Looking for a reason

[KeilanS]

Hey Afal!

I just checked, and this topic has 144 posts. And I'm going to make it 145. Even removing your own posts, that mean their are A LOT of people who care enough about you to attempt and show you that you are a great human being with a purpose on this earth. We love you, and God loves you. That is enough of a reason for you to keep fighting!

I'm going to show you something I got in my email inbox yesterday. I had to do something that I really didn't want to and was worried about how this friend would react. I was caught in the middle of a storm if you will. Here is what just happened to be the worthy boards daily devotional that day. I'll change my name to yours in the devotional.

Afal, why be afraid?

Psalms 107:29 He maketh the storm a calm, so that the waves thereof are still.

Richard Wurmbrand, a Romanian Jewish Believer and an amazing man of God, spent 14 years in communist prisons where he was tortured brutally for his faith and then lived to tell about it. In his book, The Oracles of God, he writes about acquiring inner peace and tells the following powerful story.

During a tempest at sea when a ship was being tossed to and fro by the angry waves, the wife of a naval officer asked her husband, "How can you be so calm in such a storm?"

The officer drew his sword, pointed it at his wife's breast, and asked, "Why are you calm and unafraid?" Surprised, she protested, "Why should I be afraid? The sword is in the hand of my husband who loves me too much to harm me."

Her husband smiled and said, "This is the source of my calm, too. The wind and the waves are in the hands of my loving Father. Why should I be afraid?"

Afal, you may be going through a storm right now. But let's remember that we're in the hands of our loving Father. He's right here with us and He's going to get us through. There's so much work to be done!

Your family in the Lord with much agape love,

George, Rivka and Elianna Whitten

Negev Desert, Israel

I hope that will bless you today as much as it blessed me!

Also, if you are interested in these devotionals, go to this link: http://www.worthydevotions.com/ and click on "Sign up for our daily devotions via email!".

God Bless you!

-Keilan

[Afal]

Thank you Keilan for the encouragement. I loved the story of the wife and the naval officer. I could really relate to that. I don't think that I have ever read Psalm 107 before so that was good too.

I know that people here do care and I am very grateful for that!

PS - Also had a look at your photography in your blog. Great pictures - except for the one of the car. That did nothing for me!

Loved the nature photographs.

[patricia1]

Thank you Patricia for your reply. I think however, you have answered my original question (looking for a reason to stay alive) more than my latest question - How do I get through the next minute of my life? I am not ungrateful for your thoughts, but to me, they just don't seem to answer the HOW? question.

The doctors have come up with two answers for my HOW? question.

1. Phone the Samaritans when things get bad.

2. Take medication that will 'knock you out'.

In the short-term, these are OK as possible coping strategies, but I am talking long term now - like almost 19.5 million minutes!!!

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Edited July 28, 2007 by patricia1

[patricia1]

Thank you Patricia for your reply. I think however, you have answered my original question (looking for a reason to stay alive) more than my latest question - How do I get through the next minute of my life? I am not ungrateful for your thoughts, but to me, they just don't seem to answer the HOW? question.

The doctors have come up with two answers for my HOW? question.

1. Phone the Samaritans when things get bad.

2. Take medication that will 'knock you out'.

In the short-term, these are OK as possible coping strategies, but I am talking long term now - like almost 19.5 million minutes!!!

I need to divert attention off of myself. 1) sing a Spiritual song unto the Lord

unless you are in jail 2) take a walk, enjoy Gods' earth ,we are here just for the moment

3) reach out to others

4) read a book on the frienship of god

5) Meditate on whats in heaven,asking God for a peek

6) offer your home to a bible study group or prayer meeting

7) share your faith with a old friend, classmate, the grocery clerk

8) get a hobby... crochet,draw,doodle something

I can give you lots more. You need Gods Grace every minute. Do not stop living!!!! Do not sit down and do nothing. Idle hands is the devils playground. By the way did you get my p.m.? hugs and hugs

[Afal]

Hi Patricia,

Thanks for the PM. I replied a long time ago. I hope that it reaches you.

[onetiggerroo]

Where ther is love, there is hope...

1 John 4:18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. 19 We love him, because he first loved us.

[Scarletprayers]

Honey, I come here every morning and I always look for your thread! I start off my day with that cyber hug and a prayer for my friend.

I don't know what all you have gone through, but I have been in the desert and its a sad, lonely, awful place to be. I told someone once that I was just the walking dead, because no body had bothered to tell me I was dead so I could lay down. Instead of looking at the minutes as one lump sum, try saying for the next 5 minutes everytime some bad pops into my head, I will pray, or read the Bible, or come here and talk to someone at Worthy.

I am praying for you little sister!

[Afal]

but I have been in the desert and its a sad, lonely, awful place to be. I told someone once that I was just the walking dead, because no body had bothered to tell me I was dead so I could lay down.

I wouldn't wish this experience on anyone, but in a very sad (for you) sort of way, I take great comfort in knowing that others can relate to the feeling of total hopelessness and despair that I feel so often throughout each day. I can relate to the term walking dead. That is how I feel even when I am doing 'normal' things like going shopping or doing the housework. I feel so detached from life at the moment. It is as if it is going on around me and I am not part of it. I am not living, I am just existing.

Thank you big sister for your hugs and prayers!

[Treasure]

It's 3:11 pm and you're on my heart Afal. In the moments that it takes me to type this in and post it you have taken several breaths, your heart has beaten several times and God is on the throne. I praise God for your precious life. You are more than a conquerer through Christ. I am so encouraged every time I come here and see your posts. With every breath and each beat of your heart you are one step closer to the light at the end of this tunnel.

[Afal]

I can not believe anybody could write something as beautiful as that about me!

Thank you for the encouragement!