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Hi, I feel sad and hopeless. I saw the gospel message like last may and believed it and repented but then I ended up having a thoughts problem after fear of the unpardonable sin and attacked with unwanted blasphemous thoughts made my head obsessive and I have a fear of thinking sinful thoughts. I’m 17. My relationship with God isn’t good and I’m struggling to follow Jesus. My head has a thought problem for like 5 months I think where I get tempted to think thoughts about people out of obsession and fear of breaking the commands. I read cursing verses in the Bible and then my head obsessed over them and get tempted to think the word curse all the time and about others and other bad thoughts and I don’t mean them. I find it hard to be around people now. I ‘complained’ in my head a lot about how sad I am and how I feel and stuff. I’m scared because I think my heart maybe got filled with other things like worldly things maybe and my love for God. I’m scared incase what if I don’t love Jesus or enough. I try to keep the commands but my head gets tempted to think thoughts about people — my head was never like this before until my head started obsessing over sinful thoghts. And He said to keep the commands. And I think to myself a lot. I’m scared because of my heart state: i think sinful thoughts made it less pure, soft, humble, loving etc.. And I’m scared about my heart state towards God and Jesus. My head has bad thoughts a lot I’m scared of hell and the end times and my family need saved. I think the fear of death has caused me to love myself more and my life and everything like the flowers and colours and being able to walk etc... and I think it caused pride I don’t think I’m on the narrow way and I struggle with thoughts everyday and don’t feel desire for Jesus and like affection for Him. I don’t feel connection with Him and struggle to follow Him and have my heart set on Him. Idk how to change it. And my head mostly thinks about God the Father aswell and hard to focus on Jesus idkk why I’m scared because of the depart from me verse and the bad fruit broken branch verse and I’m scared of God leaving I’m scared because of time and I feel far from God and I want to love Jesus and God more than myself and life. thanks for reading

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Hi. I’m so scared. About two weeks ago I started having cursing thoughts because I read verses about cursing in the Bible for example :- Genisis 9:25 he said, "Cursed be Canaan! The lowest of slaves will he be to his brothers." and 1 Corinthians 12:3 Wherefore I give you to understand, that no man speaking by the Spirit of God calleth Jesus accursed: and that no man can say that Jesus is the Lord, but by the Holy Ghost. these verses triggered me and I then started having thoghts in my head saying “curse” and I started getting tempted to think them about people and then I started praying to Jesus and then started getting tempted to think them about Him. I don’t feel emotions for Jesus and I don’t feel like connection and stuff with Him and it triggered me to think stuff. my head has been doing it for like over a week and I’m scared incase because I tube it hardened my heart. I’m scared because anyone I look at or think another my head gets tempted to think it about them. And Jesus. i want my heart to be soft for Him. (I received Him 10/11months ago I’m sure) But prayed to the Father most of the time until a few months ago. im scared for my soul. ? I asked Jesus for help all week and I’m scared because last night I read this verse:- Ecclesiastes 10:20 Even in your thoughts, do not curse the king, nor in your bedroom curse the rich, for a bird of the air will carry your voice, or some winged creature tell the matter. im always in my bedroom - barley leave it. my thoghts have been cursing Jesus is king Christians are rich and my head thoghts cursing thoghts. I don’t know what to do. I’m terrified. I’m scared about my standing with God. I want to be saved. I want to be with God.? I don’t even know if He’s with me. I’m scared because of the cursing thoghts and because of the state of the heart and Jesus and the thoghts about Him. thanks for reading

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Thanks. im 17 and don’t work and don’t know what God wants me to do all day. I wanted to know what Gods will is in general like because the Bible says to do it and I’m scared because the Bible says only those who do the Will of God will be saved. One of the things of Gods Will is to pray continually. A lot of time I don’t have the strength to keep doing it alot over and over and i wanted to know what else God wanted everyone to do(His will)

I don’t know what God’s will is and it scares me. Matthew 7:21 "Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. Matthew 12:50 For whoever does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother." 1 John 2:17 The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives forever. John 6:40 For my Father's will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day." what does it mean to look to the Son??? what does God want me to do all day. im scared because if you don’t do God’s will ..... I want to have life. I love breathing the air outside and the blue sky and trees what is His will? thanks for reading

