Bottled up emotions

[ladypeartree]

even crying will start ( and stop ) when the time is right .... after my son died I felt I couldnt cry ..I had to be strong for my other children, my parents . his friends and collegues ......the list went on and on and on

One day about a week or two after his funeral I was drivig to work and just found myself crying ...this happened for months afterwards, just at strange times and often without warning ...it will all happen when it is right for you

praying for you all especially on the weekend You : WILL get through the funeral with everyone supporting each other ..it is in the days after that it gets harder when you start to think of all the things they will miss and you will miss sharing with them... we will not miss praying for you all at those times too

[Guest]

Praying~!

[barukhmalachi]

We wrestle not against flesh and blood but against principalites... the person you struggle to forgive was influenced by natural or supernatural influence. But forgiveness is for our purpose not for the other person. Separate the grief of lost loved ones and the bitterness for the person who caused it. There is little any one person can say to ease your pain but stay faithful that one day you will see them again and jesus himself will wipe away all your tears. Perrystone.org has some teachings that will help you.

[Guest SDGS]

I am responding to what helps me with things like this. I spent a lot of years in treatment. Some keep a journal, but I perfer not. What helps me, get those emotions outside you, is to write.

It may fly against the Christian faith, I don't know, but I write in email (never never fill in the "send to" box) and tell the person who harmed you exactly how you feel. Nobody is going to read it so don't hold back or feel guilty for your anger. Let it out. This is a safe way to release it and nobody sees it. Holding those feelings inside harms you.

You do have to carry on for your family, but writing out your very human anger, knowing no one will see it, helps you release some of it.

I hope this helps. I am sorry for all you are going through. I have had to deal with this myself, so I do understand.

[Leigh Emerson]

Praying for you...he will lift you up! 

[christs-love]

A Kaleidoscope of feelings flickered in my mind.

Anger, Hurt, Revenge, Numbness, Frustration , ect. I can go on & on.

How do you forgive someone who killed your loved ones, and still feels guilty for feeling that way about them?

How do you keep smilling when you feel like breaking down and cry?

Am I going slowly insane? I must be strong for the family needs me, I must tell them that DADDY GOD still cares

and HE know the pain & will heal... Am I putting on a mask again? WIll I become part of this world of plastic people, thinking that they happy, while the white walls inside is crumbling & breaking down?

I know there is light at the end of the tunnel, it's just seems so far away?

Am I wrong in thinking why did it have to be them, why not me?

I still hear YOUR voice saying YOU are near...I still know YOU can comfort like YOU did before...

Yet I want to run away from it, but my heart won't let me. For the LOve I have for YOU DADDY GOD is more than this madness going inside of me.

So on bended knees, broken & bruised inside, tears floading my face, I call out to YOU just to hold me tight and don't let go!

Oh how I need YOU DADDY to shine YOUR Light Clearly & Brightly to us. Help us to forgive & help the person that drove that vehicle. Let YOUR Loving grace & mercy touch him.

DADDY, oh how it hurts so much...can YOU please ease this pain...it's driving me insane...

I know YOU hear, I know YOU know my heart. Come and have YOUR rightful place here in my heart, and mend this brokenness...

My brother died seeing him lying there in front of me as I moved towards him our lord come to me he pick me up in his arms he then took away from me all my pain all my grieve, and Jesus spoke gently to me and said it’s just his shell that’s died his soul has gone back home to God from where he came, and when you die your be reunited with him, and that really helped me it made me think of death in another way, it may be five or fifty years it is only a temporary separation.

before my brother died we had an argument I felt guilty we always made it up after an argument , because I never said sorry to him, God does not want you to feel guilty it wasn’t your fault Lomi just like it wasn’t my fault, I am Sorry to hear of your loss.

If I may say, this helped me I placed a few pictures of my brother around where I live. I would talk to him tell him how I feel, sometimes I would go to where he is buried go and have a chat with him there, I felt better after would.

Pray for all those that have wronged you, I know it can be hard, if you feel at any time you want to weep, just weep. Jesus is there weeping with you and for you. When you’re feeling low ask our lord he will lift you up and carry you in his arms Lomi.

Find someone you trust a friend go and talk to them like a councillor talk about anything that’s troubles you, It will release you from your feelings, If we don’t deal with things as time passes by things start to fiesta build up in us.

Somebody I know went to a councillor and talked so much about her past and problems trying to find out why she felt the way she did, until she had looked at every angle and understood herself more. Then she was able to put it aside and get on with her life. She also understood better, why she did things a certain way or behaved and reacted in particular ways. Now she is doing a degree in psychology, so she can help others.

By talking with someone, or screaming in the middle of a field, feelings of anger, sadness, hurt, guilt, take it out on a punch bag. It’s a release mechanism, and you will start to feel a lot better about things.

(Tension stress) Learn yoga from the internet it will help you, do it for half an hour every day or longer, Stress adds to the way we feel, it’s like carrying around a massive weight around are neck. Doing Yoga It will release all the stress in your body.

I will pray for you with my heart, also for your entire family and friends.

Lomi Jesus loves you and his love for you is infinite, He has never left you in all your troubles Jesus is there with you.

About my brother and this true short story our lord wanted you to have both.

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.

Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.

Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,

other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed

that during the low periods of my life,

when I was suffering from

anguish, sorrow or defeat,

I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,

"You promised me Lord,

that if I followed you,

you would walk with me always.

But I have noticed that during

the most trying periods of my life

there have only been one

set of footprints in the sand.

Why, when I needed you most,

you have not been there for me?"

The Lord replied,

"The times when you have

seen only one set of footprints,

is when I carried you."

Edited September 23, 2011 by christs-love

[nChrist]

You will be in my prayers. May God give you peace and comfort like only He can give.

[Guest Kasey777]

Lomi

I wish I had an answer as to why terrible things happen...I mean there is an answer but it's not one that really helps our emotions when we are reeling in pain.

In 1993 my husband died of a cerebral hemorrhage, no warning, he wasn't sick...a blood vessel burts in his brain, he went into a Coma and died the next day...on Mother's Day.

I had two young children and was so lost.....I did not understand why Joseph was taken at the time, but I have come to a place of acceptance...

One thing that I held onto was this, my husband was an Orthodox Jew....7 days before he died he had made a decision for Christ...accepted Him as his Messiah.

This was the most wonderful piece of peace for me, not having to wonder where Joseph would spend eternity...

I went through about 7 years of clinical depression and it nearly tore my children up....finally release came and I was able to live again...

I know what you are experiencing is probably the worst trauma emotionally, but Abba Father is faithful and HE will see you through this.

[mom2teenboy]

I know exactly what the bottled up emotions are. When my husband passed away 10 years ago, I was a mess. I didn't know whether to cry or be happy for him being in a better place. I kept it all built up inside until I finally had enough courage to speak to a therapist and then open my heart to Jesus.

It's not easy to be open, I am just learning how to be open and not embarrised to talk about things.

The best thing to do is not bottle up emotions because one day, ( which is true ) you will just explode and then not know who you are as a person anymore.

Sara