How do you pray when you've lost the words?

[LossForWords]

So I've had some issues lately. And I keep thinking that things will get better...but it looks like it is going to do downhill for a little while longer. And a problem I have is that I continually internalize things until it just gets to be too much. I feel as if life keeps dumping a load of poop at my feet and I'm not shoveling fast enough and instead I end up rolling around in the filth until I feel like I'd rather just lay in it for awhile instead of clean it up.

Recently I lost my grandparents, who even though I only lived with them for 4 years, they still felt like parents to me, they felt like home. My grandma had parkinson's disease and lost the battle...and my papa, who had alzhemiers just couldn't deal with the loss and decided to join my grandma by taking his own life. I struggle with that decision on a daily basis. I know my grandma is in Heaven and I rejoice that she is now experiecing comfort and peace. On the other hand I feel like cursing God because he allowed my papa to make the decision he did. I try to pray through it, but it seems like everytime I do, I end up getting angry...so I've found myself trying to avoid the issue in my daily conversation with God. But he knows my heart and he knows my feelings and I wonder if he even listens to my other prayers because of the anger that I am harboring within.

And now, to add to all that I am already feeling...my youngest brother, who is 19, was just kicked out of school (college). He was attending a christian university and he was warned and fined once and then when he continued to behave in a certain manner he was asked not to continue his school career with them. Alcoholism runs in our family, and my brother succumbed. He began drinking when he was a young teenager, and I just thought it was teenage experimenting. But obviously I was wrong. On Saturday my brother flew out to Florida to begin treatment in a Christian rehab facility. He will be there for a little over a month...if it works that quickly. And its not the actual alcohol that concerns me, I know that help can be provided for that...what is really trying me, are the underlying reasons. The counselor that he went to before my parents shipped him off the rehab says he has anger and emotional issues and that he is covering up these issues by drinking himself into not knowing and remembering anymore. He isn't a social drinker. He wasn't going out iwth his buddies and getting a little buzzed on beer. He was drinking Vodka and other hard stuff alone, until he was throwing up, and passing out. The counselor has suggested that there could be a history of sexual abuse. I don't know how she came up with this...but it floored me! And now I'm harboring feelings of betrayal. Why didn't God intervene before all this happened? Why didn't God provide us with a clear understanding that my brother was going through something very serious? I know that God will never leave or forsake us...but that's the road my feelings are heading down.

So how do you pray when you're frustrated with God? I've lost the words...

[Guest lnj]

So how do you pray when you're frustrated with God? I've lost the words...

LossForWords,

The Holy Spirit will intercede for you when you know not what to say. Just be Still at the Lords Feet and let the Holy Spirit speak to God on your behalf.Remember God ALREADY KNOWS the requests and desires of your Heart but wants communication with us, but when you are at a loss..leave it up to God. Fantastic, isn't HE? Even when we don't know what or how to say something, God sends the Helper to...help us.!Just Great..

[RustyAngeL]

So how do you pray when you're frustrated with God? I've lost the words...

LossForWords,

The Holy Spirit will intercede for you when you know not what to say. Just be Still at the Lords Feet and let the Holy Spirit speak to God on your behalf.Remember God ALREADY KNOWS the requests and desires of your Heart but wants communication with us, but when you are at a loss..leave it up to God. Fantastic, isn't HE? Even when we don't know what or how to say something, God sends the Helper to...help us.!Just Great..

LossForWords, How well I know the feeling of not knowing what to say. When your heart is in pieces and the words just don't come sometimes I just cry. With what my husband I have been facing for the last three months and now he is facing chemo, there are no words with how I feel. Sometimes I just say "God you know my heart" and He does. The Bible says to cast all our care on Him because He cares for us. Just talk to Him just like you would a friend. Use words that you would use normally, believe me He is not shocked and He will not fall off His throne. Hold on. In Psalms 30:5 It says that weeping endures for a night but joy comes in the morning. I hope this helps.

[Guest lnj]

To LossForWords and RustyAngel

[Fiosh]

Take your post; print it out; and read it ----(changing only a few words that will direct it to God)----to Him.

ex. "I try to pray through it, but it seems like everytime I do, I end up getting angry...so I've found myself trying to avoid the issue in my daily conversation with You. But You know my heart and You know my feelings and I wonder if You even listen to my other prayers because of the anger that I am harboring within.

Rustyangel is right. God won't "fall off His throne".

He's not only your God. He is your loving Father. Pound your little fists on His chest if you feel the need to. Then when he pulls you close, rest in His protective embrace.

Peace,

Fiosh

[stafy]

So I've had some issues lately. And I keep thinking that things will get better...but it looks like it is going to do downhill for a little while longer. And a problem I have is that I continually internalize things until it just gets to be too much. I feel as if life keeps dumping a load of poop at my feet and I'm not shoveling fast enough and instead I end up rolling around in the filth until I feel like I'd rather just lay in it for awhile instead of clean it up.

Recently I lost my grandparents, who even though I only lived with them for 4 years, they still felt like parents to me, they felt like home. My grandma had parkinson's disease and lost the battle...and my papa, who had alzhemiers just couldn't deal with the loss and decided to join my grandma by taking his own life. I struggle with that decision on a daily basis. I know my grandma is in Heaven and I rejoice that she is now experiecing comfort and peace. On the other hand I feel like cursing God because he allowed my papa to make the decision he did. I try to pray through it, but it seems like everytime I do, I end up getting angry...so I've found myself trying to avoid the issue in my daily conversation with God. But he knows my heart and he knows my feelings and I wonder if he even listens to my other prayers because of the anger that I am harboring within.

