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[lostlamb]

Hey

I have just recently come back to the lord. I suffer from sever depression and self-harming which thankfully i haven't done in ages. I'm 19 and have been saved for 3 years and back slid a year and half. I guess it all started when me and my bf split up and it just nose dived from there. I used to get visions and really nasty dreams. It got to the point that i had walked that far away from God i was walking right into satan and for awhile satan led me to believe that i could only rely on him, i mean i prayed to God to help me so much but each time he didn't but when i was at my most low satan was always there with a blade and for a while i thought that that was helping but I knew deep down that it wasn't helping at all in the long run but the quick fix was all i had so that's how it came to me relying on satan. Satan used me to help drag other people from my church down with me but thank God that he failed and it was only me that fell even deeper. I lied and was so nasty to my friends that even now i'm ashamed to go 2 church even though i do. My life was such a waste i didn't see the point and about 6months ago i took an overdose and ended up in hospital as u can guess this has really affected my family and friends. I'm getting help from professional people but i would really like help spiritually so i would love it if you guys have any advice on how to get closer to God?

[Leonard]

I don't know that you can be closer to God than you are now. Our perceptions and feelings are often deceptive in that regard. Disciplines of prayer, praise and Bible reading are always helpful to your spiritual life.

[Guest 777luvsme]

Hey

I have just recently come back to the lord.  I suffer from sever depression and self-harming which thankfully i haven't done in ages.  I'm 19 and have been saved for 3 years and back slid a year and half.  I guess it all started when me and my bf split up and it just nose dived from there.  I used to get visions and really nasty dreams.  It got to the point that i had walked that far away from God i was walking right into satan and for awhile satan led me to believe that i could only rely on him, i mean i prayed to God to help me so much but each time he didn't but when i was at my most low satan was always there with a blade and for a while i thought that that was helping but I knew deep down that it wasn't helping at all in the long run but the quick fix was all i had so that's how it came to me relying on satan.  Satan used me to help drag other people from my church down with me but thank God that he failed and it was only me that fell even deeper.  I lied and was so nasty to my friends that even now i'm ashamed to go 2 church even though i do.  My life was such a waste i didn't see the point and about 6months ago i took an overdose and ended up in hospital as u can guess this has really affected my family and friends.  I'm getting help from professional people but i would really like help spiritually so i would love it if you guys have any advice on how to get closer to God?

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Hello, nice 2 meet u! Please stop whatever ur doing that puts u in harms way sweety! Ur more than welcome in the lords and my eyes..No 1 is worth what ur doing 2 urself! Pain ,yes is very hard thing 2 get over or rid of but can be done under the power of Jesus Christ! Ur rite spiritually every1 needs help with, even the most elite cuz no 1's perfect only the lord above is. Leave ur past behind u now its the only way 2 move 4ward in god's embrace..The lord 4gives and so do people of the faith..I'll pray 4 u seek Jesus as ur counsoler and everything will get better u'll see..Cast Satan away from u!..In Jesus name..U've got a better deal with Jesus! Let me know how things r going..

Ur friend in Christ,

[#1smile]

I know what feeling lonely is like, even when you have a ton of people around you who love you. We always seem to have this longing to be love by everyone. And we feel disapointed when not everyone does. I can tell you the best thing to do is:

.pray

.talk

.write in a journal to your heavenly father, tell him truthfully everything you are feeling. It gets all the emotion out and hurt and feelings. Usually after doing this I begin rejoycing in the Lord for all he has done in my life and thanking him. Its a great way to release your sadness. And its a great way to see how God answers your prayers when you look back.

.and read the bible

I also like to go on short or long walks and reflect on what god has made, and talk to him like I talk to a friend, or I will sing to him either christian songs I hear on the radio or songs that just flow out my herat and emotions.

I hope this helps... I totally recommend getting a journal, it helps with depression.

