Looking for a reason

[onetiggerroo]

Rec'd these in email...

I Am

While praying one day, a woman asked, "Who are you, Lord?"

He answered, "I Am."

"But who is I Am?" she asked.

And He replied, "I Am Love,

I Am Peace,

I Am Grace,

I Am Joy,

I Am the Way, the Truth, and the Light,

I Am the Comforter,

I Am Strength,

I Am Safety,

I Am Shelter,

I Am Power,

I Am the Creator,

I Am the Beginning and the End,

I Am the Most High.

I Am Whatever you have need of."

The girl with tears in her eyes looked toward Heaven and said, "Now I

understand. But Lord, who am I?"

Then God tenderly wiped the tears from her eyes and whispered, "You

are Mine."

-Author Unknown

~

This world is filled with darkness and we do not know what we might encounter.

May we heed His instruction, that he alone would guide us (Psalm 32:8)

May we have a heart after God, So that we will want to obey (1 Chronicles 29:19)

May we trust Him in time of trouble; So God can rescue us when needed.

(Psalm 50:15)

May we be quick to see the difference between right and wrong, and to be inwardly clean; (Philippians 1:10)

Edited July 27, 2007 by onetiggerroo

[Scarletprayers]

friend

[Afal]

Thank you once again for your kind replies.

Then God tenderly wiped the tears from her eyes and whispered, "You are Mine."

- Oh how I wish God would do that for me. He sees my tears and yet He doesn't wipe them away. In fact nobody does. Even when the doctor told my that I was untreatable, she didn't even offer me a tissue when I began to cry. She just sat there very cold and distant and offered me no comfort as I sobbed.

If I live to the average expected age of a British female, I have over 13,000 more days to live. For some reason, this morning, I felt the urge to work this statistic out.

Considering how much every day is a struggle, I can't imagine 13,000 more of them.

OK so I just need to take one minute at a time and TRUST GOD.

Easier said than done when there are approximately 19,447,200 minutes left (given that I live to the average expected age of a British female).

What I am trying to convey is the enormity of the situation for me. I just feel that it is TOO big to even begin to deal with.

My problem quite simply is: How do I even manage to get through the next minute of my life?

[patricia1]

Thank you once again for your kind replies.

Then God tenderly wiped the tears from her eyes and whispered, "You are Mine."

- Oh how I wish God would do that for me. He sees my tears and yet He doesn't wipe them away. In fact nobody does. Even when the doctor told my that I was untreatable, she didn't even offer me a tissue when I began to cry. She just sat there very cold and distant and offered me no comfort as I sobbed.

If I live to the average expected age of a British female, I have over 13,000 more days to live. For some reason, this morning, I felt the urge to work this statistic out.

Considering how much every day is a struggle, I can't imagine 13,000 more of them.

OK so I just need to take one minute at a time and TRUST GOD.

Easier said than done when there are approximately 19,447,200 minutes left (given that I live to the average expected age of a British female).

What I am trying to convey is the enormity of the situation for me. I just feel that it is TOO big to even begin to deal with.

My problem quite simply is: How do I even manage to get through the next minute of my life?

1) Because you will get healing and then help others to heal...through your power of your testimony and touching their hearts to the Glory of God our Lord Jesus Christ 2) You cannot let lucifer rob God of that 3) Jesus loves you just the way you are 4) Because others feel the same way you do and need to know they are not alone. 5) Jesus will restore to you 100 fold of what was taken away...wouldn't you like to see that Many preachers, great ones of today even had been in mental hospitals are are On fire. Someone loves you. We need you God needs you your future needs you!!!!!

[Afal]

Thank you Patricia for your reply. I think however, you have answered my original question (looking for a reason to stay alive) more than my latest question - How do I get through the next minute of my life? I am not ungrateful for your thoughts, but to me, they just don't seem to answer the HOW? question.

The doctors have come up with two answers for my HOW? question.

