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  1. Thank you for this advice. Yesterday was exceedingly difficult for me. After prayer and a good night's sleep I feel much better.
  2. Thank you, Cletus. This is good advice. Thank you, Heybro. I don't disagree with you. I find it far easier to obey than to trust. I'm starting to understand this now. Thank you, Blood Bought 1953. I'm not sure myself what "working through it" means. I need to spend time with my feelings. I need to spend time in prayer, in conversation with God. Love alone is not enough to make a marriage work. I need to figure out what kind of relationship I want with God.
  3. The items I refer to are not 'things' that can be seen, touched or sold. These items are of the mind. They block me from taking the final step towards Jesus and I have not yet learned how to resolve them. Perhaps an analogy will help? Imagine you are young and there is a woman that you love more than anything in the world. You want nothing more than to sweep her off her feet and marry her, but you are afraid to do that because you don't think you can be a good husband to her. Since her happiness is worth more to you than your own, you let her go. This is where I am with Jesus. I'm working through it.
  4. If in doubt, eat a good meal, take a hot shower, and get a good night's sleep. Pray for courage, even though you don't know what you will do. You'll need the courage no matter what happens. That I can guarantee.
  5. Is that sarcasm I smell? Were you asking for help, or were you asking for God to do it for you? I don't know. Only you can answer that.
  6. That's why I say pray. You'll be alright, but you gotta ask for help first.
  7. I call BS on that. I read your testimonial, what you wrote about your experience by the pool. Just stop and let yourself be still. Spend time in prayer. You are overthinking this.
  8. Hello Pearce, Please don't give up on yourself. Our human point of view is limited and oftentimes incorrect. When things appear hopeless to us it does not mean there is no cause for hope, but rather we simply can't see the complete picture. I'm glad you are reaching out online. That is an excellent start. Now may be a good time to call a friend or family member, or perhaps a priest or pastor - anyone who knows you and whom you trust. Sometimes it's hard to accept, but God will not give you more than you can handle. He may well give you more than you think you can handle, but that is how we grow. May God bless you and comfort you in this trying time. -Jason
  9. I'm reminded of Mark 10:21. And Jesus, looking at him loved him, and said to him, "You lack one thing: go, sell all that you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow me." 22. Disheartened by the saying, he went away sorrowful, for he had great possessions. (ESV) In this parable the young man is me. Although I am no longer young and don't have material wealth, I have acquired a great deal of intellectual and emotional possessions. I'm finding it difficult to let go. The irony is that I know this about myself, but that doesn't seem to change anything.
  10. Is there is a moment when God came into my life? Yes! It was profound, humbling, terrifying, loving, and utterly awesome. Do I love Jesus? Yes, dearly. Do I call myself Christian? No, I never have used that word to describe myself. Am I saved? Honestly, I don't know. I just don't know...
  11. I think this is where I get confused. Is accepting Jesus something that we can rightly do on our own or does Jesus first call to us, thus preparing our way to accept Him? Another way of asking this is do individuals first chose Jesus and thus receive the Grace of God, or does Jesus first chose individuals who then feel called to Jesus to receive the Grace of God?
  12. I accept that man cannot earn God's salvation through works. Instead, man's salvation is a gift that God bestows upon those who accept His son Jesus as their Lord and Savior. But how is accepting Jesus not the ultimate "work?"
  13. I've often heard the term "personal relationship" with Jesus. What does that mean?
  14. One evening I was praying. It wasn't a particularly special evening. I sat with perhaps ten people in a small room, each of us praying silently. My mind was not calm. It was wandering to and fro. Attempting to calm it down I thought to engage in a bit of visualization. I imagined while praying that I was in a grand mansion, a house of God. I know, it sounds silly even as I write it. There was a large courtyard with a small door. I crossed over to the door. A nondescript man stood there. He opened the door for me and I entered. (Now you need to know that I was just letting my mind wander. I wasn't trying to make anything up. All of this was a kind of daydream - a daydream when I was supposed to be praying.) The room was about twenty feet square, and was empty except for a simple bassinet on a dais in the center. I approached the bassinet to have a look inside. As I got closer I noticed a glowing gold light, then I saw a small infant. A tendril of golden slight touched me. It was warm, and conscious. The light hit me like a steamroller! My mind stopped. All my thoughts vanished. It was as if a void had appeared where "I" had previously been. Instantly (within my vision) I fell to the ground. I prostrated myself before the light, before the infant. I could no longer think but I could still feel, and what I felt was an overwhelming sense of shame. I felt unclean. This light, this conscious, sentient light could see right through me. It knew me intimately. It knew me infinitely better than I knew myself! I could not hide. I could not make excuses. I could not even think. There was no point in thinking. Any thought I could possibly have it would already know before I would. It just held me there for what felt like hours. In reality it was only a few minutes. When I opened my eyes and returned to the "real world" I was crying like a baby. For the first time in my life I had felt the presence of God and it was both awesome and terrifying.
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