By Jonathan BeWell
Please forgive me. I have been addressing you all wrong. I cannot claim a righteous anger defence [11 Brothers and sisters, do not slander one another. Anyone who speaks against a brother or sister or judges them speaks against the law and judges it. When you judge the law, you are not keeping it, but sitting in judgment on it. 12 There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you-who are you to judge your neighbor? - James 4:11-12 New International Version (NIV)]. God wants better. I cannot scare you into heaven anymore than I can drag out of hell. God is in control. He makes and lets everything happen. All has and will happen for Christians' good [28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose. - Romans 8:28 (NIV)]. My questionable Facebook activity has led to this apology and following testimony. May it encourage you and give you hope. Praise God.
Jesus Christ saved me from homosexual tendencies [10 for the sexually immoral, for those practicing homosexuality, for slave traders and liars and perjurers-and for whatever else is contrary to the sound doctrine - 1 Timothy 1:10 (NIV)]. In my dark past I flirted with ideas, the scene and foreplay of man on man sexual relations. In the moment of those times it was a distraction and escape from my living hell. Such activity always had bad consequences [35 "Therefore this is what the Sovereign Lord says: Since you have forgotten me and turned your back on me, you must bear the consequences of your lewdness and prostitution." - Ezekiel 23:35 (NIV)]. Yet like a nicotine addiction I was drawn back to get lost in that fleeting moment of oblivion. It and I was miserable. I will not give details here and now publicly. In person I am happy to answer questions and share Christ's solution with you. Praise God.
I love you. I care for your well being. My half life of suffering has grown great compassion and empathy. I weep and mourn for the lost, rejected, down trodden and oppressed, spit upon and left for dead. I know and understand because I was there as one of them. Now I am found, nurtured, lifted up and suffering gladly only because of Jesus Christ [17 But I will restore you to health and heal your wounds,' declares the Lord, 'because you are called an outcast, Zion for whom no one cares.' - Jeremiah 30:17 (NIV)]. Praise God.
He saved me from my living hell involving depression, drugs, marijuana, alcoholism, willful sin, pornography, homosexual tendencies, the occult, blasphemy, loneliness, numbness and people who accepted this and let it persist [3 For you have spent enough time in the past doing what pagans choose to do-living in debauchery, lust, drunkenness, orgies, carousing and detestable idolatry. - 1 Peter 4:3 (NIV)]. Now I am healed, restored, alive and well because I believe and am born again. I bear much fruit and look forward to a bright future in Christ. I will never return to the enemy. It pains me to look back or even be reminded of such serious suffering. I am sorry for your suffering. I am sorry I made you suffer. I continue to repent. Life is good to wake up to eternally because of the Son of God, my personal Saviour, our Lord [12 Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we must be saved." - Acts 4:12 (NIV)]. Thank God.
So many people, after being brought to faith in Christ start questioning: And now?!
And I question you: And now?
And I will answer you: You have two choices.
To continue living as the world does: To love sin, unrighteousness, and disobedience.
Or to live as a repentant sinner: Pursuing love, peace, mercy, and His righteousness.
"Little children, let no one deceive you. He who practices righteousness is righteous, just as He is righteous." - 1 John 3:7
The repentant sinner have desire and pleasure to live as the Lord Jesus tells him so.
And it is so good to live like the Lord Jesus tells us to... It brings us peace and many blessings.
"He who says he abides in Him ought himself also to walk just as He walked." - 1 John 2:6
"If anyone does not abide in Me, he is cast out as a branch and is withered;
and they gather them and throw them into the fire, and they are burned." - John 15:6
But you may say: I cannot live or have difficult in living as the Lord Jesus tells me; but I am willing to.
It is common at the very start of our walk, sin, the flesh and evil spirits will start battling against you to prevent you doing so.
Because the flesh fights against all the things of the Spirit of God. And it cannot receive them.
"For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh;
and these are contrary to one another, so that you do not do the things that you wish." - Galatians 5:17
But what will I do?
Will I just give up and let the flesh reign over me just like it did when I was in the world?
"Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body, that you should obey it in its lusts." - Romans 6:12
This is how those who do not trust in the power and love of the Lord Jesus would think.
But you are not one of them, you have courage, you have His Spirit in you... And that is why you will overcome all things.
"But Jesus looked at them and said to them,
“With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”" - Matthew 19:26
The Father loved you so much, to the point of giving His only begotten Son for you... And how will you thank Him?!