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I think I’ve been living in ungodliness and didn’t realise it. I don’t think I was living to honour God. This is the video I watched:- Because I think I was living to honour myself and not God I’m worried incase I used Gods grace as a lisence tk sin because I’ve complained a lot I’m scared incase Gods angry at me. The video I watched says that some Christians have their hearts surrendered to Jesus and they still struggle sometimes and then there’s their people who are ungodly and aren’t living to honour God but to themselves I’m scared so I am. I’ve complained in my head so much like every day and I spend all day on my phone and I didn’t think about living to honour God. I didn’t even think. The video said that some have the show of a Christian but it ungodly and fellowship with Christians. I fellowship with Christians online and I quote scriptures all the time and think about God. But I haven’t been living to honour Him. The video also said people twist the gospel to fit their own flesh. I have been angry in my head and complained in my head and lay in my bed all day. I haven’t really been acting the godliest and because of ocd thoghts always running through my head I find it hard to talk trying to tame my thoughts every second and sometimes I speak in a non gentle way and it looks really rude. I don’t think I’ve been serving God. Jesus scares me all the time so I find it hard to feel emotion and focus on Him. I go on my phone all day every day and stay in my bed all day and barley leave my room because idk what else to do. I have nowhere to go nothing to do. I have bad OCD intrusive thoughts so I haven’t prayed to God properly in like 2 weeks. I struggle with unwanted sinful thoughts. would Jesus even want me to pray to Him if I don’t feel emotion for Him. I don’t know how to surrender my heart to Hin and I don’t know how to deny myself or take up my cross and follow Him. I don’t know what Gods will is. I’m scared incase Gods angry at me. please help thank you for reading ?

Hi, I saw a post about how the earth is spinning faster than it has the past 50 years. And that we loose 0.5 seconds everyday. And a bible verse about how the earth and stars are going to stuff and it will be like hell unleashed on earth or something and people will be running around then Jesus would come and help the earth. And it said that time is running out like seriously now and that Jesus is coming soon. (This was like 3 days ago) I saw a video on ig and the person said how they feel In their spirit that everything has been quiet spiritually and that something big is about to happen. And that we need to be ready. And someone commented on it that they feel weird when someone says “in about ten years time “ as if we’re not going to have ten years. I think it’s the antichrist I haven’t been living right. Jesus spits lukewarm out and tells people who don’t do Gods will to depart and people who sin to depart. He also separates the sheep from goats. I feel condemned. I haven’t really had time. I feel like I’ve did more wrong than good. I still struggle with ocd and it causes me to dwell on sinful thoughts all day I don’t want to be rejected by him. I find it hard to repent of sinful thoughts me head just does and dwells on always being tempted He’s so serious and I dknt want him to tell me to go. I don’t want to go to hell. I also don’t really feel emotion towards Jesus. He scares me and almost the whole time I was scared of him. don’t know where I’m going (eternally) I’m extremely sad and depressed and worried. I dknt know if it’s going to be good. My family also need saved and I haven’t been praying for them. I have barley been praying because of ocd. I get tempted to curse and blasphemy God when I pray. I’m not sanctified enough idt At the minute I feel kinda numb of emotion but a lot of time I’m sad and I don’t think I’ve produced enough fruits. The last few days I’ve been wasting time doing nothing all day but lay in bed on my phone. The whole time i felt rushed and I’ve been barley praying to God. I’m scared of loosing Jesus. Thanks for reading ?

Thanks I’m also concerned because I don’t think I feel emotion/affection for Jesus ?

Hi Walter, I felt better after reading them : ) I’m just worried of Matthew 7:21-23 I also saw a website that if you don’t have all these feeling and emotions and stuff for Jesus and treasure him above all else then you’re not worthy of salvation and forgiveness. And that he only welcomes those who love him. I struggle to feel emotion and affection and idk what to do : ( it’s hard to pray to God because of ocd. I don’t want to loose him and I feel like we barley have any time left ...

