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One of the most important things I did when I initially confessed my sins to a trusted person...when I just poured out my soul with all the things that had been keeping me from God...Had I not done this one thing I would have committed suicide...I was on the verge of it when I finally decided to talk to this person one on one...And by the way I didn't want to...She was tough and I wasn't... This trusted person looked at me straight in the eye and said, "You Know That God Has Forgiven You...So who are you not to forgive yourself?" And I will say this: Stranger things have happened...If it is needed for you to speak to this person again...God will make The Way...If it's in your heart...Go to them and pour out your heart...Ask to be reinstated so you can apologize to her... In the meantime...Forgive yourself...Like Jesus said, "Go your way and sin no more."

Hey there, Combat...Glad to see you...O God, You Are So Good...In The Name of Jesus...

Glory To The Lamb of God!!! Whew...My my...O God, You Are So So Good...

I remember at 19 years of age standing outside at my mom's house...I still lived at home...drunk as a skunk asking why doesn't God answer any of my prayers...I didn't think He heard me because He was so busy with everybody else... I've come now to believe that God hears the prayer of repentance...He sure heard mine...even if it was screaming at Him that He better hurry up...I was fixing to die without Him (I later found out) anyway...I was shown this verse one time and it explained to me why I thought He was not answering any of my prayers...I've come to believe that My God gives me exactly what I need and He makes The Way of Understanding for this brain He created in me...Hahaha....Oh I truly believe He was drawing me to Himself for a very long time...I believe that!!! He has saved me from drowning twice...before I knew Him...He saved me from dying!!! But this is the verse that clinched it for me...John 9:31...(New King James Version) Now we know that God does not hear sinners; but if anyone is a worshiper of God and does His will, He hears him...Granted now this is the belief-as I understand it and I'm no scholar at all!!! Anyway, this is the belief of a Pharisee that was talking...he didn't believe in healing!!! This is the story of the man born blind...but...I truly look at it that way...I didn't know Jesus either-I was like the Pharisee...until I did know Him...and worship Him and Seek His Will...Now I Am Heard!!!

I found the other thread-hahaha-here it is...Yes Openly Curious...Yes Yes...I agree-whole heartily...Seek and don't stop...God gives liberally!!! Also I heard this one time: Every single person I pray for or lay hands on...is healed...I rest in that...It may not be instantly...I still rest in that...they are healed!!!

