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[Guest jessgirl]

I am trying to get together a large amount of Christian testimonies, I am in the process of creating a book and it is solely based on Christian testimonies. My own testimony will be published in it. I am hoping that as you read this God will speak to your heart and you will share your story with me, if you want your name left out of it that is fine. I always hear that besides the Bible, your testimony is the best tool you have, then why not compile them into a large book and try to reach out to people who may not know what Jesus can do in their life. You can post it here or please email me: jessgirlpublishing@jesusanswers.com

Please pray for this book and pray for it to fully glorify God.

If you have any questions please ask.

[Constant]

Here is mine:

Well, I have always known that God was real. I never accepted Him into my life until last year. I had a very horrible few months when my Husband was off in training(Marines). I felt all alone and helpless. I was up in NH where my family is at the time. My neighbor, Kristin and I bonded and we drank every single night for 3 months straight. She was an alcoholic. We got along so well! Her husband, Dan, worked with a guy, Jim, I went to junior high with. One day, Dan invited him over for a cook out and Jim and I got to talking about our old friends and stuff like that. Kristin and I used to go hang out with him at his house and drink. He had a roommate named JJ. I knew JJ from school but never personally knew him. Drinking became a problem for me. I started to get this huge chip on my shoulder. I got into fist fights with my sister and my 2 brothers. It was horrible! I was so lonely and depressed with out my husband. It was the first time in 8 years that we have been apart for a long period of time. I felt like I had no one to talk to. My family was always there for me and they were great but, I felt so cold and low. I wrote a suicide letter that my mother later found because I did the unthinkable on night. I got really hammered and went over to Jim and JJ's house and started crying and flipping out. I felt like I had no purpose in life anymore. I have always dealt with depression but this time, I hit rock bottom. I didn't ever let it show though. Anyways, I ended up stepping outside of myself ans sleeping with JJ( almost ). That night I went back to my parents house and asked God for forgiveness. When my husband finally came to NH to get me, we moved down to NC to live and I felt so horrible all the time. I was always miserable. So finally one night, I told my husband the truth. We cried and held each other. He forgave me. Our marriage has been stronger than ever. He truly is my angel from above. I feel that God snuck into my heart one day and filled it with His love. Since that night, I have given myself to Him. I am a better person today because of that and it shows!

Allison

[Guest jessgirl]

Thank you, that is exactly what I was talking about. Very inspiring, sometimes God has to bring us down to get us to be close to him. My wife has always dealt with depression, God bless you....

[O'Dannyboy]

I do not have the time tonight to share mine with you. But I will try to come back to this thread tomorrow night.

[Constant]

Thank you, that is exactly what I was talking about. Very inspiring, sometimes God has to bring us down to get us to be close to him. My wife has always dealt with depression, God bless you....

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Thank you! It is true. I hope your book works out!

God Bless

USMC

Constant

[Guest jessgirl]

O'Danny boy, thank you I hope you do.

Constant thank you very much, I feel this will definitely work out. I have spent much time praying on this subject and feel convicted that this is what I should do.

[O'Dannyboy]

Well, here goes.

Somewhere in August or September I came to accept Jesus as my Lord and savior. Since that time my life has changed a great deal. Let me start with HOW it happened.

I had just gotten home from work to sit down and play a multi-player online role playing game (MORPG). At the time I was playing Star Wars and enjoying it alot. I made sure the fridge had plenty beer and that I had cigarettes to last. I logged in, took a swig of beer and began puffing on my cigarette. I am not sure how long I played that night but I am sure it couldnt have been long. Somewhere in the interim I stopped and looked at each of my hands, in one hand was my beer and the other was a freshly lit cigarette. I reasoned with myself "I don't need this to live". I looked at the other hand "I don't need this to live either". I asked myself "if I don't need this to live, and I know its not good for me, why do I do it?"I was dumbfounded at where my life had gone. I was in shock, but moreover I was ASHAMED. At that moment, as I shook my head in dismay at how lost I fealt, I closed my eyes and asked God to help me. I pleaded with him "please save me from myself". I turned off my computer, poored out my beer, and snuffed out my cigarette and went to bed.

The next morning I wen't to work and went half the day without a cigarette without even noticing I hadn't smoked yet. Realizing God had answered me and taken away my craving I gleefully went the rest of the day without one. It was Friday and I still looked forward to playing my video game. I went home and fired up the game trying to enjoy it without beer or cigs. It wasn't gonna work, so at that moment I ended my subscription. I watched a movie or two and went to bed. The next morning I woke up and without a seconds thought, lit a cigarette and smoked 3/4 of it before the pain set in. As I put that cigarette out I lay on my back in bed moaning in pain. I thought to myself "what a mistake!". Indeed I felt foolish, but I had all the evidence I needed. As I lay there I gave thanks to our Lord for what I knew was punishment. In the back of my mind I understood. (we can do this the easy way or the hard way) I asked for help and help I would get even if it hurt. It was then that I realised how much he loved me.

From that point on God has been guiding me and drawing me to His Son. Through the witnessing of others in the devine writings contained in The Holy Bible and of witness of my brothers and sisters here at Worthy Boards I am blessed. I have since been baptised and begun attending service regularly. I have stopped smoking, and drinking all beverages that contain alcohol or cafine. I now attend bible study (which I am running late for hehe) and try to exercise every day. I am blessed every day and I give thanks for any trials set before me.

I pray that my testimony may lead others to seek Gods grace and love, and that it might also lift up my brothers and sisters in Christ that they may once more behold Gods love and glory in the heart of another man.

Your loving brother in Jesus

Joly