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Afal, I don't think Shy Christian meant the thread was too long in a bad way. She may not be in the habit of going to the Fellowship Hall where some of the threads are MUCH longer.

Sorry to hear that you had a bad night. Know that all of us are praying for you, including myself. I'm happy to see the changes in your posts (and in your life) that the Lord is making. It is an encouragement to me, to see the Lord working is another's life. I work a night shift schedule and fellowship is scarce at times because its hard to get to church when you have to stay up all night on Sunday. I glad to hear you've met someone, and especially that the Lord is leading you through the things He has. Trust Him, He will not fail you!

[Afal]

Walla - Thank you for your prayers and your words of encouragement.

God bless you!

[onetiggerroo]

Well, thank you LPT, OTR and SP for such kindness. I have had a bad night. Going to bed so upset is not a good idea!!!! I am in tears now, but they are 'emotional' tears brought on by your kindness in your posts to me!!!!

Thank you for your love and support. I am still very fragile (as is evident by my current tears!!!!) and feel quite ill. Just because I am feeling better than I was, please don't think that everything is suddenly rosy in the garden. Sadly I have got a long way to go before I will be at that point.

I hope that you all have a wonderful day.

God bless you

Soon, you will be shedding tears of joy!

[Afal]

Soon, you will be shedding tears of joy!

I hope so.

The past few days have been challenging at times. I seem to be on a roller-coaster with my emotions. That is hard to deal with. I am feeling very vulnerable at the moment. I am even cross with myself for feeling this way. Now how stupid is that?

[WayneB]

Soon, you will be shedding tears of joy!

I hope so.

The past few days have been challenging at times. I seem to be on a roller-coaster with my emotions. That is hard to deal with. I am feeling very vulnerable at the moment. I am even cross with myself for feeling this way. Now how stupid is that?

Not at all. I can relate. With our son Michael, we have good days and bad days. It is a roller coaster ride from beginning to end. Then the Lord shows me someone else who has bigger challenges in life and I feel guilty for being frustrated. I guess we're all "chumps" as some point for the emotional swings we experience. Oh well. I guess life is better on a roller coaster than a merry-go-round. At least we have a better ride!!!

[Scarletprayers]

little sister!

[Fiosh]

Afal it is obvious that sc has not seen the "last " thread or so many others in fellowship hall

I am sure she didn't mean it the way it sounded just that it is such good news that you have finally felt strong enough to do the sensible thing with the unwanted medication ...I am so proud of you sis it takes courage to get through what you have got through and this thread has been a blessing not only to you but to many others ..some of whom have posted and others who have just read it and taken comfort from it ...

This thread will continue for as long as you or anyone else finds a need for it and comfort from it

I am sitting here praising God for your courage in posting your first time and allowing your brothers and sisters in Christ to have fellowship with you and to come closer to knowing you as a much loved sister and for Gods great love and mercy that has covered you as you came to Him in fear and sorrow and are learning to lean on Him for all your needs

AMEN, ladypeartree!!!

And, have you noticed the number of "views", Afal?---those that read but do not post. This thread is not for you alone. Many others may be taking comfort and wisdom from it.

Not to mention that you minister to us as much, if not more, than we minister to you, Afal. You are an extraordinary woman, and I admire you.

Peace,

Fiosh

[Afal]

Thank you Wayne SP and Fiosh for your encouragements. I really need them at the moment. I seem to be getting worse again with every day. I am not sleeping properly (which I know doesn't help the situation).

I woke up this morning at 5:30am and was just thinking straight away how much I hate myself! I am not suicidal, just despising myself. I have got 2 medical appointments coming up - one tomorrow (Thursday) and the other on Monday. Maybe I should talk to the doctor about these negative feelings, but there again, they've already told me that they can't do anything for me so what is the point?

I feel so tired - both physically and emotionally. I just want to get rid of all of this internal pain and feel as well as I did a few weeks ago.

[Afal]

Have had another bad night. Can't believe how awful I feel. Have got a medical appointment later today. At least I will be able to tell someone how ill I feel. They won't be able to do anything, but at least it might make me feel a bit better for telling someone!!!!!

[patricia1]

Have had another bad night. Can't believe how awful I feel. Have got a medical appointment later today. At least I will be able to tell someone how ill I feel. They won't be able to do anything, but at least it might make me feel a bit better for telling someone!!!!!

I do not know if its the weather here or the fall just returning. But I have been triggered by horrific dreams and being physically ill right now does not help It is a fight isn't it?! Hard work as well to bring yourself under the Holy Spirit ignoring those emotions that may or may not be deceptive but very real. I am doing okay now emotionally.

I wonder if you think the feeling comes first and then the thoughts or the other way around? I think it is both. Try to Keep your mind on that personal scripture.

Try to pull from your great experience you had on Vacation.. I use to work nights just to keep be busy...I had a easier time sleeping during the day... I still prefer sleeping during the day but with a 7 yr old I have no choice.

My ptsd is in layers... But I have Victory In Christ and have had tremendous Victory...I do not say this non-chalantly

You have as well and I will keep you in prayer. Love you much...patricia1