falling

[Indent]

…I have fallen for another person.

 

It’s been almost a decade, but the feeling is unmistakable.

 

There is no shortage of attractive women, but only once have I felt really pulled to another. I mean really pulled. There I was on Sunday, sitting in the pews and asking God to ease the aching heart. It was as if the heart had ruptured, and there was this slight burning within the chest. It was lifted from me. I would not be overcome with anxiety and I would not be passive… we talked during lunch, and it was then that those dreams came crashing down on me (dreams bearing messages). It happened to me a long time ago, and while the relationship would not be lasting, it had so profoundly changed me. It seemed unlikely to be chance.

 

You know, some of my best friends are female. Approaching women is a dance I know well. But for the life of me, how is it that I’m held so captive by another at one glance? This is an awful feeling, to fall for another and be uncertain… and the dreams. The dreams. 

 

Months before meeting her… I had a dream tell me I’d fall for a person. I heard a voice repeat a name three times. She has the same name. The frightening part is that I’ve had a series of dreams, and each of them had provided very, very specific information. At first the dreams meant little to me (I didn’t know anybody with the name, for example), but as time goes on, the more shocking each one becomes. Each detail is clear, and each so significant.

 

Long ago I never remembered my dreams, but one night I asked God to deliver me a message through one. It was the next morning that I remembered a most vivid dream, and it has been one of the most unusual I’ve ever had. It answered me in a white space. The dreams continued. There have been some unusual dreams, and even dreams of a prophetic nature. 

 

…and I prayed on these dreams. In a most fantastical dream, and I could hardly distinguish the dream from real life – it seemed that God had enveloped me, in a staggering display of white lights. There were three unusual lights in the distance. When I called out to Him, he gave me a sign of a heart.

Edited February 17, 2015 by Indent

[wingnut-]

So am I.  I mean, are those your words in the post, or just yours at the bottom?  Is there a question in there somewhere?  What kind of advice are you looking for?

[Indent]

I'm not sure why the font changed; I tried to edit it, but it converted to another font. 

 

There is no explicit question in there, but I wanted to get it off my chest. 

Edited February 17, 2015 by Indent

[wingnut-]

I see, are you looking for advice on something then?

[Guest]

Praying~!

[Indent]

You know, I have prayed for a partner. 

 

There was this surge of euphoria several months ago when I heard these words, "Ask and you will receive." It was a sermon at church I was visiting, and the feeling unusual to me (I treasure the bible and all, but rarely do I feel certain words speaking directly to me). Interestingly, it never occurred to me until now, but it's roughly when I started having the dreams. It would be amazing if I met another with dreams like mine, instead of me feeling like a madman.

 

A lot of Christians make extraordinary claims, but share a dream of a prophetic nature and the normative explanations come out. Honestly, I almost feel tempted to say, "Be careful what you pray for, you might get more than you bargained for." (I'm referring to the dreams of course) The dreams now weigh heavily on me. 

 

I'll be, undoubtedly, pursuing a girl at church - and while I like the girl a lot - I'm hardly excited about it. This is not some cold approach - me walking up to a girl comparing espresso in the aisle of a grocery store. You know exactly what you're getting into, here I do not. It appears that others are interested, and wonder if I should be bold here. The strange thing is she took the initiative to exchange numbers, but she has taken a conservative stance. 

 

How have others approached interest in others? 

 

Praying for me would be much appreciated, of course.

Edited February 17, 2015 by Indent

[wingnut-]

If I am interested in someone, I just go up and talk to them.  Will pray for you, of course, God bless.

[Floatingaxe]

Forming godly friendships first can enable God to lead to more. It's all about what God is providing...we don't have to provide for ourselves.

[Indent]

Forming godly friendships first can enable God to lead to more. It's all about what God is providing...we don't have to provide for ourselves.

 

 

A friendship is in the works, the difference is that I'm not pretending to be neutral. 

 

Our faith does not take place in a vacuum, and let us not forget that the church is social. You do not just approach a girl and think to be free of those natural inclinations. She will be making connections, and the entire church will have its eyes on me. A fact I know well. I would not depreciate the value of a friendship, and indeed that might be the only path to take here. But with an almost non-existent window to work with on Sunday, I think I'll be exploring this with a little more boldness.  

 

While God does provide, He doesn't [necessarily] need an enabler. Does God not provide in a number of ways? 

Edited February 17, 2015 by Indent

[Floatingaxe]

 

Forming godly friendships first can enable God to lead to more. It's all about what God is providing...we don't have to provide for ourselves.

 

 

A friendship is in the works, the difference is that I'm not pretending to be neutral. 

 

Our faith does not take place in a vacuum, and let us not forget that the church is social. You do not just approach a girl and think to be free of those natural inclinations. She will be making connections, and the entire church will have its eyes on me. A fact I know well. I would not depreciate the value of a friendship, and indeed that might be the only path to take here. But with an almost non-existent window to work with on Sunday, I think I'll be exploring this with a little more boldness.  

 

While God does provide, He doesn't [necessarily] need an enabler. Does God not provide in a number of ways? 

 

 

Yes, God uses all kinds of measures in providing for us. When it comes to mates, He provides in amazing ways. You can be bold, and make your intentions known, but in a mutual framework of friendship where your fruit will be evident, these intentions will most likely be most welcomed.

 

God bless!