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But i cant leave either. Unless you meant that spiritually

So im referring to my situation. Job loss, sick neutopenic baby, ignored by my family, no money... Celebrating my babys birthday alone. I still have a lot of faith in God... I just hope theres a lesson. I pray and get silence ... Someone once told me...God works 2 ways-- he either takes you out of your situation or he gives you strength to endure. I worked hard to escape my situation only to lose my job.. So im still here but i dont neccessarily feel strong.

Thank you.

No not emotionally. He has his own issues he doesnt even deal with. This is my brother.

I did put my foot down. That led to me almost being thrown out. Not even joking.

I didn't go to work. I lost my jjob.

Im gonna look into them and yes they have. Im still bitter twd my parenta for making me lose my job even more so bc my dad told me that its a good thing i lost my job so i can be in the ER with my son. Uhg.

Also i cant get another job just yet bc i have to get all my baby's medical tests done. Also i want to keep my baby healthy so i dont go out to much since we've got out the ER. Im just indoors day in and. Out. Listening to my dad talk about what hell do with his money from the accident. Im a hardworker and Im just mad all my efforts were pretty much foiled. Trying hard to not kms at this point.

I will say at my lowest. At times i feel like giving my son away. My parents dont help me at all. They dont let me save. Ive helped and helped. To where i dont have much left and coulsnt get a car.... Im like im the one with the damn baby. Then my dad will taunt me saying ill never move . im a pathetic mothee blah blah or ignore me for days. My mom owes me 532 bucks but since i dont have money or a job .... If i have needs like diapers or wipes ect... She takes it out of what she owes me. Meaning itll dwindle down to nothing... Even though i let my mom use 200+ on my stamps. I dont want to give my precious son away... But i cant make it any other way. It still burns me they caused me to lose my job. Ive tried I cant do it without some help. Ita like my parents expect me to give and give ans when i nees help its solely on me.

This is true. Thanks.

True. Idk im just tired and i dont want to do this anymore.

Thats the thing. I dont see a sign. I just feel alone and im just losing it more ans more each day.

Right. He wasnt a true believer in jesus said amomg the 12 one is a devil.

I agree with this.

Im also distracted with alot of worries well mainly the state of our world. So much chaos. Im nervous for the day of election. I want to connect with God but my mind is so frazzled.

Thanks. Now my next question is what all ia considered oil?

me too.

I dont see the positive in my ocd. It cripples me . It keeps me from reading the word and other stuff. I get what youre saying though.

Tips please. Thank you.

True and sometimes God says no but we dont wanna hear it.

Checking in-- mine is dysfunctional. Its crazy how many are. Its terrible.

This is my same thought process. I also have ocd-- hello fellow ocd companion * wave*

Wow this puts alot into perspective.

How much do you have to read or pray to be zealous for God? I keep feeling like im not saved or will be left behind bc i dont hear God, dont see a purification process in my life ( i was more pure b4 i was saved) Honestly i feel like a log. I have zero discernment about anything spritual. I lack major confidence about nearly anything concerning myself abt God. ( i barely have faith, im not strong or courageous. Im incredibly weak which is why im certain i was never used by God so i couldnt imagine being left behind.) The only certainty i have is my salvation that's it. Everything else is up in the air.

Agree.