1. Phone the Samaritans when things get bad.

2. Take medication that will 'knock you out'.

In the short-term, these are OK as possible coping strategies, but I am talking long term now - like almost 19.5 million minutes!!!

[WayneB]

If I live to the average expected age of a British female, I have over 13,000 more days to live. For some reason, this morning, I felt the urge to work this statistic out.

...you're giving away your age. So you've about lived half of your life. Was it all bad? Of coarse not... therefore logic would dictate that the remaining part of your life in the flesh won't neccessarily be all bad as well.

Imagine that you're on a journey. In the States, we have a 2175 mile trail that goes from North Georgia all the way to Maine called the Appalachian Trail. I've hiked a small part of it in my youth and I can tell you it is tough going. There are hundreds of trails that branch off of it and go into the valleys. Regardless, even the main trail has highs and lows as it traverses the mountain tops and the saddle in between. The view is awesome from the mountain top BUT if you're going to get to the intended destination, you have to keep moving. Most of the trail is in the low ares where the view is limited. Well, you get the point. So you've walked half of the trail and have 1100 or so miles to go? At the moment, you're in a low area and the visibility is limited? What do you do? You keep on walking and as you gain altitude, there will be less obstacles your visibility will improve.

My problem quite simply is: How do I even manage to get through the next minute of my life?

Keep your eye on the trail and look forward to what lies ahead!

In Christ,

wayne

[onetiggerroo]

Thank you once again for your kind replies.

Then God tenderly wiped the tears from her eyes and whispered, "You are Mine."

- Oh how I wish God would do that for me. He sees my tears and yet He doesn't wipe them away. In fact nobody does. Even when the doctor told my that I was untreatable, she didn't even offer me a tissue when I began to cry. She just sat there very cold and distant and offered me no comfort as I sobbed.

If I live to the average expected age of a British female, I have over 13,000 more days to live. For some reason, this morning, I felt the urge to work this statistic out.

Considering how much every day is a struggle, I can't imagine 13,000 more of them.

OK so I just need to take one minute at a time and TRUST GOD.

Easier said than done when there are approximately 19,447,200 minutes left (given that I live to the average expected age of a British female).

What I am trying to convey is the enormity of the situation for me. I just feel that it is TOO big to even begin to deal with.

My problem quite simply is: How do I even manage to get through the next minute of my life?

Simply put; the world is a cold place, and that dr. was just as cold to you....today, many dr's lack bedside manners! That is a thorn in my side...don't understand it...but we are not conformed to this world! AMEN!

The LORD has sent you comfort...look at just how many people are posting here to comfort you. Do you think it is by chance, that we care about you? You may not be able to feel it like if one of us could be there for you, I am praying the LORD send you that special comfort from another Christian there; that you need and long for...a real hug...

For now, I can send you these...

I know that they are not the same, but they are from the heart.

Don't give up on yourself! We aren't giving up on you...

Stop beating yourself up...we aren't going to let you do that!

It may take a while, but Afal, you will get through all of this...and I have been where you are many times...in the deepest despair, the LORD carried me through it and HE WILL MAKE A WAY for you. TRUST HIM.

I know, if you asked each person here, they can tell you of being on the edge, like you are, and the LORD PULLING THEM INTO HIS LOVING ARMS, just as they thought it was the end...and they thought they couldn't bear another minute. THE LORD IS GOOD, all the TIME!

HE is our buckler and shield, in times of trouble...I see the LORD working a miracle in you.

[Scarletprayers]

Morning honey!

[Treasure]

It's almost noon here Afal. I'm praying for you right this minute (11:52 am). You can get through this because I did. God will bring you through. I had my suicide planned and satan thought he had my number but he thought wrong. You have the same power in you that brought Jesus up out of the grave!

HOLD FAST (Mercy Me)

To everyone who's hurting

To those who've had enough

To all the undeserving

That should cover all of us

Please do not let go

I promise there is hope

Hold fast

Help is on the way

Hold fast

He's come to save the day

What I've learned in my life

One thing greater than my strife

Is His grasp

So hold fast

Will this season ever pass?

