Help me, please

[Apocalypse2007]

This is a tough thing to go through.  I avoid relationships at all costs simply because of this kind of thing.  But you will get through it in time.  For different reasons I have told God I hated him before and even went out looking for reasons why God can't exist.  It's ok to be mad at God, sometimes it helps, He understands that we all go through really bad times in our life and that under our human emotions we have no control over matters of the heart.  Things must run there course and in time you will be cleansed of your pain, I know how you feel, though the circumstances were different I have felt similiar pain to what you are describing, it does get better, but it will take time.

I am not one to go and say all this positive stuff like look ahead don't concentrate on the present and past ect... because you will concentrate on the present and past for awhile, and the more you cared about this person the longer you will hurt.

This poem, I don't know if you have heard it before is great for letting us realize that the small picture seems to have alot of big holes, but when looked at it from God's view they are mear pin pricks in the fabric of our lives, we just cannot see or understand that at the most painful moments of our lives.

Footprints In The Sand

One night a man had a dream. He

dreamed he was walking along

the beach with the Lord.

Accross the sky flashed scenes

from his life. For each

scene, he noticed two sets

of footprints in the sand;

one belonged to him, and the

other belonged to the Lord.

When the last scene of his

life flashed before him, he

looked back at the footprints

in the sand.

He noticed that many times

along the path of his life

there was only one set of

footprints. He also noticed

that it happened at the very

lowest and saddest times in his

life. This really bothered

him and he questioned the Lord

about it. "Lord, you said that

once I decided to follow you,

you'd walk with me all the

way. But I have noticed

that during

the most troublesome times in

my life there is only one set

of footprints. I don't understand

why when I needed you most

you would leave me.

The Lord replied, "My precious

child, I love you and would

never leave you. During your

times of trial and suffering,

when you see only one set of

footprints, it is then that

I carried you."

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[Guest Sporty]

Dude,have I been there!! It's tough,bro,but ya gotta hang in there. Took me about TWO years or better to get over one chick I was seeing. This was back in the late 80's. We were together for a year. The relationship kind of came apart and she bolted. I mean BOLTED! It was like she died. Didn't see her,didn't hear from her. She went back to college and found another guy,more dirt in the wound. THEN the devil stepped in and wanted some of me,too. I started getting phone calls from Lucifer. I asked the operator,ma'am,do you know who Lucifer IS? She'd say do you want to accept the charge? No,tanx anyway. I had one time driving down the road,at a stop light. Three chicks and a guy,roll the window down. They're like 'why are you alone'? I said because. They said 'because you're UGLY!' Laughed and drove off. Folks,I am NOT ugly,just for the record,otay?  But you know what? The devil KNEW it would get my goat! It sure did,but I rebuked the devil. Good advice here. Listen to it. She has a will and God will NOT over rule it! She leaves,LET HER GO,and do NOT hold on! I did the same stuff....fasting,prayer,anointing pic with oil....the whole spiel. Forget it,dude,and now. Today,otay? If you haven't by now,anyway. Move on,there ARE other fish out there,ya know. Patience...I hate it,believe me I know where you're at. But there's no other choice,unless you go out and find the nearest chick to marry. NOT a good idea,dude! Two wrongs don't make ONE right,not today not tommorrow! And marriage is permanent! Want a 'permanent' mistake on your record? You can get over this...a marriage is a 'bit' trickier,in God's eyes. Best bet...get over her today,move on. Who knows WHY she came around when she did. Facts are she's gone,so move on. Find someone willing to be with you. Patience...hate it,but there's no other way.... :thumb: