I'm really scared right now, I don't know what to think

[Lilybloom]

3 hours ago, other one said:

I would ask what you mean by converted

Heathenry was my longest faith; in an extension, eclectic witchcraft might be longer, as it was through personal practice that I found myself drawn to Hel. But still, my past is fairly messy as far as faith goes; just wasn't ever really a Christian. I've always kind of trusted my instincts; if I felt something, I reasoned it had to be fate or whatever else trying to message me. It came to be that the desire to read the Bible came up sometime before that day. I wasn't sure why, but I assumed it was yet another "thread of fate" I was due to follow. I spent time reading the Bible for about a month. It was then that I got the urge to find a place to try and offer a prayer to Jesus. I went on a walk and found a quiet place by the local creek. It was there that I prayed, asking that if this is my path, that I be allowed to know. With some time, a sense of ease and comfort came over me. I don't really know how to explain it; it's like I just felt lighter and I could actually see around me, my head felt clearer. 

I took up worshipping Jesus then, but not Christianity; I figured he might be another patron, one god among the others. But my worship of Hel didn't bring the same feelings that it used to. I'd tend to my altar and my offerings, but it just... Didn't really feel like she was there anymore. And having read so many passages talking about idolatry and paganism, I decided that perhaps it just wasn't for me anymore. I threw away my altar, my focuses, all that. And i've just been sticking to Jesus since, trying to pick up what's been handed to me.

The figure was of Santa Muerte, but i'd just become so shocked when I thought it might have been a depiction of Hel. It... Wasn't really reasonable.

[other one]

25 minutes ago, Lilybloom said:

I took up worshipping Jesus then, but not Christianity;

That's probably a good start.  Might I suggest to make sure you have read and continue reading the Bible.  Especially Romans.

I had gotten myself so intertwined with the demonic world through researching them and how they operate.  I was since birth a so-called believer, but I had never really turned myself over to him as Romans suggest we need to do.   I got confronted by two demons one night while in the shower when I realized what was going on, and I had no chance of withstanding them by myself.   The Holy Spirit stepped in and removed them from our presence.  It was at that time that I did what Romans 10 says we should do by confessing with my mouth that Jesus is my Lord.  That night, in the shower, I placed my entire existence in his hands.

I don't know if you have done that or not, but if not, I would suggest you give it some study.   My entire existence, both spiritual and physical, changed that night.  It did not stop the demonic attacks, but it put me into the situation of enjoying the Lord taking care of it.  I don't have to worry about them any longer, I just remind them of their future and mine, and after some time they stopped bothering me.   When the things come, whether they are actual entities or just the thoughts in the mind, turn it over to Him and watch things happen.

[missmuffet]

On 9/4/2024 at 2:22 PM, Lilybloom said:

For those that don't know, until 6 months ago when I converted, I was a practicing Heathen. That's a Pagan who worships the Nordic pantheon. I had once pledged myself in service to the Goddess Hel.

I was doing my job today, where I unpack and sort products for a decoration store. I get a lot of the glassware and holiday items in my line. I opened a box and when I removed the rather tall figure from it and removed the plastic wrap, I was shocked to see a woman with half of her face being a skull. Hel is often described as having one half of her being undead.

I know that realistically, it was more meant to be Santa Muerte; a decoration aimed at the Day of the Dead vs Halloween. We get a lot of those types of decor, mostly skulls. But it really caught me off guard and seemed like a message of some sort. For a good part of the day, I just had "Hel" set nearby and it made me feel uneasy. It feels like a sign but i'm not sure how to interpret it. Is it Hel coming back to show herself to me? Or is it God trying to test me somehow? I don't know. I don't know how to interpret it and i've been pacing nervously ever since I got home.

Satan doesn't like it when you turn on him and come to Jesus Christ. Don't be surprised if he will harass you. Just stay very close to God and pray often. Don't worry about your doubts of this figure. That is only on the past.

[Knotical]

There are plenty of passages throughout Psalms to use as prayers for calm when being attacked by evil powers.  Also, I would copy Ephesians 6:10-16 (Armor of God) and keep it as a reminder.