me in a nutshell

[Guest TeMsTeR]

I'm gonna start this off with this- I am in love. lol I am new to the boards, barely post, I try though... I am havin struggles, lots to do with my love life. Stuff to do with stress and all that too. I need prayer. I have a broken family and all kindsa personal problems, tons of friends but no one to turn to when I need to talk, now that my christian "sis" is in college And, I just deal with so much. I need some help so bad, I so very badly wish I had self esteem, I just never have that when I need it the most. I love God, but I keep sinning. I dont want to but I do and then there's my boyfriend :il: , he makes it all seem so much better..... but I know that God heals ALL. I jus wanna have peace, like I used to.. I dunno if this made sense or if anyone will answer, I jus want peace, that's all

[Andrew007]

Hi Temster... and welcome to worthyboards... I'm kinda new too. I don't have a lot of knowledge... esp. caout that area... really... or any at all.... but I will pray for you... you don't need your sister.... God is right there waiting for yuo to pour out your burdens unto him

[nebula]

TeMsTeR - you are making complete sense with me. Actually, you are speaking my language. I've struggled with chronic depression since - oh - forever. I've spent most of my time alone. It seems like I've lost more friends than gained (moving, going to college, leaving college, misunderstandings, on and on). Self-esteem. What's that?

I'd like to say there is some easy answer to get you through this. If there is, I'd sure like to know, 'cause I could use it! But dealing with this has been a big, long, heavy process. I have learned that our souls are just like our bodies in that they can get injured and some injuries take longer to heal than others. Some may never heal, unless the Lord works a miraculous healing. As I have dealt with my physical pain (I have an autoimmune disease - my own body's natural defenses are attacking some of my body tissue) and learned that I just have to accept the pain is there for what it is and just push though it, so I have learned that the pain of my soul is just soemthing that is there and I have to push through it somehow. Seeing it this way has helped me deal with it.

Now, I'm going to tell you something I wish someone had told me 18 years ago. I thought the struggles I was going through were a unique situation for me and that no one could understand. But then, a few years ago, I learned of this condition called "chronic depression" (also called "disthymia" I believe), and realized that this is what I had. I mean, I read through the list of conditions and saw everything I ever struggled with - including the desire towards suicide. I just want you to know that you are not alone in what you are dealing with.

I don't know if you are in a place to do so, but there are Christian counselors around who are trained in helping people through struggles like you are describing. Having a broken family and all, too, there's a lot of damage there, I am sure (just the nature of the beast, so to speak). A trained Christian counselor for your soul is much like a medical doctor for your body. Both can give you cures that you couldn't get on your own power. If you can't get to a Christian counselor, maybe you can find a Christian bookstore with a counselling section. There's books in there for dealing with such as you have described. It's not an easy answer, but they can speak to your struggles, offer you hope, point you in the right direction, give you tools and aides to help you through your struggles, at least begin the process of healing.

God bless you, and may the Lord give you a vision of how He sees you, and may you come to accept His view of you! :il:

[Andrew007]

Nebula -- Everytime I read one of your posts I like you more and more You seem like you've been around for a while and know a lot from personal expericene.

Temster -- If I were you I'd take is advice... Good luck and God Bless. You're in my prayers!

[Guest Teh Wiccan]

Welcome to the boards TeM! It's a great gift to be with someone.

[Anonymous]

Hiya TeMsTeR, Welcome to WorthyBoards! I pray your time with us will be a blessed experience!

If I can ever be of assistance to you, feel free to pm me anytime!

Blessings~