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Oh ok. Just have to take it one day at a time. I feel incredibly lonely and broken. He was the only one planning something for my birthday. I never do anything for it. I really just want to settle and go back.

Wdym? Are you saying me going back to him is Gods will?

I really feel i might go back to him. Ive been praying for friends for years and im still alone.

Its not easy to deal with. Especially when he made me feel seen and heard when i feel invisible any other time. Idk i do think loneliness is just my cross to bear.

True.

This is such a succinct answer. Thank You.

Its only been 1 day and i feel really depressed. Im so tempted to drive over to his house and apologize and what not but a part of me knows.. I did the the right thing as.. He would compliment girls infront of me. He told one girl that her hair looked better than mine. He drinks and smokes I always had to pick him up..but he did pay for dinner whenever we went out and put gas in my car..but still. I know i did the right thing but i feel incredibly lonely. I dont have friends i can hangout with to fill this void ( i try to make friends but nothing ever sticks idk why) and my family is broken. Idk i just try to take my baby out places but i feel bad being alone in public. Like i was going to go to another store to look around but i felt depression hit me and went home. I just feel really alone right now.

I really needed to read these esp abt how abiding in God will help one produce good fruit.

I repented in prayer. Do i confess with my mouth or is prayer enough?

Thank you for this. I still say i made a 50 on this test lol. I should have turned him down instantly instead of getting tangled in sexual sin with this man. Well its all over now and im very releived.

This i agree with so much. Its not a one time thing. Its a process thr bible says to work out your salvation with fear and trembling

I broke up with my bf and now I just want to pursue God fully. I feel bad giving God the left overs of my life-- the broken pieces. After being hard headed and experiencing things for myself I see that everything he says not to do is for our own well being or withholds is always for the best. I see that now. Idk i feel bad I dont pass my tests or trials. I always always always fail. I feel like a worthless christian. What ways can i commit myself to God? ( besides reading, praying ect)

This is inspiring to me. Since im still working. I think ill set aside money for those that have been affected. I want to do it through cash app to help people that arent just in my state. However, im afraid of scammers getting over on me when i want to help people that actually need this.

Idk i dont like feeling ignored. I wish i could hear plainly from God. Idk i have to ask god about my bf. But i kinda have a gut feeling we shoulent be together .

Maybe i should stop watching christians on youtube. Just feels my relationship is lack luster compsred to theirs. Im gonna ask what God thinks of my bf. I feel i already know.

A dui? What happened? Idk i dont smoke or drink. Im clean cut in that way atleast. Im sorry youre dealing with all of that and youre not minimizing my. Situation and feelings. I get the point youre trying to make. Thank you. Its just i know im not supposed to sin but i love my bf. I love God too but when i did pursue God i felt alonr. It was silent.. I didnt enjoy an interactive relationship with God like most on youtube go on about..like how God got thrm an apartment, a car, told them who their husband would be and how many kids theyd have or just being led or doing something amazing for God. I always felt alone with God like i wasnt his favorite person or he didnt wany to talk to me much or something. With my boyfriend I feel more wanted and when im with him it feels like an adventure with the places we go.

It means he believes in God but isnt actively followong like reading or praying much. Hell pray every now and again.

Just means were still inna relationship.

His but he didnt want to wait bc of christian practice it was something else that led him.

I need to stop. We haven t done anything in a while though.

Youre right. I need to stop. Probably get rid of him altogether but i do love him though. Also , he' s not an atheist but he just doesn't follow God. I would pray for God to remove him but... I feel the Lord wants me to break it off.

No. I dont live with him. I do desire God--i just feel alone ..my bf helps me feel sane and I kinda dont want to lose that comfort.

I worry that maybe im not truly saved. Its been 10 yrs and i still dont hear his voice, never been led. Ive experienced God but i worry im not truly his sheep. Like a counterfeit or something. Im still with my bf.. Idk. I just dont know what to do to get back in Gods good grace. I also feel He doesnt like me much so its hard me to get close to God.

No... Im Saying interpretation for my drsam or the dreams I have. They have nothing 2 do with what I'm doing. Sometimes it's of family members or the future. But I don't always understand it.

I feel , despite my situation( backsliding), God gives me dreams but I don't understand the meaning. Not completely anyway. Can I pray for this gift?