eamasil,
I was also sexually abused among other abuses. I also suffered from post traumatic stress disorder. So I can relate to that. Also, because of the abuse, I processed things in my brain through a victim stand point instead of a godly one. I was horribly lonely and alone, all I wanted was to be loved for me. In 2000 the Lord showed me how much he loved me unconditionally, and healed me of my victim mentality and way of thinking. He healed wounds that were deep, and he will do the same for you. I'm telling you, I gave myself up to Him. I said "have your way", and when the process began to hurt, I said "don't stop". I guess a person needs to come to a place of being so desperate that they will cry out to God continuously and allow him to do what he wants to do no matter how much it hurts, and it does hurt!
Two of my favorite scriptures, and one's that the Lord showed me is:
Job 13:15 - Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him
Hosea 6:1b - For He has torn, but He will heal us; He has stricken, but He will bind us up.
I will be praying for you!!!