Well done jade.
I might add to us Christians this is more then a religion. The is a relationship with God through Jesus Christ. It's personal. This walk with God is what lets us think clearly and gives us hope in these times when so many people have no hope.
I find it typical that those of you.... who do not follow our faith are so ready to point fingers and question us.
Personally for me I cannot see myself living any other way. My faith is what got me through no only the loss of my parents but the death of my husband. There were times after Steve died that where pretty dark, and I admit that I often asked why. My breakthrough came when I stopped asking why and starting praising God for what I did have. I do that everyday. I thank God for keeping His Hand on me one more night, for keeping me healthy at 65, for my dogs, friends but most of all for God Love towrd me and for sending His only Son to take my place on the Cross. For my salvation, and my place with Him in Heaven.
Please understand you were created to be eternal and will spend eternity somewhere. If you accept His Love and His Gift of salvation and walk with Him you will be with Him forever in Heaven. However if you choose to toss it aside and do it your way, refuse His Gift of salvation your eternity will be spent in hell and yes there is such a place but God does not want to see you there and that is why He gave His Son for us.
I don't know what your choice will be but now you know the truth.. I hope you make the right choice.