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Ella

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  1. Ella

    need prayer

    for the first time in long time i was sane but it was me doing something that was wrong at the time of being Buddhist calmed me down i could be quite my voices where gone and my thoughts weren't racing like it does all the time but it came back after going to talk to my minster who is LGBT i still go to the LGBT church am a member there am back between genders and confusion that happens because of that i want to be female most of the time and i want Jesus i know in my heart that he hasn't abandoned me like everyone else has my husband is unhappy that am on here because of the fact this forum members are against LGBT and you will tell me to stop going there its my ocd and my mental health i cant be on my own he wants me to leave here and he is angry he just went out to smoke am in the house crying because i cant win he had a go at me for this post he controlling but i need him here because am unable to look after myself and i love him
  2. Ella

    need prayer

    i need prayer my ocd has made me follow cults and religons that are false my husband has encourraged me to do it he wants me sane and will do anything he to make me happy but am not i need Jesus maybe here is the wrong place but av been told by other members in other posts to post here
  3. i have asked Jesus to be my lord and savour i prayed tonight for the first time i opened my heart and soul to jesus am not going to the LGBT CHURCH ANYMORE AM NOT TRANSGENDER AND I WILL NOT BECOME MUSLIM ....
  4. IF AM THAT BAD WHY DONT YOU BAN ME ??? ID LIKE MY ACCOUNT AND POSTS DELETED PLEASE THERE ARE GOOD PEOPLE ON THIS FORUM BUT THERE ARE ONE OR TWO WHO CAN GO TO HELL PEOPLE WHO DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT IT MEANS BY JESUS LOVE JESUS LOVES EVERYONE NO MATTER WHAT
  5. I Think am a psychopath i enjoy hurt my husband and myself ...i am going to hell
  6. The new church is the church i am now going to on permanent bases every Sunday i'll be going to i have one friend who goes there too and am liking the new church more than i ever thought the lgbt church am no longer going too , i have lost my family i have no one Just Jesus i have ask Jesus to be my lord and savour and asked him to get the demons away from me i have prayed and i still praying for my lord pray for others than myself i have done what you have asked me i will no longer post for support
  7. i made a mistake , followed islam i wanted to follow Jesus but the demons in my head the voices that control me got me to go to islam JESUS PLEASE FORGIVE A SINNER LIKE ME JESUS I LOVE YOU Almost lost my husband was going to leave my husband and go to a shelter where there would be muslim women but i remain with my husband the LGBT MINSTER STOPPED ME GOING FURTHER IN ISLAM I STILL GO TO THE CHURCH THERE AS I HAVE FRIENDS THERE I CANT LEAVE THE OTHER CHURCH I LOVE AND I FEEL Jesus there MORE SO THAN EVER BEFORE ON SUNDAY I WAS CHRISTIAN AND MONDAY I WAS ISLAM BECAUSE OF THE DEMONS WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME I UPSET EVERYONE I SHOULD GO TO HELL
  8. I went to the church where I felt Jesus presence I felt its there i felt like jesus wants me to be saved my husband will come with me provided i go to the gay Church And the minister there is a mental health Chaplin as well and because i have a illness where am volitile sometimes Will say am hurting myself and my husband by being manipulative to get whsy i think is good for me He also said i everyone around me if i change faith or church
  9. i think your right i need to stop doing all this bad stuff ....how do i get them to go away am going to the other church this Sunday might e mail the minster and ask for a 121
  10. I think i need prayer sorry for posting in the wrong place
  11. my psych says its not demons but i think it is i went to other faiths when i stopped being catholic went to Wicca , Islam , Hindu etc i am christian now i was baptised as a baby but not in a born again sense i go to an gay church my husband goes there and i have friends there but there is another church i can go to but i must go to the other church on at 6.30 pm Sunday the gay church is on at 11 am church my husband said av got to go to the LGBT CHURCH if i want to go to the other church
  12. Voices telling me i must join Islam shouting over and over its demons ,spirits, monsters someone is messing with my head nearly lost all my friends my husband everything my fault because am evil and need to die
  13. thank you all for your replies on Friday i took An od am home and am ok my husband says i can go to the church in town that i could feel Jesus there the church has women's groups and i can hang out there for a while i made a promise id never od again as i have things to live for one think i am living for and that is JESUS i will not longer hurt myself in anyway eg. self harm and eating disorder etc JESUS LORD HELP ME I AM A SINNER BUT YOU ARE HERE WITH ME ALWAYS
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