Carlos, I've been reading several of your posts and have been touched to the core of my being...There just isn't enough paper on the roll to blow my nose and wipe my eyes because I want the same thing you do!!! And Have Walked In It Too!!! Believe Me When I Say...The Truth Is: Christ in us The Hope of Glory!!! My my...And sometimes it's just plain hard being patient!!! I just don't know where to start...You have told my story...and I think right now where you are...where I practically was or rather almost was...anyway the first time in my life I was totally alone-and I have been there more than once too (sometimes with people all around)...it was and is the best place I could ever be!!! It was the best place I could have ever been...I was with God... That is going to be the way I handle it from now on...See there writing and responding to your posts have answered a prayer for me...I was just astounded to see it happen to you too...(On another thread when your tummy was hurting and you were inquiring about getting healing for yourself...I too went through a time (a season) where He made me reach out to others...Hahaha...Our God Is Good...He Does Love His Children and Does Take Care of Us...Every Time!!! Oh my... You know The Kingdom of God is exactly opposite of this world and how it operates...Yep I'm one of them that just upsets "church as usual" because I was touched and filled and endued and everything else...because I went after Him with everything in me and got changed!!! I'm not the same!!! And I don't understand why God has to lead us into places sometimes that we don't understand yet...I turned my church upside down at one time...filled with the power of God...People being healed all over the place...devils being cast out...I'm not kidding...just like The Bible Says...I have been rewarded openly when I went to My Father In Secret...In The Secret Place...I spent bunches and bunches of hours there...Now I'm walking in the desire of my heart...the desire that started 20 plus years ago...that God put in me in the first place...Have you ever heard of not knowing how to do something and The Holy Ghost Leading and Guiding and Showing You Just How To Do It...Has He Ever Planted The Idea That You Could Be Used Like Arthur Blessit...Smith Wigglesworth...Like Moses? Just Google some Generals of The Faith... I Know There Is A Reason That We Start To Get Frustrated-it's like we are birthing something out of our spirit...We Outgrow Where We Are...Just Like Being Born ...We Get Too Big For Our Mama's Womb...We Have To Grow...We Fuss It's Too Uncomfortable Here!!! I've got to break out!!! I'm not talking literally exactly...but how did some of the Mighty Men and Women of God get started? Uuummm...I think you sound alot like some of them...I think I sound alot like them too...I just read a story of one of them-he was the same way!!! The Church Just Wouldn't Grow and he was!!! He explained it like this...God was not going to put new wine in old wineskins...We have The New Wine!!! I know I do...You don't know how I've cried for friends to come alongside...One day I went to the chat room and there wasn't anybody there...I just started talking and all of a sudden there were people talking (typing) to me...That helped me so much that day... There has been alot happened with me too, there is no way I could explain every little thing...but My Heart Is For Those That Are In Darkness-For Them To Be Drawn To His Light And Be Changed, Set Free and Walking In His Will...Where Grace and Mercy Follow Them!!!That We May Be Mightily Indwelled For His Glory...Earlier when I was reading the other topic-trying to remember-hahaha-which one-well anyway-it just came all over me to say: I'm having tummy trouble too...Want to pray? I just want to pray that God's Will Be Done In Our Lives...You know there is no gender in The Spirit...so please don't take any of this personally...This is just a sister In Christ praying for some of the likenesses that we have...To Be Indwelled Mightily With The Fire!!! That Will Change People!!! Oh my...Wow...Can you feel that...ok anyway-I do...See He is leading me and has been leading me to a particular place in my city...and I've been preparing for quite a while...so guess what-as soon as the weather cools off or before...Like if He were to say to me...Get ready and go this weekend...I would go...but I know that is where I'm to be to be used...Hope this makes sense...Well...I guess I could type forever and fix my sentences forever too...but I'm going to pray now... Father...We Are In Awe of You...We Kneel At Your Throne of Grace...Knowing That You Are Creator of Heaven and Earth...That With You All Things Are Possible!!! Your Children Are Crying Out To You...Lead Us To The Light of Your Son...Show Us His Ways...Put In Us The Desires of His Heart...Help Us See Through His Eyes What He Sees...Oh my...Enable Us and Endue Us With Your Power...Give Us The Desires of Our Hearts-As We Once Again Walk In The Pages of The Bible...For You Are The Same: Yesterday, Today and Forever...In The Name of Jesus...I Pray

Amen and Amen...You go girl...

My my...Denise...reading your response I have just been filled with joy...Love you In Him...

Denise...Hey there...Just wanted to share with you what I've gone through too... I had a miscarriage too, 2 years after I married for the first time someone I did want to reproduce...I know it sounds funny but it's true-I actually wanted to reproduce him...Hahaha...But see I didn't even know if God would allow me to have a child because of when I wasn't saved I had an abortion...and because of that 7 years later I wanted to take my own life because of the guilt and shame...instead I called out to a Merciful and Forgiving God...and was saved... So years later...I lost a baby I really really wanted...I did the same thing...was crushed and everyone at work started coming up to console me...So many-I couldn't believe-had miscarried...it gave me some hope that they had later brought children into the world...So I sat down at the kitchen table and had a talk with My God...About all of it...but one thing the doctor told me was to start taking a daily vitamin...one that had folic acid in it...if you search the web about folic acid its pretty incredible how it helps us women and especially how it helps the development of our babies when we do get pregnant...But I can't stress enough...Talk to your doctor!!! When I lost the baby I changed doctors but took the advie of the first one about the folic acid...The next doctor thought it was great that I took vitamins because I was taking more than one...anyway...I went over with him everything I was doing...I truly believe that having The Honest Talk with God and Telling Him I Was Willing That No Matter What He...What HE wanted for my life...I would be happy with that and do that... I can not be concerned with what God has in store for other people's lives except to pray for them and in God's Time; as long as they have heard some truth...like been given a seed...and don't die before they are saved...see we have a chance until we die...then we don't have another chance...at least that's what I believe... I remember being like Jonah...I had seen people too that just knew they weren't doing right but wouldn't stop (family members are included in this) and I was supposed to keep praying for them? Uhhhh...And I learned a very hard lesson...God chastised me...and I suffered for it...It's all in the book of Jonah...go real slow reading it and my my The Lord will bless you and give you answers...Now I look at it like this...They are writing their testimony-and when and if God uses me to bring about a change in their life, He will do that...until then...I just pray... The rest of my story is that there is Hope...For no matter what, like Paul, I Am Content With What My God Wants For My Life...Whether I had a child or not I would be content...It just so happens, not long after my big talk at the kitchen table with My God, I was blessed to bring into this world the most beautiful little girl I've ever seen...perfect in every way...and I was 44 years old when I gave birth...I'm a slow learner...Hahaha...By The Grace of God...and now knowing that it was He that knew us before we were born...I say this: I prayed her into existance...My my...I know though it wasn't just my prayers...All things work together for good...Hoping and Praying beyond Hope that you walk in God's Will For Your Life Whether It's With or Without A Natural Born Child-Being Content In All Things Is Like Walking In Heaven Upon The Earth...Whew...Love you In Him...

