Gratitude to the unsung heroes: prayer warriors

[Catsmeow]

 I've been ministering to a very special man we'll call, "Psycho" (he has a different user-name) - the young man has been compassed about by great darkness. When I met him he'd been obsessed with serial killers for quite some time, people like the famous serial killers, "Richard Ramirez" and "Charles Manson." He's also gay and has succumbed to great darkness. 

Only God himself could give me the enormous grace to love him as if he were my own flesh and blood. I call him, "my brother" and have more love for this young brother who I dearly love. He's slowly crept out of darkness and allowed light to enter his dark prison. 

I've slowly won his trust (he has serious trust issues) and has shared very private things with me - which took months of frequent contact for him to be vulnerable to another human being.He's lived a societal black hole and walled himself off from most human contact. The isolation he's felt has caused him to become filled with darkness manifesting itself in hatred and contempt of other people.

Recently I've seen a change in him. He's beginning to respond to kindness and warmth. I've been able to share with him my own troubles and that caused him to open us. I've been slowly building his trust as one would build a home.God uses our own vulnerabilities to show others how much He understands them - He understands them so much that He uses us t show them how much He understands through our example.

That requires us to reach out and love others as we love ourselves. It's a high maintenance and time consuming ministry to love others with intense love, Christ's perfect unconditional love - so that they might believe.

I have developed such an intense love for these people, they are my purpose for living - my reason for living on this earth. My love is all-encompassing; My love is as a mother longs for her only son. It's the most powerful emotions and passions of maternal and sibling love one can imagine. 

Oh, how I love these people - the very ones written off by society. Who can comprehend the love I feel for them? I am inspired to grow in the intensity of this love - this love for which I can barely find words. 

The Spirit of the Lord is upon me and I have come to understand this one thing: I have given the greatest gift of all gifts - the gift of love.

I am learning to take people right where they're at and soak up the light and love of Jesus Christ and to shine like a beacon on the shore. I am experiencing a supernatural love for people I have never felt before...this love, this beautiful love and light that God is shining in my heart. How I love them! I could gather them up in my arms like clusters of tiny flowers - so sweet the nectar; so precious in my soul!

I long to tell them how much I love them all...how dear and precious. Oh, how I love these countless faces of hurting people and feel the intense love and concern the Savior of our Souls is when He looks into their eyes.

I now understand why we are supposed to be his eyes and ears, his arms and his very heartbeat.

I know now why the Lord has been singing to me in my heart - so I might fulfill my purpose on earth: to be His representative that embraces the lost and forgotten and be His representative on earth. I have become his ambassador...and I understand now how Paul felt and his heart for the church.

What has happened to the body of Christ? What has happened to her? I wonder. I question why we have become a resort for the healthy and not a hospital for the wounded. I don't understand this at all. It's perplexing and sad.

Thank you and anyone who speaks to the Lord in a deep and personal way - asking for His favor upon the forgotten masses of lost souls that could surely come to Him if only someone cared enough about those outside their circle of family and friends.

I am grateful for the prayer warriors who read this and dig their heals in and fight for these lost and unloved people. You are the true movers and shakers in the spiritual war we are engaged in.

Bless all of you who read this letter. For it is addressed to you (and you know who you are...the unseen warriors for Christ.) You are the unsung heroes of the faith. You are the brothers and sisters I love so dearly and who precious to our Savior and Lord, Jesus Christ.

Thank you - the examples of Christ's loves. You're what gives me so much inspiration - the prayer warriors for Christ.