You would desire to live as He wants you to - and that for your own benefit, as you have crucified your flesh with its evil desires.
"For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God's." - 1 Corinthians 6:20
And I am sure that if the Spirit of God is in you, you will start being encouraged and to have pleasure in living as He told us to. And you will not look back.
As it is written:
"And you shall be holy to Me, for I the Lord am holy,
and have separated you from the peoples, that you should be Mine." - Leviticus 20:26
Then, if you still have trouble with battling against the flesh and its evil desires: Do not give up, and fight against it.
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid,
nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." - Joshua 1:9
You may lose a few battles against it, but I am sure that you will overcome it and become a winner...
"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." - 1 John 1:9
You may lose a few battles, but with the Lord and His Spirit in you, it is certain that this war you will win!
"For of Him and through Him and to Him are all things, to whom be glory forever. Amen." - Romans 11:36
If you are still struggling with something and desire some powerful help from the Lord Himself...
Then, please agree to the prayer below and you will see and feel that He loves you.
In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ:
If you agree to the prayer above, then please just bring your hand over your head and say:
“ I believe, agree and receive...in Jesus' name. Amen! ”
And His amazing power, love, and grace is released in you.
You will notice and you will say: The Lord loves me indeed, and I love Him also!
Read the Word, read the Holy Bible, specially the New Testament...
"But also for this very reason, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue, to virtue knowledge,
to knowledge self-control, to self-control perseverance, to perseverance godliness,
to godliness brotherly kindness, and to brotherly kindness love." - 2 Peter 1:5-7
As there is so much truth to help you and to light your paths.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths." - Proverbs 3:5-6
God bless you in Jesus' name!
So, today I check on the other forum I participate in. It is not a Christian forum but I speak openly of my faith on there.
One lady messaged me saying she used to be a sincere Christian and fell away.
"Will God forgive me?" she asked. She said she wanted to become a Christian again.
You can imagine how happy I was! I responded with Luke 15:10
Luke 15:10 New International Version (NIV)
10 In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”
I told her to call out to Christ. That He would forgive her. That I was rejoicing as well.
I am blown away! This rarely ever happens! My prayers about being a light and helping others find Christ are being answered!!
By Jonathan BeWell
To whom it may concern,
I have made progress but I still commit willful sin, like gluttony. I take guilty pleasure and comfort in overeating delicious food. I do not seem to have an 'honest' desire to stop this. What would you suggest for this disobedience? I can confess, apologize for and rebuke it just fine. True repentance is absent. I am abusing the Lord's temple and my relationship with God. Does this suggest lacking fear of or shallow love for God? What healthy coping mechanisms could take this problem's place? My gluttony is only a quick temporary fix for whatever bothers or troubles me. It only acts as a false idol, distracting me from God. I am looking for solutions in something He created instead of from the almighty Creator Himself. I could use suggestions on how and what to pray about this, please. I believe there is hope and a real godly solution to be achieved eventually. Thanks for hearing me out.
God bless you in Jesus Christ's name,
20 They shall say to the elders, “This son of ours is stubborn and rebellious. He will not obey us. He is a glutton and a drunkard.”
- Deuteronomy 21:20 New International Version (NIV)
7 A discerning son heeds instruction,
but a companion of gluttons disgraces his father.
Proverbs 28:7 New International Version (NIV)
21 for drunkards and gluttons become poor,
and drowsiness clothes them in rags.
- Proverbs 23:21 New International Version (NIV)
Having experienced the torments of Hell, I can verify the legitimacy of this testimony, but more importantly, discernment tells me it's real and genuine. I encourage those who watch this not to go down a rabbit hole of Hell testimonies all at once, it can be overwhelming and very depressing, please be led by the Spirit by discerning the voice of God on all pursuits, but Jesus has taken people to experience these experiences for a reason. May you learn from these testimonies and be convicted (if necessary) and not condemned by responding to that conviction accordingly, (remember God chastises those He loves!) and may the Lord bless you mightily in Jesus' mighty name!
Revelation 20:15: And if anyone's name was not found written in the book of life, he was thrown into the lake of fire.
Luke 12:5: But I will warn you whom to fear: fear him who, after he has killed, has authority to cast into hell. Yes, I tell you, fear him!
Romans 6:23: For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Revelation 21:8: But as for the cowardly, the faithless, the detestable, as for murderers, the sexually immoral, sorcerers, idolaters, and all liars, their portion will be in the lake that burns with fire and sulfur, which is the second death.”