Can we stop this ride?

Will we see the sun at last?

Or could this be our lot in life?

Please do not let go

I promise you there's hope

You may think you're all alone

And there's no way that anyone could know

What you're going through

But if you only hear one thing

Just understand that we are all the same

Searching for the truth

The truth of what we're soon to face

Unless someone comes to take our place

Is there anyone?

All we want is to be free

Free from our captivity, Lord

Here He comes

Praise You in This Storm

words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms

I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down

and wiped our tears away,

stepped in and saved the day.

But once again, I say amen

and it's still raining

as the thunder rolls

I barely hear You whisper through the rain,

"I'm with you"

and as Your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise

the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:

And I'll praise you in this storm

and I will lift my hands

for You are who You are

no matter where I am

and every tear I've cried

You hold in your hand

You never left my side

and though my heart is torn

I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind

You heard my cry to You

and raised me up again

my strength is almost gone how can I carry on

if I can't find You

and as the thunder rolls

I barely hear You whisper through the rain

"I'm with you"

and as Your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise

the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes unto the hills

where does my help come from?

My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

I lift my eyes unto the hills

where does my help come from?

My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus

I WILL LIFT MY EYES (Bebo Norman)

God, my God, I cry out

Your beloved needs You now

God, be near, calm my fear

And take my doubt

Your kindness is what pulls me up

Your love is all that draws me in

I will lift my eyes to the Maker

Of the mountains I can�t climb

I will lift my eyes to the Calmer

Of the oceans raging wild

I will lift my eyes to the Healer

Of the hurt I hold inside

I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

God, my God, let Mercy sing

Her melody over me

God, right here all I bring

Is all of me

Cause You are and You were and You will be forever

The Lover I need to save me

Cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God

So hold me now

IN CHRIST ALONE (Geoff Moore)

In Christ alone my hope is found

He is my light, my strength, my song

This conerstone, this solid ground

Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love, what depths of peace

When fears are stilled, when strivings cease

My comforter, my all in all

Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone who took on flesh

Fullness of God in helpless babe

This gift of love and righteousness

Scorned by the ones He came to save

Till on that cross as Jesus died

The wrath of God was satisfied

For every sin on Him was laid

Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay

Light of the world by darkness slain

Then bursting forth in glorious day

Up from the grave He rose again

And as He stands in victory

Sin's curse has lost its grip on me

For I am His and He is mine

Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death

This is the power of Christ in me

From life's first cry to final breath

Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell, no scheme of man

Can ever pluck me from His hand

Till He returns or calls me home

Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

These are a few of the songs that have ministered to me when I've felt like I can't go on.

I love you in Him Afal.

[Afal]

I know, if you asked each person here, they can tell you of being on the edge, like you are, and the LORD PULLING THEM INTO HIS LOVING ARMS, just as they thought it was the end...and they thought they couldn't bear another minute. THE LORD IS GOOD, all the TIME!

WOW! - I can not believe the outpouring of such kindness and love from you all. I really appreciate everything - your words of comfort and of advice, the Bible verses, the hugs - EVERYTHING!

4Given1 - What beautiful words in these songs. They have made me cry, but that is OK. They show me that someone else knows what this feels like. Thank you!

SP - It probably sounds so silly, but your Good Morning means so much. The fact that you would say Good Morning to me shows that I do have some worth after all.

Onetiggerroo - I get so much comfort from the posts that people write to me. You are totally right. people do care about me otherwise they wouldn't waste their time on me. There is also comfort in the knowledge that other people have been in the same situation as me where they don't know how they will survive another minute. They have got through it. Maybe I will be able to do the same.

Wayne - "Keep your eye on the trail and look forward to what lies ahead!" My first reaction to this was but NOTHING lies ahead. Straight away Jeremiah 29:11 came into my head - "plans to give you a hope and a future!" I have got to believe that I do have a hope and a future and that it is all in God's hands.

I wish that it wasn't like this, but it is. Thank you all for offering me some hope that somehow I will get through this.