>> Hannah <<

I dont really want to go into much detail, because is is obvious why this bill is wrong. but i will say this, if passed, this drug will not only be available to the terminally ill, it will also be available to the depressed, elderly and disabled... wat concerns me most is that... i struggle with depression very badly and i would take this drug in the blink of an eye on many days.... if this drug becomes available many people will die against gods will... im basically furious about it

well thats great to know made my day trinity

the state of the world scares me... now i am easily scared... but the state of the world does cos me much concern. even in my short time on this earth ive seen some dramatic and very damaging changes..... all we can do is deal with the present world, and do our bit.... its all in gods hand, not all in gods perfect plan for the world, but unfortunately there is little that is anymore, but he knew the world would get this way and he knows what the outcome is going to be.... just like i feel that my life isnt in my own hands sometimes, its in gods or other peoples.... the world is in his hands...like all lives are i think the biggest problems with the world today are: murder and sexual abuse, no one seems to have any respect for each other, its all about self... i know thankfully thses people who do these things are the minority but they shouldnt exist in the first place... how i see it is that if the worlds in this state now how much worse can it get... im reluctant to start a family because i dont want my children to grow up in such a broken world, which breaks my heart cos my father created this beautiful planet and look wat weve done to it.... i think as christians we need to take more blame than anyone else for the mess of the world, and yes were not the ones murdering another for fun or raping 8 week old babies but this is our fathers creation.... were not doing much about it are we, these people dont care about this earth they are born live and die.... they need to know the truth.... how can we expect people to respect the world they live on if they dont love and respect its maker.....

this might sound like really bad advice and i have tried it once before and it really helped.... smoke cigarette after cigarette after cigarette, this could be pointless if u already do that lol ill give you the advice anyway... so smoke cigarette after cigarette after cigarette, keep smoking until u feel sick, it might only take 5 or it could take 30, but just keep smoking cigarette after cigarette... n wen u feel really sick.... this is hoping it has that effect.... have one more just to push you that further... than leave it a few hours, do something to keep u busy, go for a walk, paint (keeps fingers busy), come on worthy... (wen i did it i smoked about 16 one after the other before i felt really ill n then i had to lie down cos i felt so sick.... ) so leave it a few hours then spark up a cigarette (really want to say fag lol im english and common) N hopefully the cigareete will make u feel sick... whether it be psychological or not im sure... (but if its works how cool is that) n the hope is that everytime u want to smoke it makes u feel sick... n in the end u just avoid smoking... i thought up the idea from when i use to do drugs and i had a really bad experience after a session once, n once i had recovered a few days later i got offered some more and it made me feel so sick... im not sure if its just me... n how my body reacts cos the same happened with drinking vodka i guess its up to you whether u try it.... you dont want lecturing.. im not lecturing you.. loads of people are gona think this is really bad advice.. sorry if i upset anyone let me know how it goes... ill be praying for you, god bless H xxx

i agree that men shouldnt think they are alone on this, women do struggle with this too. me being one of them big time..... i will think about things and get myself into situations i shouldnt be in and even if nothing comes of it the guilt i feel is overwhelming... how i see it, and please correct me if im wrong is that, if we are saying here we feel guilty about these thoughts and we are recognising the issue then at least were on the right path... there was time wen i enjoyed the thoughts and didnt think anything of them... but now i know there wrong and my heart is being convicted although the guilt still kicks in big time, it seems that each time i get into a situation or thought pattern its gettin easier to flee n break it its all about perserverence i think the most difficult thing ive found is, being honest with you now, ive had sex before marriage and ive struggled with gettin to the point of no return wen u just loose all inhibitions and the act happens.... and its mad cos u think how could something so right be so wrong... but in that moment of release it all seems worth it... yet we soon realise it wasnt... it was wen i didnt enjoy sex anymore i firstly thought it was to do with me n ash but realised it was my heart being convicted that i know why i shouldnt be doing it, and from then on i havent enjoyed sex at all n dont think i will now until me n ash r married... should i of fleed from ash wen we started sinning together i dont know... we still fall but hardly ever... ive had alot of spiritual difficulties but the impure thoughts and acts has been and still is the biggest ever... all i can be is trying, and make sure i pick myself up after n get bak on track straight away... its an issue that has to be taken serious if not it can and will ruin your relationships, self control, and self worth...

