So...

[David of Derby]

Just thought I'd mention that. Never noticed this section before. Is it new?

[RebekahDavid]

blessings David .

if you are considering suicide please contact one of the suicide prevention numbers that are listed in most phone books. if you are not sure where one is let me know and i will find you one that you can call. depression is an aweful disease but there is help both with the Lord and through people. please reach out for it.

love your sister in Christ,

Rebekah David

(yes this is a fairly new forum)

[David of Derby]

I wouldn't even know what to say to those people.

[Leonard]

Tell them just what you told us: "I am considering blowing my head off......."

They will take it from there.

May the Lord grant you peace and strength in your inner man. +

[stormy612]

Why?

I'm being pushy because I noticed that you been here for a year and you've posted 746 times. What is it your lacking? What is the hole that isn't being filled?

I can understand if you want to remain private, but can you give us a general idea of what's hurting you?

I'd love to listen, if your willing.

[David of Derby]

I don't know what to tell you. I could write pages and pages of moans and groans but none of it would really make clear why I feel like this.

[stormy612]

That's okay. When I was a teen I tried suicide twice. Trying to pin down exactly why I wanted to die was impossible. It was a lifetime full of pains, plus confusion, but anger and rage, plus injustices, plus enemies, plus and plus and plus. I think I was just exhausted from trying to figure it all out and believing I never would because I was too dumb. Even now, when I try to post something that I'm struggling with, I end up confused about what the real problem is. For me, talking about everything, no matter how irrelevant it seems to the issue, is like digging through the muck to get at the truth buried inside me. I've had a world that has taught me so much stuff-all worldly wisdom-and its so ingrained in my flesh that I don't even trust my own conclusions anymore. God's helping me sift the world out of my thinking now and its taking its toll (it can be hard to let go of cherished worldly beliefs). I'm hopeful about the treasure being unburied though.

So, give me pages and pages. Give me moans and groans. Let's start digging out the truth God put in you.

[Guest Biblicist]

My brother in law has a very good friend who tried to blow his head off, because his wife left him. He was unsuccessful and ended up in recovery for many years, he's still not right.

He was a really great guy too. Quite a sense of humor.

[alycia]

That's okay. When I was a teen I tried suicide twice. Trying to pin down exactly why I wanted to die was impossible. It was a lifetime full of pains, plus confusion, but anger and rage, plus injustices, plus enemies, plus and plus and plus. I think I was just exhausted from trying to figure it all out and believing I never would because I was too dumb. Even now, when I try to post something that I'm struggling with, I end up confused about what the real problem is. For me, talking about everything, no matter how irrelevant it seems to the issue, is like digging through the muck to get at the truth buried inside me. I've had a world that has taught me so much stuff-all worldly wisdom-and its so ingrained in my flesh that I don't even trust my own conclusions anymore. God's helping me sift the world out of my thinking now and its taking its toll (it can be hard to let go of cherished worldly beliefs). I'm hopeful about the treasure being unburied though.

So, give me pages and pages. Give me moans and groans. Let's start digging out the truth God put in you.

Yes...David, I'm new here, but I, and I'm sure many many others here are willing to listen and help you discover the truth, as Stormy said.

[David of Derby]

I'll write something later. Probably full of emo nonsense and whining... for now I have to go to work.