Hi Mathy,
I am not a counsellor but I kinda know what you are on about but in reverse. I always wanted to be married and have a happy family life, well I was married had a son but unfortunately my husband didn't want to stay married this all happened before I was a christian, he wasn't a christian either . Even after I became a christian I still wanted to be married. Through lots of prayer reading the bible and wise counsel I am now completely happy in the Lord on my own with my son. I have accepted the walk God has given me. mine is on my own with my son yours may be with your husband. I don't know but I do know that God is the one to help, he loves you and knows all you go through. I do hope that you find in God what you require.
Much love in Christ
Carol R