Hi Joi, you are not alone. satan's aim is to stop God's people from praying and reading the Word, and unfortunately, we make it rather easy for him to succeed when we allow our circumstances and situations, our feelings and our priorities to get in the way. We often get so busy doing everything else, that when its time to pray or spend time with the Lord, we fall asleep, or we have no energy left, etc. And just as we will starve if we do not feed ourselves physically, we also will starve when we do not feed ourselves spiritually; and then we experience what seems like a distant relationship with the Lord.
God wants us to be excited over Him. I have found that when I thirst for the Word and for time with God, and I diligently go after study of the Word, mostly in my private devotions and spend quality time loving and fellowshiping with the Lord, I have no problem of being in that place in Christ where I should be. I happily rest confidently in Him. But when I begin to get bogged down with the responsibilities of my job, and personal circumstances, commitments and other situations, then I use all my energy and become very tired especially when I should be in the Word - and it always seems so easy to sacrifice fellowship and quality time with God, and to say that God knows that we love Him, and God understands, etc....
So, yes, you are right, and we have probably all at various times experienced the struggles. But (back to first love) if we love the Lord with all our heart, soul and mind (everything that is within us) if we stay excited with and in Jesus, our love and excitement will propel us into His word and prayer and fellowship with Him. I suppose it is a discipline that each of us have to decide to cultivate / practice. And we know that practice makes permanent.
Joi, .....again...from today, together with you, I am making a commitment to practice personal fellowship and communion with an excited spirit of expectation with my Lord. I am not going to let anything come between me and God. And I pledge to make sure that my relationship with God is alive and active. If you will make this pledge as well, then you will soon find yourself again, in the place where you need to be in Christ.
God bless you and continue to keep all that you have committed unto Him. In Christ.