Mental Illness

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[boodle]

i have a mental illness too, i was diagnosed with "stressfull paranoia with depression and borderline personality disorder" and i often felt that god had turned his back on me too as i have seen, experienced and done terrible things that i beleive noone should ever have to. i beleived that the devil was out to get me and he was everywhere that i went and actually still beleive that now. the more i slipped away the more life left me and people would even say how over the years my eyes had turned from green to black and from happy to angry like i was being consumed by something. my very appearance physicaly went from full of life to something that looked like it just crawled out of hell. i hated everyone the whole world infact, i never let anyone in, never spoke of my feelings and kept everything (thoughts, feelings etc) to myself as i thought its noone elses business and the less people know about me the less they can hurt me. im forever living in the past, never able to forget and would hold a grudge for ever. i.ve done some terrible things that im not proud of but however im not sorry for them because i've learnt from them, i am however sorry to god about some of the things i've done as im sure hes dissapointed in me for listening to the devil and giving into him, BUT, if i was to let these things keep me down and weakened then i felt that (ok with the devils help) the only person that was hurting me was me and realized that being a beast and being bad was easier then being good as it SEEMED to hurt less, its like a form of giving up, like when things in life got me down then instead of letting them knock me back a few steps i found it easier to just let go and fall back to rock bottom.

i make sure i remember that god gave me my own pair of shoulders and that i need to use them if i was to fight my way out of this dark, cold place and i did and now people are saying how color is back in me as if i glow, im putting on weight and doing well for myself. i'd be lying if i said im fully recovered but then some wounds will never heal and the ones that do, still leave a scar. i managed to accomplish this by putting all my faith in god once again.

the key words there were "once again". what im trying to say is that god never turned his back on me, it was me that turned my back on god. never again.

Ben

[kat8585]

I've been going thru this for virtually my whole adult life. At times it has been crippling, incompacitating, debilitating. Antidepressants don't help. I wish I had an answer.

[tsth]

I do have to ask one question:

What are you using to gauge your standing with God? Do you have anything to measure and test against, to know where you stand? Or, are you merely going by feelings?

This is an important starting point.

In His Love,

Suzanne

[tsth]

No comments?

In His Love,

Suzanne

[Joelle]

I used to experience depression too, but I don't anymore, I'm not really sure but it seems that I don't. I don't have any useful advice, but I'm praying for you.

[patricia1]

Okay..I hope that I can give a encouraging and edifying word here that whoever drops by this post will be lifted up.

There are a number of christians suffering from a type of mental dis-ease or disorder. Many do not say much because they are ashamed due to the stigma of such.

• having any disease does not negate the word of God in your life...so stand on the scriptures that tell you so.
  
• This is a spiritual battle that one needs to use the word of God
  
• The enemy does not attack those he has no fear of
  
• Is it a cycle? Does it coincide with your periods or menopause? could there be a thyroid problem. A diabetic problem? a allergy? All these things can cause mood changes: even a lack of vitamin or mineral.
  

Now let us look at certain Loved people of God.

Moses~~~Awonderful man of God. Had horrible insecurities about not being eloquent of speech. Had a anger management problem. He was so worn out and down that his father in law told him He needed to get a grip and get a group together to help him...

Saul~~ very depressed man and paranoid, homocidal

Nehemiah~ a dreamer who saw vision of what God wanted, visions ...hallucinations perhaps.

Ezra~~ more down to earth very articulate may be obsessive.

Job~ Now he was a depressed man who wondered what was going on Lost everything God gave him. We see the outcome but Job did not when he went through his trials

David~~ committed murder, adultery...was so depressed he talked to himself and lived in fear.

Solomon~~He was obsessive compulsive and maybe manic...Manic people sometimes collect wealth and He was never satisfied

Jeremiah~~~ The weeping profit... He was always cryin...yellling about something...major depression antisocial

Timothy~~ very sick with stomac difficulties and fearful

Peter~~~ another one who can use anger management

Paul~~ had a thorn in his flesh..did not get along with many. . He wanted to be in heaven many times Who wouldn't

and of course let us not forget John...who saw things that weren't there along with ezekiel and daniel.

Now I am looking at these men from a psychological view point. If they were alive today they would me all on medications and going for therapy. And yet they were beloved in the bosom of the Lord.

When at a covention or even in the local church the devils and his entorauge is there too. A powerful word goes forth...food for growth, knowledge and wisdom obtained. So what happens? The enemy tries to steal it from you. Fills your head with his lies. How do you know they are lies?

They oppose the word of God. We feel the oppression because Jesus wants us to Know where it is coming from.

So...In Jesus name I take authrority over the lies that are from the pit of hell in the Name Of Jesus. I take authority over the spirit of fear, over depression...forboding in Jesus name. I plead the Blood of Jesus over each one here. Jesus you died more than 2000 years ago for each person here even before we knew you you knew us. We praise and thank-you.

And for all those suffering I pray you Give them Peace, Peace not as the world gives..but the peace that comes from the heavens above. I pray the Spirit of the Living God, Our Savior Jesus rises up over these emotions and feelings that dictated oppositions to you truth in each persons life that comes here...In the precious name of Jesus AMEN!!!

I have been ther...I do not know how many times at one point I continually said the sinners prayer thinking I was not saved. How many times I awoke to a new day trembling with fear...or just driving and have a overwhelming urge to drive off a mountain or into a wall.

So guys If you need meds due to a faulty nervous system..a chemical disorder take them. It is not the end of the world and you are no less a christian than anybody else for doing so.

The mind thoughts are attacks and get prayer from someone you trust. Three times a day id need be.... Hope I have helped... patricia1

[EricH]

Moved from General Discussion to Looking for Advise

[Richard_yaash]

Okay..I hope that I can give a encouraging and edifying word here... <snip>

Hope I have helped

<tips his hat to the lady>

Very well written... thank you.

[GloryToGod!]

Okay..I hope that I can give a encouraging and edifying word here... <snip>

Hope I have helped

<tips his hat to the lady>

Very well written... thank you.

ditto

Well said Patricia!