Thanks for all the responses. They are all very helpful.
So the Holy Spirit is how God resides in me since I was saved... I was confused for awhile because of all the shame and guilt I was feeling and I didn't know of enough of Gods word to fight back with it.I just know i dont ever want to feel that kind of hate again. The enemy wants us to feel not worthy of God or anything. I KNEW during that time I needed a savior. I know there is a spiritual realm, I could never not know it now. The more I pray and read the Bible the more Im led to truth and peace.
I hear or read people trying to dismantle the Bible and all it says and I cant understand their motives. There is so much power in Gods word. Discuss it yes, ask questions, disagree...but I dont see how people can disregard it or mock it.
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me," (2 Corinthians 12:9).
The Lord is near to all who call on him,to all who call on him in truth. (Psalm 145 :18)