - Psalm 23:4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. what its about? until you seek Father's Kingdom (what is just and what is right, Who He Is, What Jesus did teach ) you have nothing to worry about, but just seek answers and do the best you already can and know. then, you dont need to fear no evil. Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.

sin is sin. even if we dont see how "small" sin affect to our / others life, doesnt make it less worse then "big" sin. i think you know sin, that even blood of Jesus dont wash away? insulting Holy Spirit taking mark of beast (my oppinion is, what ever that sign is or look like, if i need something to have on my forehead or on/in right hand, that allow me simply buy/sell... i rather loose my life then eternity. but im sure Father reveals it for He's childrens, He find a way to everyone) and third... (sorry if i refuse to argue or prove anything - who have eyes to see, that see) is not doing Father's will. about confess - find christian (even online) that you trust, confess and he will pray for you, that Father forgive you, IF you dont find relief after confessing it directly to Father in yours prayers.

only way (and i did seek YEARS for some other way) is - read Bible. if i get lukewarm or as you say (because it feels like this) apathetic, i just force myself read Bible. first just one chapter at time or even less. every day.

Abba never say that. If He say to not sin, He always say STEP BY STEP (literally!!!) what to do, TO NOT SIN. as i understand He didnt told you? then it was satan, putting you under chains, that you are not ready to deal with, to broke you. dont be never afraid of curse, if you didnt nothing to deserve it. Father will make it to blessings, if you are not guilty. if guilty, repent AND ask forgiveness and. dont be afraid. that happens only if Father reveals you something OR that is satan imitating them to deceive you. it is calling binding. you must name very correctly you believe you have binded with and UNBIND it IN THE NAME OF JESUS, as on earth so in heaven. and refuse to even think about it - satan may try to broke yours faith with doubts. stay in faith until you are sure (just repeat something from Bible, that help you believe, until you dont doubt anymore) yes, that is correct - occult things or false god things must be destroyed from yours house. one more thing - all those voices... when i did ask Father what to do, He told me - you must confess. after i did, i told satan - get behind me satan, in The Name of Jesus! and did enjoy .... silence ^^ satan will talk with you in yours thoughts all yours life. just, time for you to understand - who is talking. Father, you or satan. i do fight with satan for over 24 years. just share, what i have learned from Father so far.

somehow feel the same.

can i add just 3 more +1? no? sad... lovely said!

perfect and yes, yes! that "couple cents" is what Father wants from us. we cant give Him anything. all we have, He made. just one... follow Holy Spirit. (= who do My Fathers will) lovely, simply and wisely said!

Father told me once - leave them with they righteousness. so be it. no kisses, no slapping. who really seek truth, will find it.

you know higher truth, then Abba does? how can you tell truth? if you lay ONLY on yours mind. He teach me 24 years. one if was - "KJV bible ONLY" believers are guilty in idolatry. Because they deny Spirit of Abba. they lay on they mind, not on He's Spirit. and not only KJV bible believers - any Bible verse believers. meaningless is to discuss anything, if we even dont agree in basics. John 1-8 KJV 7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin. 8 If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. 9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 10 If we say that we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us. you say - show me? AFTER your saved? from KJV.. i did but why you say - show me? dont you know? so you are telling me, that after you are saved, you dont sin? or forgiveness is now automatic? then why Jesus did give us prayer - forgive us our debts? for as daily prayer to christians?

i didnt made and wont make idol any Bible translation. if anything i dont understand or Abba see, that i dont understand correctly -He teach me and show truth. so i really dont care which translate i use. i dont believe and ever wont, that any Bible can be correctly understood without Abba's Spirit.

yes. spiritual rule : IF we confess, THEN He forgive us our sins. 1 John 1:9 If we confess our sins, (then) He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. James 5:16 Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working. sometimes is enough to tell Father about it in prayers. sometimes (if we dont find peace) confess to other christian, that will pray for you and forgive you, is required. repent is required 1 Kings 8:47 yet if they turn their heart in the land to which they have been carried captive, and repent and plead with you in the land of their captors, saying, ‘We have sinned and have acted perversely and wickedly,’ "I've never heard in all my life that God forgives you once, " yes, yes! Matthew 3:8 Bear fruit in keeping WITH repentance. keeping - something that continue, last, remains, happen again and again when we should repent? Leviticus 5:5 WHEN he realizes his guilt in any of these andconfesses the sin he has committed,

Yes, it is about, how to not sin at all. but before you get there, lot of things is required, one of it is - get free from slavery of sin

that is what Holy Spirit do, not we. our job is to grow that temple He could live. i live now to testimony for those, who still in fire, that Jesus did, to cast out. to encourage others do not give up. because i did, for 18 years. so much lost time...

