Unsaveable?

[OneLight]

Have you gone to your bother and sister and ask forgiveness from them yet? This is your first step. Your guilt lies in what you did to them. They have to forgive you first, or at least, you have to ask them for their forgiveness. I would also seek a church where you can feel free to talk with the pastor for counseling. You sound as if you are an adult, and what you did, you did as a teenager, a child. You need to deal with this and not keep going in circles. Seek help. Do not try to continue doing this alone.

If you feel really depressed and need to talk to someone about feeling suicidal, please, go here ... http://www.suicide.org/suicide-hotlines.html We at Worthy are not counselors that can help you where you need help. Our prayers are with you, my friend.

[MightyIsTheLord]

Have you gone to your bother and sister and ask forgiveness from them yet? This is your first step. Your guilt lies in what you did to them. They have to forgive you first, or at least, you have to ask them for their forgiveness. I would also seek a church where you can feel free to talk with the pastor for counseling. You sound as if you are an adult, and what you did, you did as a teenager, a child. You need to deal with this and not keep going in circles. Seek help. Do not try to continue doing this alone.

If you feel really depressed and need to talk to someone about feeling suicidal, please, go here ... http://www.suicide.org/suicide-hotlines.html We at Worthy are not counselors that can help you where you need help. Our prayers are with you, my friend.

I'm 19 years old. I often think about killing myself, i think of alot of different ways i could do it. But i'll never do it. I just wont. My brother is 12 and my sister is about 8 years old, i dont think there old enough to understand yet, i had planned on telling them what i did when they were 18 or older.

[Blien]

It was so easy right now for me to just walk away from all of this and let what the other members wrote satisfy your questions.. but I feel compelled to write even though there is this sense to just be passive in my spirit.

Now, I'm no expert but let me start first by saying, I don't have the answer for you. I didn't read what the members wrote and don't know the answer to what you are saying. But from one person to another with similar experiences and being a sinner myself. I have only a couple of suggestions.

It is written,

Luke 9:62

But Jesus said to him, "No one, after putting his hand to the plow and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God."

I think this verse is so crucial for you and I because when we doubt... It's important to just forget whatever happened in the past and just keep picking up ourselves and plowing the ground in our hearts to develop our NEW identity in Christ. As you know, in the Bible it states over and over again, how faith is important in our belief with Christ and God Almighty. So, just keep working at being a better person, don't look back, there's no point in doing so and no point in bringing this up with your parents because as you said it will only bring hurt and pain to the family. You will sincerely regret it, believe me. The Apostle Paul wrote in his epistles, "I wronged no man", yet he was the one running all up and down the country persecuting and killing Christians with much zealousness. Remember? He was the infamous terrorist named Saul. Yet, he said "I wronged no man" because he is a new creation in Christ.

I believe you are a new creation as well. If you ask me why, it's because you simply came here because this issue has been bothering you. God disciplines those he loves, that too is written in the Bible and I'm sure you know it. So I believe, this prompting in the spirit that you should repent is coming from the Holy Spirit don't you think? And don't you think also that if you were still the same person, you wouldn't care about being right with God like so many non-believers this world today? Bro, I think you need to know something else too. Jesus never rebuked anyone who had doubts about Him or God. He listened to all of them and gave them their answers. The ones who infuriated him were the unbelievers, i.e. the Pharisees and Sadducees.

In parting, I just want to leave this verse with you, please consider it. I believe GOD has forgiven both you and I, this verse confirms it so.

Romans 8:32

He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him over for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things

[OneLight]

Have you gone to your bother and sister and ask forgiveness from them yet? This is your first step. Your guilt lies in what you did to them. They have to forgive you first, or at least, you have to ask them for their forgiveness. I would also seek a church where you can feel free to talk with the pastor for counseling. You sound as if you are an adult, and what you did, you did as a teenager, a child. You need to deal with this and not keep going in circles. Seek help. Do not try to continue doing this alone.

If you feel really depressed and need to talk to someone about feeling suicidal, please, go here ... http://www.suicide.org/suicide-hotlines.html We at Worthy are not counselors that can help you where you need help. Our prayers are with you, my friend.

I'm 19 years old. I often think about killing myself, i think of alot of different ways i could do it. But i'll never do it. I just wont. My brother is 12 and my sister is about 8 years old, i dont think there old enough to understand yet, i had planned on telling them what i did when they were 18 or older.

Than you should find help as soon as possible. Get a hold of a pastor and talk with him. He will be able to help you find any outside help you need. Don't wait ..

God Bless,

Alan

[georgedrw81]

Pray in the morning and before you sleep.Get a job even at minimum wage.Do also what One Light suggested.In very brief time you will notice the differene.

Blessings

[MightyIsTheLord]

Thanks alot everyone

I know that God has forgiven me now, and thats all i need.

Thanks Lord :D

Thanks everyone

[OnetrueGod]

This is the most honest post i've ever made here at worthy. This comes straight from the heart, im putting all the cards on the table if you will.

This isn't the first time i've made a post like this here and the wonderful community here is probably tired of me moaning and whining so i'll make this my last post like this.

You don't have to make this your last post like this. We are here for you. Talking about things like this is a sign that you truly are trying to come to grips with your past and more importantly...move on! If you want to post again...we'll be there to read and listen. And again? Yes, we'll be there again. We all relate. We all have things ...hurtful things...from our past we live with each and every day. We're here for you.

Realize that when God forgives...he forgives...he erases the sin. separates it from you.

Psalm 103:12 (New King James Version)

12 As far as the east is from the west,

So far has He removed our transgressions from us.

The question is really not "Can God forgive you?"...He can, He will, He sent His Son to provide forgiveness...He did! The question is "Can you forgive yourself?" The answer is yes, to that as well...but it requires some difficult work and self-discipline on your part. First (and I mean now!), get rid of the weed, throw it away and don't keep it in the house...That will only make things worse. Be patient...it won't go away magically over night...but do everything possible to help it go away...and it will.

Bury it...move on, seek Christian professional help in counseling, and let your life be a shining example of God working in you. Someday, you will know just how to help others who are dealing with pain...you will be such a Godsend in the life of others...you can do it!