Today I come with a heavy heart and a urgency from God to fullfill the call of God on my life.I believe I am supposed to start a deliverance ministry to help those who struggle with mental illness find freedom. The book is going through the slow process of being edited, formatted and self published. It may take several months. I know that God has healed me of schizophrenia. I feel led by the Holy Spirit to taper off my medicine by faith and with the help of my doctor of course. Everything seems to be lining up for me to fulfill the calling on my life, except I do not know how my wife will take the news about me tapering off the medicine. She is a nurse, and has seen me at my worst. It has always boiled down to my wife and I not being on the same page. I believe that my schizophrenia was demonically induced. She doesn't believe in demons. I feel torn with with taking these leaps of faith or staying complacent and going nowhere fast. I am not getting any older, I am 54 years old and not getting any younger.I hope that everyone reading this can feel where I am coming from. I have not been able to hold down a steady job for years. Any words or encouragement and advice and or course prayers would be greatly appreciated. My wife is doing what she is called to do. I feel like being a nurse is a high calling. I'm just wondering where I fit in and what am I supposed to be doing with my life?