Guest ~*~LoLa Posted July 17, 2005 Share Posted July 17, 2005 ok for starters i am 17 i am 3 months pregnant i dont want to be latly ive been thinking of oding on some pills so i could die i feel regected by my hole family last year i tried to kill myself 3 times i was than hospitalized and my mom blames me for my grandma having a stroke and nearly dying which i belive was my brothers fault for being abusive towards her and evryone else in my house i just dont want to hold on anymore im tired of it i just wish i had someone to hold me and tell me that i am going to be alright but i have none anymore Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PwrInTheBld Posted July 17, 2005 Group: Diamond Member Followers: 0 Topic Count: 40 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 473 Content Per Day: 0.07 Reputation: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 06/05/2005 Status: Offline Share Posted July 17, 2005 Words on a computer screen can seem so empty but, I truely, truely would hold you Lola I have a daughter. I have a 17 year old. I was abandond by my parents. I wanted to kill myself at one time too. I would hold you Lola. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Constant Posted July 17, 2005 Group: Royal Member Followers: 0 Topic Count: 128 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 1,946 Content Per Day: 0.28 Reputation: 3 Days Won: 0 Joined: 01/25/2005 Status: Offline Birthday: 06/06/1979 Share Posted July 17, 2005 Lola, God has a plan for you. You might not feel it or see it right now because you are in the dark place right now but, He is on your side. Cast your worries and fears onto Him. Keep a strong hold onto His hand. When you fall, He will carry you. You have a life that God has given to you. He doesn't want you to end it. Things happen in life that are unexplainable. They hurt and confuse us. Sometimes, people want to give up and end it. Taking your life won't solve anything. Things do get better. Meet God half way. Alot of people in here have thought or tried to kill themselves. We all have our stories and advise to give and tell you. You need to really search for peace within yourself. Is it really worth it? You are pregnant with a child that God has blessed you with. You are 17 years old but there is a reason for this all that is happening. God will heal your tears. Hang in there Lola! We are here for you always. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Scarletprayers Posted July 17, 2005 Group: Royal Member Followers: 2 Topic Count: 135 Topics Per Day: 0.02 Content Count: 7,537 Content Per Day: 1.08 Reputation: 157 Days Won: 2 Joined: 04/06/2005 Status: Offline Birthday: 09/29/1956 Share Posted July 17, 2005 Sweetheart please don't, I will pray and pray for you! You came here because you wanted someone to know your pain, we are listening, let us be there for you! PM any of us, share and lean us us. We may not be able to hold you physically like you were told so sweetly above, but we will hold you in our hearts and thoughts! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ayin jade Posted July 17, 2005 Group: Worthy Ministers Followers: 44 Topic Count: 6,178 Topics Per Day: 0.87 Content Count: 43,799 Content Per Day: 6.19 Reputation: 11,244 Days Won: 58 Joined: 01/03/2005 Status: Offline Share Posted July 17, 2005 Lola, I wish I could help you. Please do not harm yourself. Things will get better. Going to pm you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BroChuck Posted July 17, 2005 Group: Royal Member Followers: 1 Topic Count: 85 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 1,634 Content Per Day: 0.22 Reputation: 11 Days Won: 0 Joined: 08/31/2003 Status: Offline Birthday: 01/18/1961 Share Posted July 17, 2005 (((((((((((((Lola)))))))))))))))) Lola know that there is someone that can hold you, and His name is Jesus .. Lola we love you and maybe we arent with you physically but we are with you in Spirit and praying for You, sister know that when Jesus said He will never leave you nor forsake you , that His Promise holds true, No matter what life throws at us we can know that He is with us, The Love He has for us is unlike any other love, He loves you so much He layed down his life for you , He died so you could live, He Rose so you could live and one day he will be back to get you and all that believe so you could live with Him forever in Heaven, A place where we will never again have to endure the effects of sin, but untill then we must walk in obedience to His will for our lives, bring others to know what we Know ... His Saving Grace Love You in Christ .. Yur Bro ..... Chuck Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Brotherman Posted July 17, 2005 Share Posted July 17, 2005 Psalm 121 You will be alright! You are loved more than you know! I have known many in similar situations like yours and worse... Ultimately that is not the issue... There is a REAL God with His REAL people that He uses as we are open to Him... God would never want you to take your life... Life is to precious to be taken by our hands... Those that I have known that have come to a greater place are at a better place in there relationship with the Lord and all those around them... For many it took time some it was very quick... Trust in Him and look to God first in all things... you will be fine The Brotherman Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nebula Posted July 17, 2005 Group: Royal Member Followers: 10 Topic Count: 5,823 Topics Per Day: 0.75 Content Count: 45,870 Content Per Day: 5.94 Reputation: 1,897 Days Won: 83 Joined: 03/22/2003 Status: Offline Birthday: 11/19/1970 Share Posted July 17, 2005 Stinks, doesn't it? I'm all too familiar with the suicide struggle, though for