I went through depression right after I graduated High School, everything finally hit me.... I was not embarking on a scary new world, my brother had cancer, I need to figure out what I wanted to do with my life now, It finally hit me about what terriost could do and I relized I need to grow up. But God was there he provided people for me talk to plus my best friend and twin had dealt with depression several years before me and helped me to cope. I say... keep praying ask god to guide you and to deliver you from this trap satan has you in. I can't promise you that you will never go through depression again, because you probly will but at lest you will learn ways to cope and deal with God as the center.

Also one more thing, when you begin feeling really depressed I advice you to get out and do something fun, not sit and in your home or room alone. You need to get your mind off and way from what is causeing you to feel the way you are when you are said. Go to home group bible studie, go to dinner with a friend, check a comdie.

laterz,

#1smile

ps... if you need someone to talk to I'm here... pm me or leave me a message on blog I check it everyday.

[Guest Zayit]

Your best weapon sweetheart against the enemy of your soul is the Sword of the Spirit, which is the word of G-d. In it you will have all the amunition you need to combat him. It is what Yeshua/Jesus used when he was tempted by HaSatan in the wilderness.

Put on your whole armour, but most of all , you need to get into the word, read everyday, set up a schedule and be faithful to it!

[lostlamb]

Hey

I just want to say thanks to all who gave me advice. I'm feeling really positive today which is great but im still really concerned with losing a really close friend of mine. He was the one who phoned for the ambulance and things have really affected him and he seems to be distancing himself from me which is understandable its just that i miss him. I would really appreciate it if you prayed for him 'cause he isn't finding this easy and has to deal with other stuff. But thanks loads for the advice

take care, talk soon

God bless

lostlamb

[Guest 777luvsme]

Hey

I just want to say thanks to all who gave me advice.  I'm feeling really positive today which is great but im still really concerned with losing a really close friend of mine.  He was the one who phoned for the ambulance and things have really affected him and he seems to be distancing himself from me which is understandable its just that i miss him.  I would really appreciate it if you prayed for him 'cause he isn't finding this easy and has to deal with other stuff.  But thanks loads for the advice

take care, talk soon

God bless

lostlamb

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Ur more than welcome sweety!! The lord has ur back and so do all these loving people and I!! I'm very happy 2 hear that ur feeling better and improving! I'll pray 4 ur friendship with this gentleman I may be wronge but it seems he's scared of loosing u and apparently u mean the world 2 him! Give him time 2 come around and let him know how u feel..that things will take time 2 heal but u're gettin better every day!

In Jesus name I pray ur strength in the Lord grows like wild fire and that every1 can feel the love from above!! and within!!

[justme7]

hi again Lostlamb

i just wanted to say that the only way i know to get closer to God is to purposely draw nearer to Him.....submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. (James 4:7-8)

i suppose the way we draw near is through prayer, praise & worship, and reading the Word.

make Him first place in your life and pursue Him as if your life depends on it (it does )

He is faithful and will meet you right where you are.

[Nemo]

God bless you and give you all the strength you will need on your way.

Just keep praying

[Baz]

Hey

I have just recently come back to the lord.  I suffer from sever depression and self-harming which thankfully i haven't done in ages.  I'm 19 and have been saved for 3 years and back slid a year and half.  I guess it all started when me and my bf split up and it just nose dived from there.  I used to get visions and really nasty dreams.  It got to the point that i had walked that far away from God i was walking right into satan and for awhile satan led me to believe that i could only rely on him, i mean i prayed to God to help me so much but each time he didn't but when i was at my most low satan was always there with a blade and for a while i thought that that was helping but I knew deep down that it wasn't helping at all in the long run but the quick fix was all i had so that's how it came to me relying on satan.  Satan used me to help drag other people from my church down with me but thank God that he failed and it was only me that fell even deeper.  I lied and was so nasty to my friends that even now i'm ashamed to go 2 church even though i do.  My life was such a waste i didn't see the point and about 6months ago i took an overdose and ended up in hospital as u can guess this has really affected my family and friends.  I'm getting help from professional people but i would really like help spiritually so i would love it if you guys have any advice on how to get closer to God?

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Just take the help and talk to the Lord everyday.