'DIRECT MY FOOTSTEPS ACCORDING TO YOUR WORD...' PSALM 119:133 A few days back i was at a friends and she has a little girl who is 2 and a half and she was off stomping round the house singing three blind mice, n went quiet, her mum called out to her "milly are you ok", seconds later, we here clomp clomp clomp. n she comes first with feet behind, in to the room, with her mums kitten heel shoes on... its got me thinking Have you ever seen a small child trying to walk in the shoes of a big person? It's funny to watch. It's also significant: some day those tiny feet will grow up and fill those big shoes... Do you feel like you're trying to fill some big shoes today, like you need to grow up fast because you've no option? Ive realised that life doesn't wait until we're as mature as we'd like to be, before handing us some of our greatest tests of faith. It seems Most of our training is 'on the job', and, like a nipper trying to fill big shoes, at first we do it badly, then awkwardly, but never stumble-free. The only thing that can stop us from growing into those big shoes - is the fear of putting our feet into them! The grace comes with the assignment. Grace is immediate, but growth takes time. Don't be discouraged: 'He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion' (Philippians 1:6 NIV). Another thing about filling big shoes, it makes us a lot more understanding towards others trying to walk in them too. 'How could you do such a thing?' is a question we don't tend to ask, because we already know the answer from personal experience. Ever see a parent holding the hand of a child trying to walk in shoes that are too big, beaming with pride and delight simply because they attempted it, steadying them up, encouraging them to keep going, picking them up when they trip and bump their head? That's what our God does with us! Just thought i would share what i felt was placed on my heart by god... god bless you all H xxx

let go of what?

i dont get what Openly Curious is getting at? anyone care to explain?

Firstly although i have been told by members not to read the suicide threads, debating whether or not a christian who commits suicide goes to heaven or hell. i have follwed them, and being totally honest, the past few weeks i have seriously been contemplating cmmiting suicide. in a way i was reading the posts hoping to find out that i still went to heaven so that i as a christian could go ahead and do it and still go to heaven. You have to remember this is not someone in a good state of mind thinking. i just want to address the fact of how dangerous that thread could of been. But the people posting in it didnt think of that did they!?! i have been depressed for the past 7 years, and simply telling someone that they have no reason to hate themselves doesnt work, that persons mind is set and although god can change it that person has to want to change the situation, im not saying that they want to be in the situation but it becomes a habit a lifestyle and you just convince yourself its never going to change. I believe that no one persons experience of depression, suicide. is the same. everyones has started for a different reason, everyone has different ways of "coping" with it, everyone has a different outcome. But one similarity or one truth that can be applied to all the situations is that only god can bring them out and away from it. Depression needs to be caught as soon as possible. But its not like an infection, tablets dont fix it. Nothing fixes depression once youve been through it, its a personal upward struggle to try and put ur life back together to a point where you are satisfied. Alot of depression is about the self, often depressed people come across as self absorbed and sometimes selfish. Although i believe god is the only thing that can set them free. Battering them round the head with it wont help. I have so much more to say, but feel maybe im not going down the wrong root this thread is suppose to be going down. Please let me know if what i have said is right.

rather strange question to ask, its for my English language coursework at college. Not really got a defined title for what i am aiming for yet. but the main jist of it is questioning whether or not the language of hymns has modernised, and whether or not this is just due to the english language inevitably changing. or whether it is due to hymns needing to be alot more accesible to nonbelievers, and in using hymns with archiac language, you may result in a confused congregation not being too sure on what they are worshipping about. or is it purely to do with one churches personal preference to worship. I dont want to stay narrow in my opinion on the matter, and i am a member of a baptist church and our church pretty much only sings modern hymns with no archaic verb forms or archaic language. I dont know!!!!! What is your experience of hymns in your church?