Hi I’ve been a Christian for over 7 months and the whole time I’ve had very strong emotions/ feeling of love and affection for God. Then like 2 weeks ago I went through a lot of stress and stuff and unwilful sin (bad blasphemous thoughts triggered by fear of unpardonable sin) I complained in my head a lot and even blamed God and got angry at him I think. I was like this for days. For over a week and maybe two, icr, I kept on complaining and thinking blaming thoughts about God and him not helping me and stuff ? I struggled with my relationship with God the whole time as a Christian. I’m not close to him and don’t really have a relationship with Jesus at all ? I feel like we don’t have long left here and it makes me worry for my family who need saved and .. It makes me feel scared condemned forced and pressured to pray to him all the time otherwise idk if I’ll ‘I’ll make it’ I’m scared of God and he scares me. It’s hard to pray when I don’t really feel anything (emotion towards him ) I also read that if you don’t love God you don’t get to be with him and that puts me under more pressure. I asked God for my feeling and emotion back the feelings of strong love for him. I care about the emotions I had (affection and adoration) Because I don’t feel them they get replaced with other emotions like anger fear numb .... I also found out God the father and Jesus and the Holy Spirit have different personalities. I get confused on who to pray to or focus on more. i struggled to feel affection for Jesus before but felt it for God the father and it concerned me. I feel distant and God almost feels like a stranger now ? I feel like we don’t have much time left and I feel like my relationship with God isn’t the best ? thanks for reading ?

I’m worried if Jesus comes back soon I’m not ready. I’m also not close to him. I haven’t been serving him either and I don’t want him to tell me to leave him

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Because I’ve spent the whole time in fear of I has committed the unpardonable sin because of blasphemous thoughts and have complained a lot because of my problems. I’ve also been on my phone a lot and have probably been lazy too

I’m already born again but I haven’t been living my Time as a Christian wisley

Hi, So I saw a thing earlier that said that people were celebrating the gospel being preached in all nations and it scared me because when that happens Jesus comes back. I’m nowhere near ready. I’ve been a Christian for 5 months and haven’t spent my time wisely. I spent the whole time worrying weither God left me because of attacks of the enemy. Ever since I found out about the unpardonable sin I had blasphemous thoughts. I’m still having them. All day everyday... I have so many problems it really just doesn’t look good for me... jesus tells people to depart of you don’t do Gods will. I probably haven’t been doing that. I’m sure I have no oil in my lamp and you won’t be raptured unless you are overflowing with oil. I’ve taken off school for over a week and stayed in my room in bed basically all day I took off.I haven’t didn’t many good fruits cause I barley had the opportunity. I’m struggling with blasphemous thoughts about the Holy Spirit. works like demonic, demon, devil.. my family aren’t born again... I tried talking to my mum. She thinks if you believe Jesus exists you are forgiven. She doesn’t think he’s coming back soon. I haven’t been fully sanctified and probably have hidden sin in my heart. I’ve complained in my head multiple times about my problems. im not close to Jesus. I’m struggling to repent tho I begged God to help me to. im not even a bride of Christ because I haven’t repented and haven’t done enough. I lack faith, im also terrified of God. Im terrified of judgement. I struggle to pray because of blasphemy. im so scared and want to hear from God. I want to know what God would say to me. If Jesus weren’t coming back so soon I wouldn’t worry as much because I’d have time to serve and repent and get closer. I really struggle to read the word too. I don’t want to be separated from God. I love God with all my heart. I haven’t been following Jesus taken my cross Nor denied myself. I have an urge to play games on my phone all the time. I don’t feel like I belong to Jesus. When I think of Jesus I think 9f ‘depart from me’ .. Emotions towards me i want to have a pure heart and be righteous. I don’t want anything to do with evil. i want to be a child of God forever. I don’t know where I stand with him. Thank you if you’ve read this far down I’m really worried

