Opinions please.

[Can Do (Phil 4:13)]

7 years ago I resigned from a very mentally abusive employer. I had worked for him for almost 3 years when I resigned. During my time there I was repeatedly embarrased infront of our patients, humiliated before my friends and accused of theft (only hours after it came out the daughter had taken money from the cash box). When I left I had a breakdown and couldn't look for work for 6 months after, even though my husband and I desperatley needed the extra income.

I've done a lot with my life in the last 7 years. I've achieved a significant amount of growth as a Child of Christ, grown in maturity and done some academic achievements as well as being a full time mother and now a leader in ministry.

My problem is that I STILL dream that I'm working where I was 7 years ago, facing the same situation all over again. I start out by telling the husband and wife team that I'm not going to accept their previous behaviour and that if they start on me, I'll just up and go. During the course of the dream the unacceptable behaviours begin and I resign.

Why won't these dreams go away? During my time of employment, I spent many hours witnessing to my male employer about the Truth of Jesus and I could feel the Holy Spirit touching his heart. Very often it was of the Lord that we had time to discuss Him at all, a patient would cancell or someone wouldn't show up. I had very deep feelings for this man, feelings I would desribe as loving. It was such a close relationship with him, we spent 9 hours a day sitting half a foot away from each other (it was the nature of the work we did) and I got to know him as well as I knew my husband on a purely non physical level.

What are your opinions? Why am I still dreaming of the work environment? Please help. I'm not asking for prayer but for help in clarity of thought.

With love

YSIC

Faithie

[IreneM]

first let me say i am not pentacostal

but do this

anoint the pillow you sleep on you and hubby pray or just you if you wish that the Lord would take control of your dreams and tell Him why Yes He knows but tell Him anyway

In Christ

IreneM

[Guest Falling]

Hey Faithie,

You did the right thing getting out of that situation. But, there seems to be something you've left unresolved. I have worked that closely with someone before doing counseling work. I had a hard time because although we witnessed and talked about God we became closer than we should have and the precious friendship I should have shared with my husband I enjoyed more from my co-worker. Even if it isn't physical, emotions and relationships can do crazy things to us and cause us conflict and pain.

The "emotional abuse" you suffered may have bothered you more than you admit, the reasons you stayed so long or why you felt so violated could be what is causing you to work it out in your dreams. Psychologist say it is how we face issues we can't find solutions to normally. God uses them too. I don't want to judge your problem, I only want to help.

Whatever the issue God is with you and he can help you work it out. You may need to forgive that man or yourself. I have had to face and repent for many layers of misguided feelings and I couldn't have done it without God. No matter what Faithie remember: Keep God First

He wants you to be happy and he loves you, accept the peace he can bring!

[Can Do (Phil 4:13)]

Thankyou Falling for speaking truth and healing into my life Irene, I will annoint our pillows tonight.

Thanks for your help.

YSIC

Faithie

[Abigailwc]

Faithie, if I were in your shoes, every night before going to bed (you probably did it already) I would pray and specifically ask God to guard my mind at night and to prevent me from having that stressful particular dream.

Until that dream dissapears, I would praise the Lord loudly after having that dream. Fear and stress is not of God and whatever it is you need to rebuke it by focusing on the Lord and praising Him is a great way of doing it.

I remember having terrible thoughts and be ashamed of these thoughts until somebody advised me to sing to the Lord and pray for people in need whenever these thoughts flooded my mind. I did, and guess what! The thoughts disappeared!

Hope that helps!