i just cant break the cycle and i know im not being asked to do it on my own and that with god anything is possible. but i have proved myself myself this week thru talking to another worthy member that i can see good in me. or at least i can accept why people see good in me. but ive sunk right down the bottome again and the suicidal thoughts and self hatred and self harm are all bak now. i have been feeling this way for my whole life, the world and society have drummed and etched these feelings in to my life and it just feels so unfair that they did it without me even having a choice at such a young age to fight them, i was told i was bad so i believed it and lived up to their expectation of me. My relationship with god is not strong and my personality has a tendency to go for the quick fixes and i kno this is a worldly way and that god doesnt do quick fixes, but he does give us what feel like such complez choices and promises yet wen explained theres a realisation that they are irreducible. I just get myself into such a mess that i run and run from god. knowing full well he will be there right behind me waiting for me to take that one step bak even tho i feel tho as tho ive walked a billion miles from him. as you can see i know exactly where im going wrong. but i cannot trust in god, its sounds awful i know, but for me its how i feel, i cant just give it all to god. ive fought it on my own for so long that although i would love to change and be the woman god wants me to be, for me i feel as though i have no future so striving to make myself better feels totally pointless. screwed up is the word your looking for.sorry if anything i have said offends anyone. just remember im not saying how i feel is right. i need help

wow. thanks to everyone who has posted. i got some stuff to share later, after ive been to my joyful sociology lesson xx god bless you all xx

hey, im not a parent, but i remember my childhood very clearly.i was brought up in the church since i was a baby. alot of the stuff the pastor says, ur sons mind isnt really going to be able to cope with. also i always felt as a child that church was a little like school, someone at the front of the room, an adult, not being allowed to talk wen they are. church can be a big bore for kids. my mum use to refuse to let me n my sisters have colouring books and dolls with us. but she relaised that it was the only way of keeping us engrossed in something otherwise we wud just disrupt the entire service.When in church as a child i think i respected (in my child mind) the church and my mum alot more for not making me sit and listen to the service. xx

Anyone suffer from or has suffered from low self esteem? interested in some practical ways of fighting it and also what god has to say about it? i dont want to be told its wrong because i already know that. i just see no good in myself, how can i be a good witness to god if i hate myself and feel i cant do anything of worth. this will probably turn out to be a rubbish post and people will be like, just get over yourself which is fair enough, but trust me this is a serious problem i have, its the only feeling i can always remember being there. who put it there? or have i caused it myself?

thank you aimee

bless you spunky. xx

was that cos you were havin trouble sleeping?

if the person be a christian then i would debate that they would still go to heaven as they were saved. but i am sure many will disagree

when i was on them i relied on them and not on god to heal me, i had a very bad experience with them thats why i asked.

i had like 60 replies to it, where have they all gone?

i cant seem to open this topic, can any one else? or is it just my computer? xx

aww bless you xx

your post really blessed my day thank you jade

Of course it's normal to have doubts before the wedding. This is one of the biggest decision of your life - and affects all the rest of your life - so it's normal to wonder are you doing the right thing, or about to mess up everything. Before I got married, I wondered a lot about whether Larry was the right man for me. I spent months in prayer, reading my Bible, trying to be sure this was what the LORD wanted for me (and for Larry). But I also looked over how Larry and I met, and how it was absolutely the LORD who put us together. Now I have a question for you: Have the two of you talked together about what you each expect from your lives together? Things such as when and whether you plan/hope to have children, and whether you expect to work or stay home after you have children. If there is something major the two of you fundamentally disagree on, and one of you would have to compromise, and you see that compromising on it would drive you crazy - better to figure that out now, and cancel the wedding if you need to. Yeh we have talked about all that. children, plans everything, the only thing we disagree on really is garlic. erm, i know what you mean about the lord absolutely putting u together. i feel that way too. my main concerns are how ash feels baout ti all and whether he feels the same? he is so laid bak about everything he is horizontal. whereas i get stressed about everything. really i shud follow his example to an extent. but i wonder whether he is just marrying me cos its convinient and not cos i am the love of his life and he couldnt imagine being without someone else ! none of this really makes sense,its basically just everything thats flying around in my head xx