I need advice!!!Help!!!

[Guest C.D. Light]

Wisdom--Thanks. Although Im not looking for sympathy as much as I am understanding.

My biggest heartache is the fact that too many valuable years were wasted on this--when God gives the "order" it was hard to distinguish just when it was ok to chuck it all. That was the worst part, so I "flip flopped" back and forth for a few years, not wanting to step into disobedience.

It was hard to imagine that a man of god (preacher) would even consider not obeying God, and I assumed he knew the consequences that would ensue (and he's had MANY quite disasterous ones.)

It brings to my mind the story of David and Bathsheba. Because David chose to violate his "free will" it not only cost him the loss of his own child, but that child also belonged to his wife--and she suffered that loss just as much, but not due to her own actions.  We know this was not God's doing, but the stupidity of man.

In the end, David's wife lived the rest of her life with the consequences because not even God can "unring a bell".

(Man creates disasters, and all God can do is come along and clean it up the best he can. He usually doesnt stop disasterous situations  that man insists upon creating, especially when there is strong free will in that person. He will put them under strong conviction, but they can nevertheless forge ahead, ultimately to great regret and remorse. But the damage is already done.)

Fortunately, I "moved on" but I'd like to move on even moreso. But for that to happen, there is something I need for God himself to do that will equip me to do that.

Ive been clearing that path as much as is within my means to do so, but NOW woud be the "acceptable time" for Him to do the part Ive asked Him to do. And I'll say thank you veeeeeeeeery much.  

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[Hillson]

Dear brothers and sisters,

I am glad to hear those of you gave me the advices! How much I appreciate! Please read the below, this is my testimony...

During these days I was extremely anxious as if I were an ant sinking in a bowl of hot water (My personal issue). I really hate myself, but I know I just can't handle it becasue I am not God...I told my situation to my christian friends. They helped me a lot, I know I can do is pray. But I am still worried yesterday, I was so nervous I felt sick and stomach-ache, but I had to work yesterday in somewhere, this time I totally placed this in God's hand. I prayed.... I have been to a brother's home yesterday after my work duty, he gave me a book, I just turn it randomly but it really happened in my eye, Jesus really comes to me and tell me something personally, He totally understand what I feel. Because the article I found was about "Life is not all joy and pleasure, there are heavy cares and burdens, that often weigh upon our breast. There are times of bitter suffering, times of sickness, times of pain, time of grief and times of darkness, when life's troubles seem to tain. Yes, there's many taxing moments, on this ocean depth of strife, many sob'ring tribulations, here to try us in this life. SUFFERING MAY TO US BE BITTER, BUT IT TENDS TO KEE US PURE. IT WILL LEAD OUR FOOTSTEPS UPWARD, AND WILL HELP OUR FAITH MATURE. IT WILL HELP US SEE OUR WEAKNESS, SHOW US JUST HOW FRAIL WE ARE, FILLES US WITH A GRATEFUL SPIRIT, FOR THAT HIGHER SOURCE OF POWER!".....

I walked to a park and I prayed few hours, guess what happened? Jesus came again this time, I had a strong feeling He was speaking with me....... He listened my prayer and answered my prayer.....It's fantastic...... He is always good to me, His arms does not short to protect me, His eyes does not blind to see nor his ear dull to hear............

[WISDOM]

Dear brothers and sisters,

I am glad to hear those of you gave me the advices! How much I appreciate! Please read the below, this is my testimony...

During these days I was extremely anxious as if I were an ant sinking in a bowl of hot water (My personal issue). I really hate myself, but I know I just can't handle it becasue I am not God...I told my situation to my christian friends. They helped me a lot, I know I can do is pray. But I am still worried yesterday, I was so nervous I felt sick and stomach-ache, but I had to work yesterday in somewhere, this time I totally placed this in God's hand. I prayed.... I have been to a brother's home yesterday after my work duty, he gave me a book, I just turn it randomly but it really happened in my eye, Jesus really comes to me and tell me something personally, He totally understand what I feel. Because the article I found was about "Life is not all joy and pleasure, there are heavy cares and burdens, that often weigh upon our breast. There are times of bitter suffering, times of sickness, times of pain, time of grief and times of darkness, when life's troubles seem to tain. Yes, there's many taxing moments, on this ocean depth of strife, many sob'ring tribulations, here to try us in this life. SUFFERING MAY TO US BE BITTER, BUT IT TENDS TO KEE US PURE. IT WILL LEAD OUR FOOTSTEPS UPWARD, AND WILL HELP OUR FAITH MATURE. IT WILL HELP US SEE OUR WEAKNESS, SHOW US JUST HOW FRAIL WE ARE, FILLES US WITH A GRATEFUL SPIRIT, FOR THAT HIGHER SOURCE OF POWER!".....

I walked to a park and I prayed few hours, guess what happened? Jesus came again this time, I had a strong feeling He was speaking with me....... He listened my prayer and answered my prayer.....It's fantastic...... He is always good to me, His arms does not short to protect me, His eyes does not blind to see nor his ear dull to hear............

Hillson:

Please continue to trust our FATHER, not the things said and done of men.  We will fail you....HE won't!

[Hillson]

Dear all,

Greetings in the name of our wonderful Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!

I am a christian from China. I am messed up, becasue I recevied an email from my GF who is studying in UK... She told me that her parents found out their daughter has a bf by a chance. They didn't know before, they don't accept my gf to has a bf so soon, becasue she is still studying, in their eyes she is still young, however she is 19 years old. But now here are the problems happened, they damned my gf and get very angry with her, they don't accet me at all, because I am a christian (they didn't know their daughter became a christian when we met), and I am not a Communist Party of membership, even I have no experienced with a good university, ect........ They warned my gf to break up with me.....