Looking for a reason

[Afal]

I wonder if you think the feeling comes first and then the thoughts or the other way around? I think it is both. Try to Keep your mind on that personal scripture.

Thank you Patricia

That is a really interesting question. My problem I think is that if I have a bad trigger it sends me into a downward spiral. It is a bit like being on a helter-skelter. Once you start sliding down, there is no stopping yourself and you just go down quicker and quicker! Your reminder about the scripture was a positive way to stop the slide downwards. Thank you I know that it might sound ridiculous, but I had forgotten about the scripture. Sometimes I feel like I am the most pathetic Christian around because at times of crisis, I so often forget to keep my eyes on God.

I am also worried about this afternoon's appointment. I hate having to talk about the PTSD for 45 minutes and then at the end of the session, go home as though everything is OK when you have just been reminded of the traumas that have made you ill in the first place. These appointments are always a downer for me. I spend most of my life at the moment trying to forget what happened to me and then for 45 minutes, I have to remember what happened!!!!

Thank you for your prayers!

[Afal]

Have spent the afternoon in tears! It has been such an awful day! Tomorrow has got to be better!

[onetiggerroo]

Soon, you will be shedding tears of joy!

I hope so.

The past few days have been challenging at times. I seem to be on a roller-coaster with my emotions. That is hard to deal with. I am feeling very vulnerable at the moment. I am even cross with myself for feeling this way. Now how stupid is that?

I have to agree with Wayne...we all have days like this. I know I do. Some days, I just throw up my hands, and have to give it over to the LORD...I am glad HE has a sense of humor, and can take whatever we throw HIS WAY...

It will get better.

[Guest Biblicist]

Have spent the afternoon in tears! It has been such an awful day! Tomorrow has got to be better!

Afal,

I know the pain you are feeling and I know how hard things are. There is a book I've just begun reading and I think it would help you too. It's called Captivating by John and Staci Eldredge. I'm telling you right now that this book will change your life. I strongly suggest you get it from the Library, purchase it or find someone who can lend it to you and read it. Read it as soon as you can. It's awesome!

Much Love

Bibs

[Scarletprayers]

Have spent the afternoon in tears! It has been such an awful day! Tomorrow has got to be better!

just remember, you've been having GOOD days also!

[Afal]

Thank you for the kind posts. Unfortunately Bibs, Amazon UK doesn't stock the book that you suggested, so I might have trouble getting hold of it. Thank you for the suggestion in anycase.

Can't believe how ill I feel today. I think that today is going to be one of the 'stay in bed' days!

[sweetycakes]

Thank you for the kind posts. Unfortunately Bibs, Amazon UK doesn't stock the book that you suggested, so I might have trouble getting hold of it. Thank you for the suggestion in anycase.

Can't believe how ill I feel today. I think that today is going to be one of the 'stay in bed' days!

If that is the case, remember that there are many people supporting you, and who are there with you in spirit

[ladypeartree]

hey sis you have a wedding to plan ...or I may just have to come and plan it for you

hugs and prayers coming at you via the internet

[Afal]

Thank you Sweety Cakes and LPT for your kind posts.

I had a really rough night and ended up having to take very powerful medication. The problem with this is that the next day, I always feel like a zombie as the medication is still in my body. The good news is that I feel less of a zombie than I did earlier this morning. Give me a few more hours and hopefully, I will be able to feel 'normal' again!!!!!

Thanks for the hugs and prayers!

[Northern lass]

More hugs and prayers coming from Shropshire!! You are doing so well! Be encouraged!