Why did I have to go through this?

[InternalFlame]

Even if it doesn't seem like it, God is there, and still working. He works in mysterious ways, and it's hard to find His will in tough situations, but it is there.

For example, at one point in my life, at the same time my boyfriend was breaking up with me AND my best and only friend was moveing to a different state. I had no idea where God was, and why He would let this happen to me. I was alone, completely devestated because I was looseing two people I really cared about all at once.

Know how it turned out? Though my best friend had to leave, when my boyfriend broke up with me he was really supportive, and he really wanted to stay friends. We spent the night watching movies and gently letting go of our relationship. I realized it was for the best, and now we are great friends!

Also, when I went to church in the midst of all of it, I thought I would just leave, and suddenly we started to sing, and I started to cry because I knew at that moment that even though I was alone physically that God was ALWAYS with me, and that realization changed me a lot today...so if all those bad things had not happened I would not have a great freind now and I would not have come to that realization

So, don't lose hope, I'm sure there is a ray of light just around the corner!

[John3;16]

DaughterofKing

I was doing ok at a college and then I left because I got depression and things after that just got worse and worse. I realize I should never have left. Where was God in this? Why couldn't he have watched over me and taken better care of me and helped me through instead of watching me collapse and begin a downward spiral into misery?

Dear Daughterofking one thing that raise a question in my mind is, have you discovered what brought your depression on, have you had a medical evaluation, sometimes depression can be caused by low serotonin levels in the brain, and although most of us suffer some form of depression from time to time, if it lingers on for long period of time or is severe than you need to have some blood work done to determine the cause, it is not unusual for someone to go to college and feel depressed, if you think about it, you leave your family behind, your friends, your whole world is turned upside down, there is a lot of pressure placed on you, but is there any reason that you could not return to college next semester? But I would suggest that you have the tests done first, and I would also suggest that no matter what the blood tests reveal, you should seek out some form of counseling to help you discover what brought on the depression, usually it is brought on by stress of some kind, and there are millions who suffer from depression. I pray that you will be healed from this debilitating disease and it is in Jesus name that I ask this, amen.

Causes of Depression

The exact cause of depression isn't clear. No one is sure why some people get depressed and others don't. Sometimes depression seems to happen because of a stressful event. Sometimes it seems to happen for no reason at all.

Genes could play a role. People whose blood relatives have had depression are more likely to have it, too. However, not everyone who has a relative with depression is going to develop it.

Today, it's widely understood that depression is a serious medical condition. Scientists believe that it could be linked with an imbalance of a chemical in the brain called serotonin. If this imbalance happens, it can affect the way people feel.