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[faithfull-prophet4040]

I have went from a pack and a half to 2 packs a day (cigarette's) to a little over a half a pack a day, and i'm finally ready to quit. Because something really scary happened to me lastnight, it could have been from a abundance of reason's, or from me taking a different type of suboxone. I usually take suboxone strip's, which have a chemical that start's with a b in them, and another chemical called naloxone. naloxone doesnt cause any sort of feeling persay, it just fills in opiate receotors so a person can stop withdrawing from opioid's. and the other chemical that start's with a b, something like benphorphine, something like that, and that is the chemical that causes the pain relief and happiness. I took a different kind of suboxone lastnight called suboxone tech which has no naloxone in it, and just the other chemical that start's with a b, and it was a tablet not a strip that disolves under the tounge. Anyway's I for the first time in my life felt paranoid... like really paranoid. I was having picture's come into my head, crazy scary thing's that you would see on terrifying scary movies like a girls eyes going black and thing's like that.  it was as if i was coming down with schizophrinia. They stopped after i stopped reading the bible because that's when they started, even though I was enjoying reading it. And it's almost as if something evil was putting them there, because aside from when I was a young teen walking home in the dark down dark allies, I have never been paranoid or had scary thing's come to mind. I usually have no fear of anything, besides in the morning I feel fear from my chronic nightmare's. And it happened right when I started enjoying reading the bible, and stoopped as soon as I closed the bible. Anyway's this kind of, like they say (scared me straight), and gave me a wake up call, that I need to change my life and quickly. So i'm finally all done smoking cigarette's, I haven't smoked one in 6 hour's. I have been tempted many time's to smoke one, and have had many craving's too smoke, but didn't give in this time. I plan to not smoke in the morning when I wake up, or at all ALL DAY tomorrow for that matter. I also feel like im not ready to quit my prescribed benzo (klonopin) it is the only thing that help's with my panic attack's mainly the fear caused from the panic attack's, or my morning fear from nightmare's. but I after quitting smoking for about a week want to stop suboxone. I feel that having it for a few day's then going without for a week then having it again for a few day's etc... Is kind of foolish. I'm just putting my self through withdraw's every 4 days for a week straight then getting some then going through withdraws again. It just seem's pointless, so I want to quit that too. Also there expensive I take a half of a strip at a time, and each strip is 40 dollar's. I take a strip a day, that's 160 dollar's just for 4 day's of use. Also I thank everybody for all the helpfull answer's on my last post, about me being anti social. Everybody was very kind and I appreciate that. there no judgment, no get over it type of answer's. I thank you all very much. And I apologize for not replying to many of the answer's, I want to but never find the time, I just here and there write a post, and hope to get helpfull answer's, and check a few day's later. I will soon be going back on all my post's and replying to a lot of the answer's.

[Who me]

Paragraphs would make it much easier to read.

 

There are things you can do to deal with your problems.

Self help techniques that enable one to calm down panic attacks, being involved in physical activities that remove or replace the urge to smoke. As do things like nicotine patches etc.

 

Part of your getting yourself heathy physically, mentally and spiritually means you have to start getting used to meeting people.

 

You smoke and take prescription drugs. You go to the shop and buy them.

Terrifying but try it at a small corner shop.

[missmuffet]

On 8/12/2021 at 10:44 PM, faithfull-prophet4040 said:

I have went from a pack and a half to 2 packs a day (cigarette's) to a little over a half a pack a day, and i'm finally ready to quit. Because something really scary happened to me lastnight, it could have been from a abundance of reason's, or from me taking a different type of suboxone. I usually take suboxone strip's, which have a chemical that start's with a b in them, and another chemical called naloxone. naloxone doesnt cause any sort of feeling persay, it just fills in opiate receotors so a person can stop withdrawing from opioid's. and the other chemical that start's with a b, something like benphorphine, something like that, and that is the chemical that causes the pain relief and happiness. I took a different kind of suboxone lastnight called suboxone tech which has no naloxone in it, and just the other chemical that start's with a b, and it was a tablet not a strip that disolves under the tounge. Anyway's I for the first time in my life felt paranoid... like really paranoid. I was having picture's come into my head, crazy scary thing's that you would see on terrifying scary movies like a girls eyes going black and thing's like that.  it was as if i was coming down with schizophrinia. They stopped after i stopped reading the bible because that's when they started, even though I was enjoying reading it. And it's almost as if something evil was putting them there, because aside from when I was a young teen walking home in the dark down dark allies, I have never been paranoid or had scary thing's come to mind. I usually have no fear of anything, besides in the morning I feel fear from my chronic nightmare's. And it happened right when I started enjoying reading the bible, and stoopped as soon as I closed the bible. Anyway's this kind of, like they say (scared me straight), and gave me a wake up call, that I need to change my life and quickly. So i'm finally all done smoking cigarette's, I haven't smoked one in 6 hour's. I have been tempted many time's to smoke one, and have had many craving's too smoke, but didn't give in this time. I plan to not smoke in the morning when I wake up, or at all ALL DAY tomorrow for that matter. I also feel like im not ready to quit my prescribed benzo (klonopin) it is the only thing that help's with my panic attack's mainly the fear caused from the panic attack's, or my morning fear from nightmare's. but I after quitting smoking for about a week want to stop suboxone. I feel that having it for a few day's then going without for a week then having it again for a few day's etc... Is kind of foolish. I'm just putting my self through withdraw's every 4 days for a week straight then getting some then going through withdraws again. It just seem's pointless, so I want to quit that too. Also there expensive I take a half of a strip at a time, and each strip is 40 dollar's. I take a strip a day, that's 160 dollar's just for 4 day's of use. Also I thank everybody for all the helpfull answer's on my last post, about me being anti social. Everybody was very kind and I appreciate that. there no judgment, no get over it type of answer's. I thank you all very much. And I apologize for not replying to many of the answer's, I want to but never find the time, I just here and there write a post, and hope to get helpfull answer's, and check a few day's later. I will soon be going back on all my post's and replying to a lot of the answer's.

Do you have a mental illness and do you have a mental health care professional you are seeing? It sounds like you are cutting down on you use of cigarettes. That is good. Why don't you just stick with that right now. It sounds like you are dealing with a lot without have to go through the stress of stop smoking totally.