Hahaha...Yes...Thank you so much, Joe...That was precious... O Lord...Let me dance a long long time...right here in my kitchen...Praying and Praising To The King of kings and The Lord of lords...

Whew...That's what I'm talking about!!! Yes...God is So Real and Heals His People!!! O God...Glory To Your Name...

Sevenseas...I'll let someone else tackle that but something earlier I wanted to respond to...Going back to Moses and he killing (murdering, ending the life of) the Egyptian... One day I remember having the revelation that we (ok just me, Hahaha). That we are (that I am) like Moses in the sense that he was born Hebrew but was raised Egyptian...and I likened it to just as we are (as I am)...(eventually having a born again experience-being changed-being a child of The Living God...but raised in this world...that is under the influence of the enemy...and the lust thereof...putting our so-called "enemy" or "sin" to death...not letting it be in us anymore!!! Therefore bringing the two men or two natures if you will-into one new man) About the specific topic in the op (I just feel so wonderful...I just figured out what "op" means) Yeah... This is something to think about...I'm starting to wonder if I write my testimony all at once...Hahaha...There wouldn't be enough screen to hold it...or my computer might blow up...Hahaha...so maybe until I know for sure I'll just put in pieces where they fit... I have not had the opportunity to spend not one minute in our prison system and hope beyond hope that I will not have that opportunity...but I almost lost my life by my own hand (without having God's Mercy or Grace) and trying to justify what our country says is legal to do...There is no other name that one can put to ending another's life other than killing (or murder) it is the same to me...I don't care how young that other one is...even if it is still in the womb... So I have murdered (facing the truth now for a very long time) and have been forgiven...By A Merciful God That Saved Me When I Called Upon His Name...Have I served in a physical building called a prison? No...But Have I Suffered? More than you'll ever know...sorry...not trying to be dramatic just stating truth as I see it... Amazing what happens to us when we turn from our wicked ways and Seek His Face...Sometimes He gives us a second chance...I just knew I would never have a child...Even my (earthly) daddy told me: never have children...the one that left his family to marry his mistress who was pregnant!!! Anyway...I was given a second chance...I was legally married this time and lost another child by miscarriage...My heart was broken...So I sat down and had a talk with My God...I told Him I didn't know exactly what I had done wrong...(Understanding a little more now-this was a long time ago) that I was sorry...and that if I was to have a child...I would...and if I wasn't to have a child (according to His Will) I wouldn't...I didn't know what He wanted but I was willing at that kitchen table to accept whatever He wanted for me...(also the doctor recommended I start taking a daily vitamin)one month later...I was pregnant!!! At 44 years of age...Now here is the amazing part...I haven't held any punches with her...She knows God is real she loves to go to church...She can feel His Presence...But this is what happened: I heard the audible voice of God say this: You will homeschool my child, who is your child...Oh my...I was so scared...We are now in our 5th year!!! And God has provided every bit of the money needed...I'm in Awe of an Awesome God!!!

Ya'll are still toooooooo funny!!! I love it when that happens...

Truly an Honor...To Be Called Friend...Whew...I definitely hope to chat sometime in the chat room...What a joy!!!

