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I posted all real pictures on a free dating website in my twenties, and got insulted in the forums as well as not believed they were me. People thought I was cat fishing, but were also insulting my appearance at the same time ? ? ? ? It didn't make much sense to me, I would figure if I was unattractive, then I would not have chosen that picture ! Or do I have it backwards ? ! ?

I just don't think they look good on women. I have a scar above my right eyebrow, that is bugging me and thought about how I would go about getting it tattood over with the color of my eyebrows. I don't know if they can tattoo over a scar. And that is completely different than a woman getting a tattoo. The two are just not the same thing.

Palestine makes their women cover their hair, and no one sings or has any fun. I admit, I like it quiet. I don't like it THAT quiet.

There is a guy that I like who has tattoos. I don't like for myself, but I would not want him to remove them. At the same time, I would not want anyone else to add anything to them. When I meet people, I like them for who they are when I meet them. I don't ever want people to change who they are. This man has tattoos, and I like him just the way he is, at least surface appearance, and he is also super talkative, which is good for me, because I can not talk around a guy at all. Everything ends up having to be written. Albeit, I admit, I'm intimidated as all get out right now

I have the same stuff coming up on my social media. The first person to ever send me inappropriate content to my inbox was a woman. I clicked on a link on accident in this guys' email. It took me to a site. I still email him, at the same email. Sometimes. Because I miss him. I don't know if it's hacked, or if I'm hacked, but the guys have hacked each other's profiles as pranks. It was pretty heartbreaking. But, also the content was funny, if I'm being genuine. It was a funny prank. Just being honest. The other day some emojis popped up under a comment I posted on some site, that I don't remember posting after my comment. I was wondering if one of the guys' was in my account. Try not to be too judgemental, or too heartbroken, I know it can break your heart, but his ring is the one on your finger, which is all that matters in the long run. My accounts are probably hacked, too, or someone just has that stuff on theirs. And actually, the first person to ever privately and directly send me inappropriate content to my inbox was a woman. A woman sent me the first inappropriate content to my inbox.

Tying this together, ^Fast fashion, Harlot system, etc. I believe this fast fashioned culture is another part of the Harlot beast system. I'm not not necessarily saying about the modesty issue,and etc, I am just saying once you know, you know. Organic 100% fibers are better for the environment. Etc. Locally sourced,a nd ethically sustained, or however it's says it. It would put a lot of China out of business. I do tend to gravitate towards basics articles of clothing. Whenever I steer off of the basics, I instantly regret it now, and end up looking like a fool. To get the Harlot system to gravitate towards the basics, . *Sigh*. It would put a lot of China out of business.

Does anyone else think that each and every American should go back in time, and save their grands of money, and that each and every American should help to pay off the nation's massive amount of debt ? I don't know how a nation's debt works, I just found it interesting that if you multiply a certain number between each American citizen, And guesstimate how much debt each American has, it works it's way out to be about what the cost total of the nation's debt is. Back when the nation's debt was whatever, it was about the same amount of money that my parent's have invested in to cable. About the same amount of money I have invested in to fast fashion. And etc. I was raised to be conscientious of the price of an article of clothing, and heavily indoctrinated with pop culture, whether country or not, . Now that I know, it's like I am attached to some of it still, . If all you are concerned about is the price , then you are going to wind up with 15 pairs of cheap fast fashioned, as opposed to 2 pairs of really nice things. Tiz all I am saying.

Thanks. Thank you. I appreciated this, even thought I don't know who Austin Sparks is. I appreciated your words on the subject.

Interesting take on it, I appreciated all of the first post. Ironically, the less material things we need, the more money in the bank saved, I appreciated all of the first post, thanks @Starise,

Please, No. Please make it stop. Please, No.

Agreed.

Is it shallow, For God to judge Sodom and Gomorrah ? In the Bible, Money is the root of all kinds of Evil, And Sexual Immorality is taken as the worst sin because you sin against your own body. When God does Sodom and Gomorrah cities, Does he take innocent civilians with him ? The logical, female side of my brain wants to rationalize, and think that it is no big deal, and blame the male side of my brain for being overly emotional, and overly sensitive. The jealous husband who flies in to a rage at his cheating wife. That same side of my brain, Agrees with the female side of my brain, In where it is absolutely justified for God to destroy Sodom and Gomorrah. Twice. Three times. However many times it needs to be done! And that actually sounds like the male side, not the female side! Is it justified, or is it shallow? Is it masculine, or is it feminine? I know this is not the only reason for why God's people will be judged, I know there are so many more things in there, but some of the most severe, and things that come to the forefront that lead to all the others, are those two things. Men, will turn in to thieves and steal from people, in order to spend it on their women! That's also somewhere Biblical! Men will turn in to thieves on behalf of beautiful women, and they will murder other men who get in their way. Look at David, and Bethsheba! And her husband! This is my limited knowledge of what is going on. Sarai, Sarah, what have you, however it is, I listened at a church was the start of all this, with her using her help meet, to conceive a child with her husband. From there, Abraham's offspring have just gone berserk! Both of them! So, Is it shallow for God to take such drastic actions against his people? Is it shallow? This type of behavior I am describing hurt innocent civilians, and innocent people alon the way. Widows, orphans, women, children. Are women innocent ? Will civilian casualties, and innocent people be wrapped up along the way in the judgment, and is this justified? Does God care about the innocent people who get wrapped up in the judgement of destroying nations, and towns? Is there such thing as an innocent person in a society who becomes like this ? I know this sounds like it belongs in controversial issues, but it is a question, and it is on my mind right now, and it is several questions, and I don't know how I think about it. My brain is in conflict with my emotional, and my logical. :(.

