lecrae- cry for you (rewrite)

[Ghostdog]

This thorn in my flesh
Is the only thing I got left
And it's so hard to confess
When everybody thinks your walk's perfect
But I cry for you
If you feel it, too
And I'll cry for you
If it's so hard to lose
The elephants in the room

Take it away, I beg You, take it all away
The pain I caused, it makes me wish I could fade away
If they knew what You knew, they'd probably shun me
I'm surprised You know it all and yet You love me
I know I break Your heart
Body of death, give me rest if my heart stops
Then it don't hurt no more, can't get worse no more
Can't pursue all these desires, it ain't cursed no more
No more lies about my worth no more
I understand the thoughts of suicide that do reside
But when I stop and think about that family, I feel shame inside
I promised I would die a thousand deaths 'fore I cause them any pain
But somehow I end up killing everything
I cry for you
If you feel a dark, twisted, heart-wrenching, hate-to-see-your-own-reflection
Praying for an intervention, feeling guilt and feeling shame
I just call on Jesus name
Praying daily, can You take away this pain?
Take the thorn away
Still, it remains, I
Feel the same, I
Know that I'm healed, but
Still feel insane
Satan would love to see my give up and throw up my hands
He say I'm guilty but You say I'm clean

This thorn in my flesh
Is the only thing I got left
And it's so hard to confess
When everybody thinks your walk's perfect
But I cry for you
If you feel it, too
And I'll cry for you
If it's so hard to lose
The elephants in the room

Sunday morning, or Sunday mourning
I wake up dead inside from all the hurt I caused behind me
Evil tryna take away my testimony
Starin' at my phone, feelin' like a phony
Oh, I cry for you, I would die for you
To escape the pain I feel from all that I put you through
I feel it in my soul and in my chest
Take away this ugly thorn inside my flesh
Give me death
But grace is sufficient to start my mission
I'm so far from perfect, can't believe they listen
But hear a broken man tell you healin' happens
And hear a liar tell you truth to bring you gladness
I could never boast in my accomplishments
I can only hope in God with confidence
Opposite of optimist, you and I are consonants
Broken all the vowels, deservin' of every consequence
Will you cry for me, or will you judge me?
Will you throw stones at my head, or will you love me?
I could never be everything that you wanna see
But crooked sticks draw straight lines, just look at me
(But crooked sticks draw straight lines, just look at me)

This thorn in my flesh
Is the only thing I got left
And it's so hard to confess
When everybody thinks your walk's perfect
But I cry for you
If you feel it, too
And I'll cry for you
If it's so hard to lose
The elephants in the room

Edited March 18, 2022 by Ghostdog

[TheBlade]

 

And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure.