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  1. I know He didn't show Himself to me because I have no chance.. but i'm just dumb or something. anyways.. take care guys. i'm going back to being an idiot.
  2. I have schizoaffective disorder bipolar type and schizoid personality disorder. I'm no Christian.. nor was I ever going to Heaven, right? There's no chance for someone like me. I just have to accept that I wasn't one of the selected.
  3. I'm in deep trouble, guys. I have mood disorders that no Christian should have. Will Jesus give me a pass if I can't get myself to leave the house? Or do I have a demon/ give into Lucifer's tricks? Ahhhh.. I really believe i'm in jeopardy of going to hell if I died now. I just can't accept that things happen according to the world's evils.. mainly. I keep thinking we should be living in a perfect environment, but I need to better grasp the fall of man or something. it's confusing my brain, man.
  4. I know Jesus died on the cross for me. I know it's all true, from cover to cover. Why am I still stuck in sinner mode? Am I just heartless and can't care about Jesus? Why do I want to go to hell? I know my souls trajectory right now.. and it isn't good. Why can't I care?!? I need some motivation or something. If hell doesn't work, what motivation is there? If showing Christ respect isn't motivation, what could someone say?
  5. I know Christ is real. I know Christ died on the cross for me to have a chance. He showed me he's real.. and I wasn't indoctrinated into believing, he just showed up. What keeps me from going FULL BLAST JESUS MODE?
  6. I consider myself Christian every other week. It's really terrible that I can't get a profession and move out of my parents because of my disease. It isn't my main problem, as I struggle to give up certain sins. I always feel paralyzed as I think to move towards Christ. It's like I can't get started. Any advice?
  7. It's so grossly addicting. I can barely last 2 hours right now.
  8. I always run from something so great. It's literally so idiotic to run from eternal blessings, right? haha. I am back and I'm not sliding away. I have to find the self confidence to quit smoking. I know it's easy with Christ, but I can't even last 2 hours.
  9. Hello there, partna. I like your name. welcome.
  10. I can't believe I denied Christ to people.. after all He has done for me. I am ashamed. I even posted that I was leaving the faith because of this. He has showed me amazing things and there's no more half ways following Him. It's full tilt to the cross!
  11. I swear, I was just admitted to the main hospital and then to the psychiatric ward, for alcohol abuse. Today I feel awesome and yesterday and the day before. Maybe I caught it in time, but I know a ton of people were praying for me.
  12. Heaven is very real and very close for every person alive today, if they wish. You worry about trivial things, OP. Since you're seeking, I hope you find.
  13. so, i have schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. my life was hell, i used alcohol to cope, and now i'm a massive alcoholic. my life is just over. i'm suicidal, not phoning the doctors. it's just bad. i just see so many problems with christianity that i can just no longer believe. i'm a deist now.
  14. the only thing that i agree with, gerbil girl, is your love for all people. you can't think that gays aren't choosing this behavior after reading the Bible. the church should never accept them. you literally can't just go, "Well, they say they're not confused.", and believe that makes it OKAY to God.
  15. 5 years!??!?