Bless you and I am happy that you have your meds! But as to going back to your life? Are you happy to do that? You have received some good advice from the posters on this thread and I really think you need to sit with Jesus and reassess where you are at the moment. Jesus wants you to be happy, He wants His yoke to be light, but you have to be plowing in His field, and not your own for that to happen. Who's field are you in at the moment? Do you feel like you are walking behind the plow, or pushing it?
This is in no way meant to be judgemental missflick, I too audit myself from time to time (it's important), and assess my walk. I ask myself whose field am I plowing, His or mine, and there are some things that I have held onto very tightly, that I have had to (with difficulty), let go. It's a hard thing to do, especially when our emotions and other people (who can manipulate or intimidate us) are involved.
Remember that the one love you can be certain of 24/7 with no exception is His. He loves you, you are loved! But you have hard decisions to make, let Him guide you.
Blessings
Well said brother!!!