Need to take meds but afraid...

[Figure of eighty]

3 minutes ago, Jayne said:

What if God is going to help you THROUGH the medicines?  I am grateful to God FOR all kinds of medicines.  You need to know that people who come on a Christian forum and tell others just to "trust God and not man" in terms of not taking medicines make me fighting mad.

No one has a right to tell you to defy your doctor unless THEY are a doctor and have examined you in person.

Right now, do what your doctor says.  Keep in touch - daily, if you need to.  Make yourself aware of potential side effects and listen to  your doctor and your own body and mind.

 

Right. I feel people who say that probably haven't dealt with mental illness much. 

Idk I'm just afraid. I'm already an anxious mess. I'm afraid wellbutrin may make me so anxious and such a mess I may do something stupid .. but I'm really struggling. I hope wellbutrin takes away these crappy thoughts.

[Marathoner]

42 minutes ago, Figure of eighty said:

Right. I feel people who say that probably haven't dealt with mental illness much. 

Many don't understand enough to be properly informed, no. They also might not believe that it pleases the Lord to accomplish His work through doctors and medicine. I happen to know that He does. 

43 minutes ago, Figure of eighty said:

Idk I'm just afraid. I'm already an anxious mess. I'm afraid wellbutrin may make me so anxious and such a mess I may do something stupid .. but I'm really struggling. I hope wellbutrin takes away these crappy thoughts.

That's a normal reaction to the unknown. Unless you experience adverse reactions to this antidepressant, you shouldn't suffer from a worsening of symptoms. I wish to encourage you but also advise you regarding what you can realistically expect. 

The twisted, warped narrative of depression (those crappy thoughts) won't suddenly go away. That takes time, my friend. 

[BeyondET]

On 7/10/2024 at 6:33 PM, Figure of eighty said:

I tried it. It didn't help me at all. I wished it work. Sometimes I feel scared like w hat if this is it for me. If therapy and wellbutrin don't work and I end up gone bc of my mental issues I hope God has a heart to let me in heaven bc I don't want to do this. I'm trying so hard. I feel so pathetic and weak and pathetic bc there's people that go through worse and don't have thoughts that I have but I know I have mental ailments

 

There's many holistic alternatives to synthetic dopamine inhibitors.

Nutrient deficiencies or allergies can cause imbalances also in dopamine or serotonin production.

Have you gotten a full nutrient profile of your levels?. I think it's important information to know what is actually going on in the body nutritional wise. Fixing deficiencies can have a major impact on well-being.

Therapy is something you should continue, it's quite more effective in the long-term and you don't have to inject synthetic drugs. Which should only be used in must need bases. There are some people that can't produce certain things in their body on their own. But should be absolutely verified first.

https://www.alternativetomeds.com/blog/wellbutrin-alternatives/

A groundbreaking 2017 study published in the Journal of Affective Disorders showed St. John’s Wort was as effective as SSRIs in the treatment of depression.

Other herbal supplements that clinical research has shown comparably effective as or better than prescription medications for depression and anxiety are many, including passionflower, black cohosh, lavender extract, ginseng, chamomile, saffron, kava kava, ginkgo Biloba, chaste berry, red clover, valerian, wormwood, and many others.

Edited July 12, 2024 by BeyondET

[Figure of eighty]

On 7/11/2024 at 9:35 PM, Marathoner said:

Many don't understand enough to be properly informed, no. They also might not believe that it pleases the Lord to accomplish His work through doctors and medicine. I happen to know that He does. 

That's a normal reaction to the unknown. Unless you experience adverse reactions to this antidepressant, you shouldn't suffer from a worsening of symptoms. I wish to encourage you but also advise you regarding what you can realistically expect. 

The twisted, warped narrative of depression (those crappy thoughts) won't suddenly go away. That takes time, my friend. 

I agree. My brother stays with me he's a minister and he said I should just trust the Lord which I feel I should but I think I also need meds to round me out.. but I truly feel people that don't experience this depth of anxiety or depression are the ones that may be anti-med. 

Edited August 24, 2024 by Figure of eighty

[Marathoner]

1 hour ago, Figure of eighty said:

I agree. My brother stays with me he's a minister and he said I should just trust the Lord which I feel I should but I think I also need meds to round me out.. but I truly feel people that don't experience this depth of anxiety or depression are the ones that may be anti-med. 

I'm here to say that we trust in the Lord by walking in what He has for us. He sent me to a hospital and to doctors... remember that the Lord created those doctors. Don't pay any heed to the religiosity of others. Forgive them, because they don't understand.

I have bipolar disorder, @Figure of eighty. We can do all things in Christ. Does it get better? Yes. Be patient... be brave... but most of all, endure. I'm what they call "type 2" but those distinctions don't mean much, do they?

It started during childhood for me. I remember when --- I was 8 years old --- and by the time I was 11, I had tried to end it. That was the first of many attempts over the years. Some put me in the hospital. 

So, you're not alone on this forum. I understand what you're going through.