Terra7...Thank you!!! So beautifully put...If I could reach you through this machine...I'd give you a big hug...I've always been known as the "hugger"...That's not to toot my own horn...It's to give God All The Glory For Saving a Wretch Like Me...Deep down I'm a peacemaker and that's that...and it's been hard too...I've not come to talk anybody into believing the way I do...I personally didn't know why I came to this site...and still don't...but I will because I believe it will be revealed...I was lead here and once or twice I did try to share what has happened and what I believed and got jumped on...but I got up...shook myself off...and loved them anyway...and tried to understand why it happened...again Seeking The Lord for answers... (one answer is: Well don't take it so personal...well I'm still a person...) see that same person has responded to this post and responded in a way that I wondered if they were capable of...God showed me their heart...and it was good...so I am Thanking You for being bold!!! I have obtained an answer because of it and I love you to literally pieces!!! Hahaha...I know the Bible says we don't jest around (well here we go again-I might get jumped on for not being totally accurate...I just read the scripture and can't remember where it is...right now) See I don't worry about little things anymore...Anyway back to hugging you to pieces...Love to you In Him...Jesus Our Lord...I'm going through some things where I don't have much contact with other Christians except for here...

Well...A while back...I did the very same thing as OldShep...Boy Howdy...this has turned into a forest fire!!! But then again...For some things like the (oh dear) was it the lodge pole pine...that tree only bears seed if it's in a forest fire...I love it when that happens...I love it when we are seeking too...because we find...if we are patient and being still and knowing He is God...I learned early on that I could not get a message if I destroyed the messenger...and I learned that there is a message...every time... and either I will accept it...or I will reject it...or I will chew on it a while...but my brothers and sisters, I believe, we are being drawn by The Same Holy Spirit or we wouldn't be here...we just get to it different ways...let's celebrate just getting here!!! How about that? Let's Celebrate That We Are Not Perishing But Being Given New Life!!! And I guess this is as good a time as any... ...because I can't remember the chapter and verse- for verses- I'm having to ask The Lord where it is...then He made me look it up...Hahaha...I found it...Yeah!!! Therefore you are inexcusable, O man, whoever you are who judge, for in whatever you judge another you condemn yourself; for you who judge practice the same things...Romans 2:1 So right off hand...It not a good idea to say anything about anybody...we never know what God's doing...just never know...and it took me a while to see this verse in my own self...But every word that proceeds from the mouth of God or inspired by The Holy Spirit is true... This thread has helped me a lot because I'm seeing exactly what I went through...I'm seeing so much...I'm seeing how it must have been in Tarshish...I get the names mixed up...anyway...a while back I went through the worst time of my life...and didn't know why...but again and again miraculously-God brought me the answer...After I started searching for it...and it was in the Book of Jonah...and there is nothing like being given a word "in the spirit" and not delivering that word...Feel like and wanting and asking to die-is only half of it... Being "in the spirit" to me...is being led...supernaturally...the desires of my flesh are non existent for that period of time...and for me too...so much has happened to me and only later did I find it in the Bible...I didn't even understand some things at first...so reading Our Bible is like the uttermost important thing to obtaining all God has for us...The words are literally alive and will change us...is food for our spirit man...I believe that...I also know and believe there are many many mysteries...some He will reveal to us sooner than later and some He waits because we wouldn't be good at it yet...Hahaha...I believe that too... Thank You Lord For Your Word...Let Us Give Heed...Lead and Guide Us If There Is Anything We Should Do...How Should We Pray Lord? Guide Our Steps Into Your Plans...Light The Way...Make A Way If Need Be...In The Name of Jesus... Love and need ya'll...Oh That's what it was...I was going to tell firestormx, whall1971 and OneLight that I was so so so so glad that they all loved each other...Hahaha...see I know they do and that is amazing...

Amen and amen...

Her answer is in Jesus...Point her to Him...Know Him...Go to Him in the Quiet Place...often...(in prayer) there is such peace there...Part of my testimony is that I was in AA for 3 1/2 years...They led me to God...for real...funny how God had His Hand on me and I found true believers there...come to find out...they were going to AA meetings and going to church of all things...I have a feeling He has His Hand on you and on her too...Get real and all through the many layers that we have...We are lost and in the dark without Him...We Are sinners that need saving...and He Will Hear The Prayer of Desparation...Just start talking that all the answers are in Jesus and that He leads and guides us into All Truth and you'll see how powerful that Name Is...

Thank you for this Ms. Nebula, Amen and Amen... Let the adventure begin again and again...I've thought about this many times...if we would just spend time in His Word...We would see that our Lord was very very adventurous and amazing!!! And to think that The Word says: 1John 2:6 He who says he abides in Him ought himself also to walk just as He walked...What Lord? Walk as You walked? But how? You mean spending time with You? In the secret place...in prayer...waiting...and then knowing in our knower it's time to get up because faith without works is dead...what an adventure...

Oh Yes He Is Alive!!! And Oh Yes...He Will Save Our Lives!!! Whew... Loving you In Him Kingdom1, NeedYouLord

Oh Lord You Are So Good and Your Mercy Endures Forever...I Pray Indwell Your Children Mightily For Your Glory...Lead and Guide us, O Father...Into Your Perfect Will...Wow...In The Name of Jesus, I Pray And Thank You For Your Word...Which Is Sharper Than Any Two Edged Sword... Ephesians 3:8 (New King James Version) To me, who am less than the least of all the saints, this grace was given, that I should preach among the Gentiles the unsearchable riches of Christ... The Lord has given me this word to meditate on...several times now...I'm a housewife (One that has been changed mightily by The Power of God)...Hahaha...Asking, Seeking and Knocking...Lord...Use me any way You see fit...Amazing what God can do in a life that is submitted to Him...The Lord showed me years ago how He could take everything He had ever given me in this life and use it for His Glory...Just to testify: Waiting on The Lord...Is an amazing, amazing thing...because now this many years later (I'm not saying it takes everybody as long as it did me...I had to be carnal for a very long time...highly don't recommend it either) but waiting is amazing because now---and believe me I knew when it was time---to start walking in The Plan and Purpose God has for my life...ever heard of preaching through a sewing machine? Uhhh...Our God is Amazing...I'm still In Awe of Him... Love, NeedYouLord

Hippo's hope...Hi...I can relate to what everybody is saying and at the same time in such Awe of our God...I have been going through some similar things...I was thinking how I had forgotten to look for the Hand of God in my life. I learned that early on-someone that God had blessed with wisdom-told me that. At first I couldn't see His Hand at all in my life...it's gotten a little easier over the years. This is part of the amazing part-Hahaha...I haven't looked for a book-haven't even wanted to read a book-except for The Bible-for a very long time. Well...the other day, my daughter and I were in the Goodwill store...she loves reading and would just stay in the book section for hours...I just happened-just happened-hahaha-to glance down and this book title just swept me away...The Secret Kingdom-by Pat Robertson...and I have these "God moments" is what I call them...I just knew I needed to read this book...and I was right...I didn't know what I was going through and it was so subtle that I couldn't really see it. There is like one sentence in that book that has changed my life forever...A house divided can not stand...I know that is in The Bible...but this time I'm reading it and seeing it differently...The Bible is Truly Alive to me...Back to the divided part...there was a time when all of me was in unity...Seeking 1st The Kingdom of God...no matter what...and I can't even describe to you the wonderfulness of that time...It was like I was in His Presence 24/7/365 and it was literally heavenly...but understanding that there is a time for everything...Change and trials and tests come...they come for my own good really...what am I going to do...run and hide or stand? Well once again...I'm standing...and literally fighting the good fight of faith...I've never gotten anything easily from God or anyone else...I have had to go after it...To Seek Until I Find or Literally It's Put In Front of me...Hahaha This may be the best part of all...I don't know I think I'm celebrating God's Goodness right now... For some reason I was watching a show and there were many guests that are going to be at (or have been already...I don't know) a Women of Faith Conference...and I kept watching-didn't know why...and then a lady by the name of Patsy Clairmont came on...I sat in awe listening to her testimony. Google her name and she is everywhere...there are videos etc etc. I remember her saying this part...I went to my bed and didn't come out...She kept crying for God to fix me...and then one day...She prayed a different prayer...God, I am willing to do what You want me to do...She said it changed her life...and I have never laughed so hard in my life listening to her speak...She has put humor in being healed of something that was so horrible...She can see The Truth in all of it now... Father, I pray above all else, In The Mighty Name of Jesus, that we continually be allowed to see Your Goodness...To be allowed to be used for Your Glory...To Bathe In Your Light Forever...My my...I love your name, hippo's hope...There is So Much Hope In Him...I know that's The Truth!!! Loving you In Him, NeedYouLord