I am not happy. I am not comfortable in public spaces. When I am in public spaces, I do not want to be seen. I am uncomfortable with worrying about what anything looks like except my face. If more of my face is showing, I am uncomfortable in immodest or frumpy or ugly or flashy clothes. I am uncomfortable with bling, and drawing attention to myself. I have incredibly limited resources, and I am not happy having the burden of having to provide for myself on my shoulders. I have no males in my family who are willing to provide for me, Outside of my father's home, in a mutually and reciprocated relationship. My father's home comes with compromised, and loud noises. I do not like loud noises. I hate even worse the sound of outsiders people who are not from a church, and who are not my immediate family. I am uncomfortable in public, I don't want to be seen in public, I am unhappy with my own finances, and I want my immediate family, and my husband. I do not have a husband. Being stared out by good looking men when I am out in public is an added trigger, and an added stressor. Yet, I am still too embarrassed to do anything about it. I also do not have the finances to do anything until next month. The tablet I am on is limited, which I enjoy. I enjoy having limited access to the world outside of my parent's home. I need guidance, and prayers, on what to do going forward. Right now I am pretty much at a stand still until next month. I can not even afford to buy anything for bugs, so I can sit outside on the patio. I may be able to, but I have to get it approved by my mom first. I would like to wait a little, but that means I have to put up with loud noises for longer. I am unhappy, and I want to try a lectin free diet. I am unhappy trying to research all of that, and unhappy I did not discover it sooner. I am in the process of trying to retain information about a lectin free diet. It's a lot of work, and I have to wait for two more weeks before I can really start anything with it. I have food, but it is all processed, lectin filled, soybean filled, wheat flour, etc, it's all of that stuff. I am unhappy and feel like I can't eat anything. I am unhappy. I am unhappy with American life. ;( ;(

I don't like Judeo Christian societies, but I do like Jesus, and I do read the Bible, and I do understand a lot of it, and from my own actual paper back, leather bound, and hard cover Bible reading, I understand anyway, that I am justified in feeling this way. I will not, not go to church, nor avoid the judeo Christian things and country, though.

I don't like the internet, but I sure am glad it's here, so I can research all of the medical stuff, and all of the stuff I hear all day long in the background, or when I'm downstairs, and can form my own opinion about things I am not even interested in in the first place, only to have my baby boomer mother dig in here heels and not do her own internet research, and remain further in the pocket of mainstream media, and further gripe about the internet at the same time. Btw, I was flat out almost forbidden by her, to not ever do my own research about medical things. Flat out almost forbidden. I don't like texting, because people and the law take it about as seriously as a phone call, or someone showing up at your house unannounced. There is no deciphering the difference between speaking out loud, and written word. Not anymore, there's not.

I don't like pictures. I want a black and white drawing of myself, and pretty, Roman Empire style artwork the way it used to be, and a black and white newspaper instead of high definition television. I want one, beautifully drawn, black and white picture of myself, and my own family to come home to in a gigantic castle, or beautiful Roman Empire building, with low and natural lighting, and beautifully drawn pictures and sculptings from a real artist, from a real, and natural artist. I don't like high definition, modern selfies and pictures taken with a high definition camera, nor a smart phone.

I don't like music. I can play music, and when I'm, not destroying my life through screaming, I mean my voice, that, too, To my own ear, I can sing pretty beautifully, if I do say so myself. I don't like music, I've written lyrics, and hum underneath my breath, and I can hold a steady beat, but I don't like it. I don't like loud noises, and I don't like fame. I don't like social studies, either. I would rather not be apart of it.

One of the things I am so grateful to God for, especially in this day and age and my age, is that He protected me from the influence of ever getting any. I do know of some men who have them that they aren't so bad. As a female, we have to be very careful. Too many, or even one at all for some, is not pretty. One of my Praises to Jesus, and one of the things I am so thankful to Him for, and apart of my Testimony, Is that as a female in this generation, He protected me from getting any. I am so grateful for that. Jesus has My Heart. He gave me the strength, and the resources to not be inundated with the culture too much. So Thankful.