FresnoJoe, we GROW to be Holy temple for Lord's Spirit. growing takes time.

i did fight with my sin 7 years. did i try to stop sinning? my sister did visit me every day, she can witness - i did EVERYTHING, that get ride of my sin. i did talk with Father evey day, i did beg Him help me. i did told every day - just give me hint - from where to look answers, just give me something.. i did cry blood-tears literally did hate myself i did knew every verse from Bible, because almost whole Bible was in my head - so much i did study and seek answer do you really think, that people want to be sinners? i didnt. but i just didnt knew, what to do and father did remain silence in that question (for purpose, He did explain me AFTER, HE DID FREE ME) of course some dont want to even look inside them, they are afraid of truth. and after i did cry bloodtears, i understand them. problem is - its good to say - dont sin, but HOW is question. Jesus did say - HOW, just i didnt understand it, because my pain blinded my eyes and did bitter my heart against Father. NOW i know. can describe it step by step. works with EVERY SIN... BUT it take time. dont want hurt feelings, just, Jesus and Father, if they ever say, what i do wrong, always ADD step by step - HOW TO DO IT RIGHT or just simple not to do. so lets learn from Father - if you say - dont sin, say .. how? then there is something to discuss - practise.

that doubt is good. it shows, you dont know enough yet. maybe its good, if anyone give you advice, but i like to give you advice. i was alone, without church, when accepted Jesus. when i did study Bible on my own, alone, without any MAN near teaching me, i was surprised how little people know truth, after did met some. Truth is - Father want to teach you by Himself. Let Him. How? Read Bible at least once through. Then start study those passages, that move you or look for answers, that yours heart wants. none, except Father dont see yours heart. and He will show you, what you need, on that time, when you need and on that time He did prepare you to accept truth (sometimes it hurts). sadly looking for answers from people, is not good always (blind lead blind..). start from Bible study. but by yourself. pray before you read. ask Jesus to "open yours mind" (He did that with apostles) that you could understand scriptures. you wont feel anything. but you will see difference , how much you understand, in time. if you didnt find peace, it may be because many reasons. guessing is worse we can do, too easy to get deceived. look for truth, that only Father can show you (i cant see yours heart, nature, situations and future - so cant none but Father) so, get some "milk" from Source <3 i hope you enjoy time here

first christians didnt come together in temple, but in someones home. if temple then was build for Father, why they didnt come together there? why they did come together in someone home? why is wrong to say "welcome" to someone, that is hypocrite or false teacher? all that is about - "who are My brothers and sisters" (quoting Jesus) so, if church (that is not bad idea, if there is hundreds of people) does not follow Spirit, what we can say - they astray? went left or right? back to world? what apostles did, when that did happen to anyone in they midst? its all about how to act right. its also about any church. question is - do yours church are leaded by Holy Spirit, do they walk in truth? do they seek truth? if not... dont want to annoy you, but Father told me - go out! ensure, you are not in they list. (not that He couldnt say, am i still in the list of they people. He wanted to show me something, that is another story. but i do repeat it to those, who are yet learning to recognize Hes voice. ) so, what really matter, is not building (home, church, coffee) but with who you come together. and it is important to gather together time to time for us. very.

