Of all the worlds religions Christianity is one of the younger ones. I don't think God condemns people for asking questions while Christian. There are many curiosities as to what we're asked to believe. And there are many mistakes in thinking the Bible is not a tome of idioms, allegories, parables, metaphor, in order to lead us to see deeper into the way and the ways of God.
Like asking, why due to rampant sin did God decide to drown the world? Including babies and pregnant women? Why didn't God just kill Satan first?
It's a mystery.
But it is also a question that you're worthy of asking in my view.
Welcome. I hope you last here.