Church to me, Should look like the Episcopal church I went to a couple of times, But had to leave because they had been admonished by the Anglican Communion, and are not heeding warnings. I have mostly been at contemporary churches, but someone should probably ask me how often I think about the Roman Empire,........................

I will vote for Trump again, Or RFKJr, or no one. If Trump is not on the ballet, I will not be voting at all.

All I can say, is I praise the Good Lord Almighty every day almost, that I do not have any, and especially for my age range. One of the things I am so grateful to God for, is that I don't have any. Praise Jesus, For the miracles that he works in my life. Truly thankful.

However, I will say, that apparently Seattle just did this, and there was an uptick in crime, so maybe it's not a good idea, I don't know, I stay away from drugs, I take medications prescribed by a Nurse Practitioner, it used to be a Psychiatrist, there is a shortage of Doctors, So now it is a Nurse Practitioner, I know my first psychiatrist told me to go home and eat a steak, So I will stick to steak and my Nurse Practitioner, I am not sure if drugs should be legalized, they were just in Seattle, and it did not go well, so, I don't know, Have a steak, and some wine, is what I say, have a steak, and some red wine, is what I say. Wash it down with a glass of milk after.

I have never been one to shy away from when I don't understand something, Patriot, that's not me, either. I did read all of it. I don't understand ? You made some comment about pregnant women can indeed walk, as if they would ever say they can't ? That's how I read that, anyway. I have never been married, and I have never been with a man, as a result of that. My mom went over the obvious with me, but I didn't even know about my own biological clock until I did my own internet search on it. Couple that with them being on here and reading someone actually talking about Sarai, or Sarah, or whichever way means which, as if that can actually happen in a natural way in this time, and I am really confused. I don't know all of the correct terminology. I truly don't understand. My mom went over the obvious with me, but I have never been married, and never been with a man. It is unclear if I would even be able to carry a baby to term, given my health conditions. I have a Serious Mental Illness, and am on several medications. A pregnancy for me could result in danger to the mother, which in case, meaning me. I have been too busy being sick, and falling in love several times, only to either not be pursued, or to be rejected. I truly do not understand. My mom went over the obvious with me, but unless I am actually married, then I am obviously not active being that I am a Christian, and that is and has always been a requirement for me. I have not had to think about all of this stuff, I have been too busy being sick. The smoke inhalation, was due to your kind of weird comment about how pregnant women can walk, as if you think a pregnant woman would ever say she can't ? So, I laughed, Because I am not a feminist, and I myself know first hand how annoying my own gender can be. I find stuff like that funny, sometimes. I do not believe in the progressive Christian theories that are of some who are Christians. I believe women are fully capable of being responsible for themselves, unless something is wrong, which is the case of with me. I have a Serious Illness, and Disability in my brain. So, if the science you posted was wrong, I truly don't know where. I put a laughing reaction at the off comment about pregnant women and walking. It was kind of a backhanded comment, but it's still funny because I am a woman, and I already know about my own gender, since I am a woman. Off comment, yes, funny, yes. Truthful, yes. I already know all of this stuff. But, as far as the embryo, or whatever, or the science being off, or whatever, I truly did not catch that, and I still haven't. I have been too busy being sick with an illness in my brain, and I have never been married, nor active, as a result. I am 38 1~2, and I am still waiting for my husband, IF, he is out there. Which, yes, I am attracted to a few. A select few, but a few. But, I have never been with any of them, and too sick to know anything about the science behind all of the pregnancy stuff. A pregnancy for me, could end up in danger to the mother. Assuming there aren't anyone trying to say that a disorder in your brain, isn't physical. That it isn't a physical illness. If we can get past people thinking that a disorder in your brain, isn't physical, and is physical, then it could result in a danger to the mother, potentially, not to mention, I am getting way too old for it, as well. Way too old for it, now, way, way, way too old for it now. Almost, to the point of becoming barren, I am almost now a barren woman, which may be a good thing for my particular case, being of all of my health issues. Not having kids, for me personally, may be a healthier this for me, personally. I don't like it, and it makes me sad, but it may be the best thing for me. I am too busy learning the science behind my brain, and which medications to take, and being on every different combination of them, than I am about the science behind pregnancy. It might be too much for me. It could result in a danger to the mother. Potentially. Plus, women in public education aren't really taught any of this, either, I don't think, but for me, I just haven't been well enough to have to be concerned with it, for myself. I was home schooled, and I still have not been in a position where I have had to think about it. If that changes, Worthy will probably be the first to know, after my parents ~ family, etc, but I don't think it's going to. I don't think anything is going to change, and I have no indication that it will anytime soon. So, no, I don't understand which part of the science was wrong, and yes, I did read all of it. I read all of your post. I still don't know which part of the science was wrong.

This is what I thought Patriot meant in his initial post. I don't know which words are the correct terms,Or whatever, But I know that a fertilized embryo or whatever, Can't survive outside of frozenness. Loll. This is how I read Patriot's post.

I did read all of y our post ? I am confused, at the confusion ?