(Long story short I became a christian 4 months ago. I was always fine with my beliefs and always believe in Jesus never doubted. Then yesterday I started doubting weither God had left me because of severe blasphemous thoughts. Then I read so many times yesterday to believe in Jesus and you’ll be saved and stuff. I already have and because I read it so much it’s made me doubt. I’ve been having doubts since then. Idk if I can say Jesus is lord properly. I’ve been having blasphemous thoughts calling Jesus’acc.rs.d’ My head is filled with blasphemous thoughts even now as I’m typing. Then I slept in this morning and missed school because I was tired I woke up a few times and went back to sleep. ) Then the last dream I had was terrifying. The dream: It was judgement day. Me and people were in room with grey brick floor. It was big but wasn’t huge. Then some people took turns going up to the front to say some things about themselves. When I got up I saw my unbelieving friend and they looked at me and smiled and I cried for them. Then we all ended up going to the ‘great w...’ I asked the Christian behind me why are we here and they didn’t know. God was in a grey brick wall room. We weren’t allowed in and we had to wait outside and look at a machine to see what it said. I said to the person behind me I don’t think Jesus is going to be there for me and they said he probably will. When my answer got through it said ‘you are going to die’ in red letters and then I got a ticket or something that said ‘ 22 jul? and that I’m going to d.. by severe earthquake and meteor stars. The presence was so scary and condemning the whole time. I felt betrayed and that i felt failure. I felt like God was terrifying and that he turned against me.Then I went home and told my mum and then I woke up. The fact I’ve been doubting Jesus and have a dream about him not being there for me. I’m not close to Jesus. I have so many blasphemous thoughts calling hs, ‘satanic, demonic and devil and evil stuff’ Also thoughts calling Jesus a......d. I’m not close to God. I feel so condemned. What if I’ve committed the unpardonable sin or committed apostasy. I thought some blasphemous thoughts on purpose half an hour ago about calling tongues d..m...c I really don’t think there’s any hope for me. I’m really scared. I feel like my faith has gone. If you don’t believe in Jesus then you’re condemned. I was always fine in believing in him until yesterday. Also I don’t think I’ve been living in love and if you don’t Jesus will say to depart anyway. I don’t feel anytjng from God it feels like he’s against me. I thoghts things couldn’t get worse until I had the dream and then after the dream I’ve been having blasphemous thoghts maybe even out of anger. How can there be even any hope for me now ???? Idk of he’ll forgive the blasphemous thoughts. I loved God with all my heart and soul and still do but now I jsit feel fear towards him after the dream he feels different. Someone thinks maybe the dream was from him. I’m in such a bad mess with God and I’m scared ????? Sorry this was a little long but Thank you if you’ve read this far down. I accidentally posted this twice and can’t delete the second one ***

(Long story short I became a christian 4 months ago. I was always fine with my beliefs and always believe in Jesus never doubted. Then yesterday I started doubting weither God had left me because of severe blasphemous thoughts. Then I read so many times yesterday to believe in Jesus and you’ll be saved and stuff. I already have and because I read it so much it’s made me doubt. I’ve been having doubts since then. Idk if I can say Jesus is lord properly. I’ve been having blasphemous thoughts calling Jesus’acc.rs.d’ My head is filled with blasphemous thoughts even now as I’m typing. Then I slept in this morning and missed school because I was tired I woke up a few times and went back to sleep. ) Then the last dream I had was terrifying. The dream: It was judgement day. Me and people were in room with grey brick floor. It was big but wasn’t huge. Then some people took turns going up to the front to say some things about themselves. When I got up I saw my unbelieving friend and they looked at me and smiled and I cried for them. Then we all ended up going to the ‘great w...’ I asked the Christian behind me why are we here and they didn’t know. God was in a grey brick wall room. We weren’t allowed in and we had to wait outside and look at a machine to see what it said. I said to the person behind me I don’t think Jesus is going to be there for me and they said he probably will. When my answer got through it said ‘you are going to die’ in red letters and then I got a ticket or something that said ‘ 22 jul? and that I’m going to d.. by severe earthquake and meteor stars. The presence was so scary and condemning the whole time. I felt betrayed and that i felt failure. I felt like God was terrifying and that he turned against me.Then I went home and told my mum and then I woke up. The fact I’ve been doubting Jesus and have a dream about him not being there for me. I’m not close to Jesus. I have so many blasphemous thoughts calling hs, ‘satanic, demonic and devil and evil stuff’ Also thoughts calling Jesus a......d. I’m not close to God. I feel so condemned. What if I’ve committed the unpardonable sin or committed apostasy. I thought some blasphemous thoughts on purpose half an hour ago about calling tongues d..m...c I really don’t think there’s any hope for me. I’m really scared. I feel like my faith has gone. If you don’t believe in Jesus then you’re condemned. I was always fine in believing in him until yesterday. Also I don’t think I’ve been living in love and if you don’t Jesus will say to depart anyway. I don’t feel anytjng from God it feels like he’s against me. I thoghts things couldn’t get worse until I had the dream and then after the dream I’ve been having blasphemous thoghts maybe even out of anger. How can there be even any hope for me now ???? Idk of he’ll forgive the blasphemous thoughts. I loved God with all my heart and soul and still do but now I jsit feel fear towards him after the dream he feels different. Someone thinks maybe the dream was from him. I’m in such a bad mess with God and I’m scared ????? Sorry this was a little long but Thank you if you’ve read this far down.

Hey Thank you for replying it really helped me im worried because I’ve been dwelling on blasphemous thoughts last night and this morning about the Holy Spirit. They said things like d*m*n*c HS and devil my mind has constantly thought them and I’ve thought them purposley. i feel condemned and hopeless ?? is there any way to know Gods still with me ? thanks