Earlier you posted this portion:
Each believer is given the same hope, the same help, the same grace. What a believer chooses to do with this grace that is freely given to them, is the choice of the believer’s heart....They can choose to allow this grace to grow them into a full grown man in Christ. Or they can choose to not grow, or grow just a little, but to remain mostly as they are, which scripture describes as a babe, child or young man in Christ....
This is part of what I thought was off. I don’t believe a disciple has a choice on what to do with the given grace of God. Scripture never portrays the Creator as someone who freely offers grace and hopes they make the right choice on how to use it. Hence, my analogy with Washer’s example of the truck vs. Jesus and which is bigger? When God calls you don’t get to put Him on hold until you’re ready. Jesus also made several statements of followers who turn back not being worthy of Him. It sounds pretty all or nothing to me when He would state such things: hands on plow but turns back, let the dead bury their dead, not willing to deny themselves, etc. None of this sounds like a call of “whenever you’re ready to forgo all the world has to offer give me a call”. So, like the truck would permanently alter you physically at 100 mph, our Lord will permanently alter you spiritually, with His Spirit, over time. For me it took time to get where I currently am but there were little changes immediately when His Spirit convicted my soul. Small steps for sure with occasional backsliding but, as Shai Linne says in his song “Penelope Judd”, the Dove was there to pick me up whenever I slipped. So my backsliding became less and less and I began to detest my sins more and more. I didn’t have a choice in my changes because as I grew in my faith and love for God, I grew to hate all that our God hates and that included my own sins.
Sorry...I didn’t mean to continue on like that but I hope I made some sense to you. I think the real question to ask you to consider is whether you are a “drowning in the ocean until God threw you a rope” or a “dead at the bottom of the sea” kind of guy in regards to salvation?
Soli Deo Gloria ?