How to tell God's will

[MAYBEBREE]

I've been mulling over adoption recently, specifically 3 children who have experienced great tragedy.

Even before this event I've felt the call on my heart each time with a confirmation in scripture like a sermon on the spirit of adoption and things people say that I just thought about.

Even my husband is in agreement. (WOW, I was surprised)

I was about to throw in the towel and try to push and pray that this other very well to do couple adopt the kids because I want them to have the best life possible.

I thought I was being silly and that I was not listening to God's will but my own selfish desires.

(YES! I want to be a mommy again, I feel like my family is not complete)

Anyway a sermon came on talking about doing God's will in spite of impossible circumstances and about a lady who confidently did God's will, even when it seemed impossible and when it was dangerous. (Deborah in the Bible)

Okay, good sermon. This convicts me that I want to do God's will no matter what.

I'm still ready to throw in the towel absolutely though.

I am figuring that it HAS to be God's will for me to NOT adopt these kids right now because I am not good enough.

I'm still feeling tremendous love inside me for these kids and their mother whom I did meet and know and even their father who shot the mom and baby.

(This one HAS to be God's doing because people that hurt kids make me mad...I was glad he was caught though.)

However I got a mailing in today regarding adoption at the moment my resolve to not pursue adoption was at it's strongest.

It was from an agency I hadn't communicated with for over a year.

They sent me a notice on special needs and sibling adoptions and the process.

Every time I get ready to lay this down something happens and I am so afraid of trying to make it happen myself.

I only want what God wants.

I want to do His will and not make a mistake.

There are potiential barriers to this adoption for us but not impossible.

Do I sound like I'm trying to make this happen?

What do I do to make 100% sure that I am not following my own desires?

Edited October 3, 2006 by MAYBEBREE

[MAYBEBREE]

I had 2 other things happen to me today. I went to a restaurant and saw a picture of the girls after I wished I had a picture of the girls and came upon another sign re: adoption on a fast food restaurant sign.

The suspense is really building for me.

Edited October 4, 2006 by MAYBEBREE

[shepherdsgrace]

Dear Maybebree,

This is really a big huge decision for all involved. For something this life important for so many people (you, your husband, your marriage, the children) you and your husband need to know from your inner man that this is the will of God for the both of you. Just having your husband to agree is not enough. Hard times will arrive if you do adopt and if you do not adopt. You never want your husband to be able to even think that life would have been different "if". Nor do you ever want to do that yourself. So the both of you need to sit down and pray together and lay it at the foor of the cross and then wait patiently for you to know inside of yourselves....in your spirit and inner most man what is the will of God. You need to be in deep agreement with no reservations. This is not the time to go by signs. The Spirit of God will lead you into God's will. You can know what is right. You should have a deep inner peace and knowing. So far everything you are describing is outside yourself and there seems to be much confusion. Definitely not the right base for a decision that is so life changing for so many people. Do not be hasty. If it is of God the children will be there. You have time to think, pray and meditate TOGETHER!

[MAYBEBREE]

Thank you for that bit if advice.

I do know my husband and I are to adopt.

It's the when that has gotten to me.

Is it these children?

Is it now?

We both want to expand our family this way and feel that is the Lord's will.

I guess in the excitement and desperation of the moments and worrying over things I'm rushing and trying to arrange this MYSELF without waiting for direction.

I know he'll make things fall into place when it's time.

[speckles]

If you really believe you want to and your husband is in agreement, step out in faith and do it. If it doesn't happen then you have your answer and if it does then you have your answer. We don't have to sit around worrying about what the will of God is. If you want to know what the will of God was for today, wait till tomorrow and look back. There you have it.

[MAYBEBREE]

We're going to step out in faith. We have had some major hitches in this plan but God will make a way.

I think that He's making me slow down so we do the whole thing in His time so it all works out just right.

(Please keep praying)

I've been w/o internet for 4 days until today, so no reply until now.