different reasons. For me, the bottom line is I feel so helpless and hopeless that I jsut want an out, and that is the only out I can see. Do you feel the same? May I share with you a couple of songs? Both of these are by an artist named David Meece : When I Was Seventeen Daddy left home when I was a kid Said he had to move on Took the bottle as his only friend I didn't know why, I didn't know why Mama tried to the best that she could But she just didn't understand All the confusion I was feeling inside And didn't know why, I didn't know why Feeling so alone How I wish back then I'd known Na na na na na na - You were calling Na na na na na na - While I was falling Na na na na na na - When I was seventeen From study hall to the senior prom I felt like no one at all Just a shadow in a crowded room I didn't know why, I didn't know why Thought I was to blame While your love screamed out my name Na na na na na na - You were calling Na na na na na na - While I was falling Na na na na na na - When I was seventeen Sure I heard you died for me I knew about the cross But oh the pain was burning deep It took so long to hear Your voice Na na na na na na - You were calling Na na na na na na - While I was falling Na na na na na na - When I was seventeen I found a photo of my mom and dad A few tears later I could see How much you loved that lonely boy Seventeen Na na na na na na Na na na na na na Na na na na na na - When I was seventeen Learning to Trust There's a father in your sweetest dreams Who's always there to meet you needs He never ever lets you down There's a mother in your heart of hearts Who always plays the perfect part She never lets you hit the ground This is the need of children These are their tender dreams And oh how it hurts when they don't come true That's why I'm learning to trust in you In everything I do I'm learning to trust in You Cause I know in my heart that You're true I'm learning to trust in You But sometimes it's so hard to do Father, little children must grow up And to grow we've got to learn to trust And to trust we've got to cling to you And when you tell me you will hold me close It's the very thing I need the most But it's the very hardest thing to do I've got this pain inside me It speaks to me loud and clear When there's so much to gain there's always so much to lose That's why I'm learning to trust in you In everything I do I'm learning to trust in You Cause I know in my heart that You're true I'm learning to trust in You But sometimes it's so hard to do Keep calling me drawing me closer Don't let me hold back Whatever it takes I must break through The heart of a child is broken But his time has come Whatever he lost I'll find in You That's why I'm learning to trust in you In everything I do I'm learning to trust in You Cause I know in my heart that You're true I'm learning to trust in You But sometimes it's so hard to do I know how bad you want and need you family's love. I wish you could be given that. Unfortunately, you can't change people, as much as you want to. All you can do is give to your child the love you wish you had been given. I know a woman who did this. She felt like slave all her life, not a daughter. But when she had her own children, she determined in her heart not to repeat her parents' mistakes. And she did it! Her children have developed into wonderful adults. Ironically, her mother still still abuses her, even though her mother lives with her and her husband. I know it's hard, but if this gives you hope that it can be done, then that's why I shared. Praying the Lord provide you with the support you need, if not from your family, then from a church, preganancy home, or something! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Khristeeanos Posted July 17, 2005 Group: Royal Member Followers: 0 Topic Count: 109 Topics Per Day: 0.01 Content Count: 1,278 Content Per Day: 0.17 Reputation: 29 Days Won: 0 Joined: 05/07/2004 Status: Offline Share Posted July 17, 2005 I myself struggled with depression and attempted suicide. Please read my testimony: http://www.thereal-truth.com/1diem.php or is it: http://www.the-realtruth.com/1diem.php ? Anyways, prayers going up for you. You are a special person whom God wants to deliver out of your struggles. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Homeward Posted July 17, 2005 Group: Junior Member Followers: 0 Topic Count: 1 Topics Per Day: 0.00 Content Count: 108 Content Per Day: 0.02 Reputation: 0 Days Won: 0 Joined: 05/06/2005 Status: Offline Share Posted July 17, 2005 (edited) Precious Little Lamb...I would hold you, too. You are not much younger than my daughters, and my heart truly goes out to you. Dear Heart, you are so not alone. In fact, sweet Nicole, did you know that your posting here today is an answer to the prayers I have been asking of Our Father since Friday? Yes, indeed you are very much loved and not alone. Here's another hug Little Lamb... And another... And another... So many have been wounded in life and have struggled with depression, and have come out on the other side. Not that life is ever perfect...people will fail you. In fact if I listed all the things that will fail you, I could be on here till at least next year. But Our Father never does. He has good plans for your life, Nicole, plans to give you hope and a future. It is my hope and my prayer that you are guided to loving and supportive people. A good pastor, a good Bible believing church, and a qualified Christian psycholgist would be a wonderful start. Sending so much love to you, dear. I will keep you in my prayers. In His Loving Heart and Name, Homeward Edited July 17, 2005 by Homeward Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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