And now, to add to all that I am already feeling...my youngest brother, who is 19, was just kicked out of school (college). He was attending a christian university and he was warned and fined once and then when he continued to behave in a certain manner he was asked not to continue his school career with them. Alcoholism runs in our family, and my brother succumbed. He began drinking when he was a young teenager, and I just thought it was teenage experimenting. But obviously I was wrong. On Saturday my brother flew out to Florida to begin treatment in a Christian rehab facility. He will be there for a little over a month...if it works that quickly. And its not the actual alcohol that concerns me, I know that help can be provided for that...what is really trying me, are the underlying reasons. The counselor that he went to before my parents shipped him off the rehab says he has anger and emotional issues and that he is covering up these issues by drinking himself into not knowing and remembering anymore. He isn't a social drinker. He wasn't going out iwth his buddies and getting a little buzzed on beer. He was drinking Vodka and other hard stuff alone, until he was throwing up, and passing out. The counselor has suggested that there could be a history of sexual abuse. I don't know how she came up with this...but it floored me! And now I'm harboring feelings of betrayal. Why didn't God intervene before all this happened? Why didn't God provide us with a clear understanding that my brother was going through something very serious? I know that God will never leave or forsake us...but that's the road my feelings are heading down.

So how do you pray when you're frustrated with God? I've lost the words...

the comments from the counselor, open a door for serious skeptisim as to there authenticity. I think caution would be wiser than reaction. Also alcoholism as a family trait pionts to a spiritual problem if this is not addressed he will ultiamtly return to the demon that haunts him. The fact that the counseler did not mention this also raises my concerns that either this was a christian counseler who is not where his or her salt, or a non christian counseler which would go along way to explaining the demonic attack ( being the refferance to sexual abuse / after all a good christian counsler would not under any circumstances make what is only a suggestion, and it is a breach of client cofidentialty to release such details even if it was true. ) hence I suggest some back ground work too find out what the counselers background is. And don't takewhat you have been told quite so seriuosly. Which is not to undermind the seriousness of the alcohol problem

[TheoMike]

Somebody already wrote this, but let me give you the verse anyway, Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. (Romans 8:26)

[Floatingaxe]

All of the above! Taking your deepest hurts to Jesus, and laying them at His feet is what you do. Take them to the Cross. Revisit there. God is not the author of your hurts and losses. Take another look...it is because of sin. God is not the author of sin. God won't intervene where He is clearly not invited.

But we invite God to intervene now! We ask God in Jesus name to come and minister to you in your pain, and bind your wounds and raise you to your feet, as Jesus did with the infirm of His day.

We praise You, Jesus, our healer! We adore you, Son of God, and we thank You for your deep love that drove You to unimaginable suffering for each one of us! You are not unacquainted with our griefs, Jesus!

Blessings to you, LossForWords! Find comfort in the One who knows how to comfort like no other can.

[Guest lovinghim4ever]

Wow! I know exactly what you are going through. Feeling betrayed by God is the worst . . .

This is a little long, however it is an abbreviated version of a very long story . . .

A few years ago my oldest sister suddenly became very ill after a routine medical procedure.

She was rushed to ICU not expected to survive.

The doctors kept her in a drug induced coma to keep her calm.

We called a few people to pray for her.

Those few people called a few more people and so on and so on.

Within minutes an enormous prayer chain was started; some of these people we didn't even know.

Within two days we began receiving encouraging reports. Hallelujah! My faith was strengthened.

After about 10 days of intense treatment and prayer the doctors slowly began to bring her out of the coma.

When she finally woke up she thought is was the same day as when she went in for her procedure.

She was alert and wanted to go home, however she stayed in ICU a few more days before being released to a private room.

Glory to God! We were all rejoicing! She miraculously survived!

When she got settled in her private room I spoke to her every day.

She was confused about the days she had lost but was alert and coherent and on her way to a full recovery.

Then, the day before she was going to be released to go home - the worst news.

It was a Sunday morning, and I was getting dressed for church.

My phone rang. It was one of my younger sisters calling to tell me that our older sister had passed away in her sleep early that morning.

I was frozen in unbelief!

What good did all the faith and prayers do if God was only going to let her die anyway?

My faith was crushed. I was so angry at God that I didn't want to have anything to do with Him.

How could a God that loves us so much be so cruel as to give us so much hope and then just rip the rug right out from under us?

Was this some sort of cruel joke? How could I ever trust God again?

He let me down. He could have protected my sister from whatever actually caused her death, but He chose not to. Why?!

My loved ones would try talking to me about God, and I would walk away.

I didn

[sotphmfm]

Loving him 4 ever I have tears rolling down my face but I feel that your story was appropriate.

I have heard, I don't remember where, that your tears in prayer come from the heart and they speak for you when you can't find the words.

Loss For Words things will get better maybe not today, tomarrow, or even next week, month, or year but they will get better just keep praying and have faith that God will see you through and will open the eyes of your brothers heart and see the error of his ways. Try to be strong so that with God's help you can strengthen your brother through Him.

Lots of Love and Prayers