I'm tired

[Jacqueline]

As I sit here writing this I find myself in the most confusing state. I know we are not suppose to go by our feelings, but at the moment I can't help it. I feel tired. TIRED.....TIRED..... TIRED! I've been feeling this way for a while now. The question that this feeling has trigger is quite normally what am I tired of? What am I tried of? I've searched within myself seeking the answer to this question and I'm amazed at the answer that fills my mind. I'm tired of myself. How can that be possible? How can I be tired of me? I sent my whole day thinking of God. Speaking to Him regarding every aspect of my life. My whole life seemed consumed by Him. The things in my life seemed to take on a life of it's own. An outsider looking in would not understand my stillness and calm. And yet with all the things going on the thing that most fill my heart with sadness is me. Why? Why do I see Him and love Him. Speak to Him, have faith in Him and yet find myself in this state? I need to keep praying about this. I think theres to much of me in me.

God bless you

Jacqueline

[ladypeartree]

Maybe God is ready to help you to move on to a closer relationship with Him and therefore needs you to know that you need to fill yourself with Him to find happiness I will join you in prayer that you may find Gods will in this

[Serpentine]

As I sit here writing this I find myself in the most confusing state. I know we are not suppose to go by our feelings, but at the moment I can't help it. I feel tired. TIRED.....TIRED..... TIRED! I've been feeling this way for a while now. The question that this feeling has trigger is quite normally what am I tired of? What am I tried of? I've searched within myself seeking the answer to this question and I'm amazed at the answer that fills my mind. I'm tired of myself. How can that be possible? How can I be tired of me? I sent my whole day thinking of God. Speaking to Him regarding every aspect of my life. My whole life seemed consumed by Him. The things in my life seemed to take on a life of it's own. An outsider looking in would not understand my stillness and calm. And yet with all the things going on the thing that most fill my heart with sadness is me. Why? Why do I see Him and love Him. Speak to Him, have faith in Him and yet find myself in this state? I need to keep praying about this. I think theres to much of me in me.

God bless you

Jacqueline

Well, Jacqueline:

I would have to say that you're conflicted because you are struggling with your own beliefs. I would say that your mind is telling you that there is no God, that He really does not guide your life and that you are merely talking to the wall when you pray. You are battling against your emotional desire to believe in God. It's a difficult situation to be in!

Once you face the truth, one of two things will happen: You will slip into complacency or you will become a non-believer. Sooner or late you will make a choice.

Serpentine

[Floatingaxe]

Hey!

I know in my own life, when I hit a bad patch, I weather it wonderfully...until after it has passed! There appears to be a delay mechanism in me, in that after the trouble passes, that is when I become fatigued. I believe that in those times of trouble, God is right there, helping me cope, keeping my head above water, as I trust Him. Then, like Elijah, after doing well, weathering the storm, a bit of depression or fatigue sets in. Perhaps this is a normal phase for you. It doesn't last long. It is a time to rest and recuperate: physically, emotionally, mentally AND spiritually. You have been through the wringer of late! Allow this time.

Keep talking to your Father God. He is right there listening!

Blessings!

[Jacqueline]

Serpentine, I know that is not it. I know that God is very much real. I am a believer and would give my life defending Him. I think theres just to much of this world in me. I think I just need to stop comparing myself to Him. When you place a sinless life next to a life stained with sin your over come with how unworthy you really are.

[Floatingaxe]

your over come with how unworthy you really are.

That's depression talking. God looks at us through His Son...and guess what? He sees us as righteous, holy people, and worthy of His grace and mercy and of the kingdom! Don't listen to Satan's whispering lies in your ear.

[Serpentine]

Serpentine, I know that is not it. I know that God is very much real. I am a believer and would give my life defending Him. I think theres just to much of this world in me. I think I just need to stop comparing myself to Him. When you place a sinless life next to a life stained with sin your over come with how unworthy you really are.

Jacqueline:

I wonder...how long have you been a Christian?

Serpentine

[Jacqueline]

Thank you all for your relies. Eutero you echo my feelings. Thank you.

[shepherdsgrace]

There really is a place in the Christian life for being tired of "me". The Puritans understood this and wrote about it frequently. Many of us who love the LORD feel it ever so often throughout our walk with Him. The idea behind it all is that the more tired of "me" I become then the more I realize that I need Jesus. The more I see what "me" is and how worldly and deceptive "me" can be then the more grateful I am to belong to Christ. The blood of Jesus becomes more valuable. Christ taught that he who sinned much loves much. He did not mean that we have to get out there and do great sin to love him wholeheartedly. He was telling us that as we realize the depth of the sinful nature in each of us we turn more and more wholly to Him. When I see "me" lower, I see him better and clearer. This is not depression. This is seeing better than I saw before "me" was clarified a bit.

[Jacqueline]

I wouldn't have viewed it that way. Thank you shepherdsgrace.

Jacqueline