correct. and its possible ONLY if we are lead by Spirit. thats the difference between OT and NT. in OT times, people did try and failed (then they did bring sacrifice) in NT times we can.. because gift of Holy Spirit is given now to all, who ask. you see, Reintin. somehow people just dont notice what is acts really about. its about Holy Spirit leading - HOW Holy Spirit leads us. apostles didnt talk about it much, but asked often - walk in Spirit, do not sin anymore, as Jesus did live, so should we... and so on. but HOW is in acts. i give You a hint. (dont say im smart, just im blessed with good ears, thats all and love questioning Father. i just share what He say) so - HOW? Acts 1:2 until the day when he was taken up, after he had given commands through the Holy Spirit to the apostles whom he had chosen. Acts 8:29 And the Spirit said to Philip, “Go over and join this chariot.” Acts 10:19 And while Peter was pondering the vision, the Spirit said to him, “Behold, three men are looking for you. Acts 11:12 And the Spirit told me to go with them, making no distinction. These six brothers also accompanied me, and we entered the man's house. Acts 13:2 While they were worshiping the Lord and fasting, the Holy Spirit said, “Set apart for me Barnabas and Saul for the work to which I have called them.” Acts 16:6 And they went through the region of Phrygia and Galatia, having been forbidden by the Holy Spirit to speak the word in Asia. Acts 16:7 And when they had come up to Mysia, they attempted to go into Bithynia, but the Spirit of Jesus did not allow them. Acts 20:22 And now, behold, I am going to Jerusalem, constrained by the Spirit, not knowing what will happen to me there, what we need is - circumcised ears Acts 7:51 “You stiff-necked people, uncircumcised in heart and ears, you always resist the Holy Spirit. As your fathers did, so do you. Isaiah 30:21 And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, “This is the way, walk in it,” when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left. if you are lead by Spirit, teach by Spirit, on time, when you really need to know some, you will get answer - do or not. i believe, that eating still blood is sin. but about blood transfusions i never did ask. if im sick or my kids or someone i know or did met, i just ask Father what to do and Holy Spirit tell me, what Father says. i believe that way (ask Father) should be considered with those, who love Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

will lead us to truth after we start seek truth truth = proofs, witnesses, facts Holy Spirit baptism - gift is received healing - happens time to time, have documents and witnesses. prophecy - was given and yes, i have that gift through Holy Spirit baptism (and some more) He lead us through TALKING - have witnesses, several those are facts, that none wont take away from me those are facts, that prove to me - HE IS and Bible is true and many more i dont believe, i want believe truth, that is possible to prove, that have witnesses and facts - He did give them to me. i stand on Rock. on truth. on Word. always love - dont tell me, show me.

just few weeks ago Father told me to find out definition of truth. 1.the true or actual state of a matter 2.conformity with fact or reality; verity 3.a verified or indisputable fact, proposition, principle, or the like truth is something, that have proofs, facts. start from that ground. If Father wants us not just believe, BUT BELIEVE TRUTH (we can believe.. lie, illusion what ever) then that means - we must believe proofs, facts... strong delusion will be sent to those, that dont love truth. or other words, that dont seek proofs, facts. Jesus told what are those facts and proofs. He told - those signs will follow.. sign - 1. a token; indication. 2. any object, action, event, pattern, etc., that conveys a meaning. 3. a conventional or arbitrary mark, figure, or symbol used as anabbreviation for the word or words it represents. something you can see or touch or.. something physical...

Father told me once - I dont let die (He means second death) ANYONE, who LOVE TRUTH. if you do, you will soon see, who lie, who have some understanding and who.. love truth.

Why Father dont teach us everything, we NEED to know, today, right now? Hebrew 4:12For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart. Word of God = truth, wisdom once did ask Father - why you dont teach me everything i need to know right now? why all that learning need so much time? He told me - if you have a little kid and you have a sharp knife, will you give it to yours child? me - no He - why? me - he may cut himself, maybe even die He - thats why I dont teach you everything right now - truth is very sharp knife, you will get hurt badly, maybe even die...to know more, you must grow in understanding, get stronger spiritually to handle that sharp knife right, to not hurt yourself. that takes time. when Father told me, that growing takes time i told Him - but all that time i could already do something, be useful. that time, i learn wisdom, is lost! its years of losted time!!! then Father told me - I AM MASTER OF TIME! I CONTROL TIME! DONT BE WORRIED ABOUT TIME! I DID MADE IT FOR REASON! i dont know reason yet, but i trust Him.

free will..

no, its ours choice but dont be sad, if you didnt recognize Hes voice yet and cant talk freely (took for me for years). when you want - then it happens. and even then - for me took for months to understand, that some of my thoughts wasnt mine. just, encouraging you to ask for ears , that hear

low whisper.. Father told me once - if whisper is low voice, how low is "low whisper". sometimes its so quiet, that i know what to do, but not always realize words, that bring knowing. just like thought, yes. lower then whisper.