Brokeness

[WayneB]

Saints, sometimes the Vinedresser has to prune the branch so that it will bear more FRUIT. [John chapter 15]

A good book on the Vine? Bruce Wilkinson wrote a short book titled "Secrets of the Vine". He makes a stretch for the arguement on UES but if you can overlook that, he portrays the work of the Vinedresser beautifully.

In this powerful follow-up to his bestseller The Prayer of Jabez, Dr. Bruce Wilkinson explores John 15 to show readers how to make maximum impact for God. Dr. Wilkinson demonstrates how Jesus is the Vine of life, discusses four levels of

[Guest Cindy Lou]

I know what it's like to be broken & wake up each day wishing you hadn't.

The longer it goes on for the more it just seems that time is the healer - I don't mean to sound bad here but I have struggled to be a good daughter to him yet my world is dark - almost every fear I ever had has been realised. I am almost frightened to say that in case he sends/lets something else horrible come my way to make me more appreciative of what I do have (healthy child etc). I believe in God & do love Jesus but frankly can't understand why he creates our personalities, hopes and dreams, abilities etc which when we try to honour him through them destroys it & us. He is more powerful than satan so he can stop things from happening. I know we have to focus on eternity but how on earth can we bring others to him if our message is 'you'll be better of when you

[Guest Called]

I know what it's like to be broken & wake up each day wishing you hadn't.

The longer it goes on for the more it just seems that time is the healer - I don't mean to sound bad here but I have struggled to be a good daughter to him yet my world is dark - almost every fear I ever had has been realised. I am almost frightened to say that in case he sends/lets something else horrible come my way to make me more appreciative of what I do have (healthy child etc). I believe in God & do love Jesus but frankly can't understand why he creates our personalities, hopes and dreams, abilities etc which when we try to honour him through them destroys it & us. He is more powerful than satan so he can stop things from happening. I know we have to focus on eternity but how on earth can we bring others to him if our message is 'you'll be better of when you

[hippo's hope is HIM]

Thank you all for your responses and your input! :hug: :il:

However, I was refurring about being broken on the inside, not being humbled and broken before God.

Long story short, I broke my heart, into millions of pieces. Becoming a Christian, Jesus slowly has begun to put the pieces back together. I don't understand why I still feel broken. Jesus is healing me, and has already put a lot of me back together. In Christ there is a new creation. well why am I still a broken person? I mean it isn't satan planting thoughts or anything.....it is me, being hurt, feeling strange, not whole. Shouldn't there be a point when I am simply non-broken, not hurting, or anything? ( I am not talking physical pain either)

does that help explain it any?

OR maybe God amongst my broken heart, is trying to break my spirit, and because I won't let go of the pieces of my heart, neither can be accomplished, meanwhile I am swimming among deep scary waters, looking up, and yet going down.

[Guest koppen]

Hey hun! Ok I am sorry that I misunderstood your question.. :hug:

First can I ask you if you have let go of ALL unforgiveness toward EVERYONE who has come against you or caused you pain? Sometimes we think we have but deep down it is still there...I know this one first hand... :oww: ...

If you would rather talk in PM let me know?

Love you hun

Hang in there

Kelli

[hippo's hope is HIM]

Not a problem Koppen! For there are a couple differnent ways to be broken, I should have clarified more. But again, each post was there for a reason, and had an impact on certain people.

ALL forgiveness toward EVERYONE???? I dunno. I thought I had. But in all honesty. I am angry and kinda bitter. And not at who you would assume. I know that, that is a part of it. That is part of what i have to let go I think. But I not exactly sure how to.

[Guest koppen]

I thought I had rid myself of ALL unforgiveness recently but God revealed to me that I had not and I realized that I still had unforgiveness toward my father who left me when I was young and attempted to kill my mother...This was a VERY hard one to release...But I have to tell you when I did my life changed...I used to be sick alot...Now I am doing so much better....I also was passed on this book telling how to get rid of ALL unforgiveness and bitterness...It is a powerful tool (biblically based) it make you see it for what it is and what it does to the body but most importantly your SOUL....It was a real eye opener for me...No instead of anger, bitterness, and A SHARP TONGUE...I speak with compassion, love , and respect to everyone, even those who come against me and hate me for who I stand for... I passed this book on to another family member, however, I am going to see if they are done with it...I would like to send it to you via snail mail or I can scan the pages and send it to you via email, it's only about 15 pages long...However you would like to recieve it, if would like to read it...

Here are some scriptures concerning Bitterness and unforgiveness :

It can lead to terrible things in ones life....

murmuring and complaining:

Job 23:2

[Guest Called]

Thank you all for your responses and your input! :hug: :il:

However, I was refurring about being broken on the inside, not being humbled and broken before God.

Long story short, I broke my heart, into millions of pieces. Becoming a Christian, Jesus slowly has begun to put the pieces back together. I don't understand why I still feel broken. Jesus is healing me, and has already put a lot of me back together. In Christ there is a new creation. well why am I still a broken person? I mean it isn't satan planting thoughts or anything.....it is me, being hurt, feeling strange, not whole. Shouldn't there be a point when I am simply non-broken, not hurting, or anything? ( I am not talking physical pain either)

does that help explain it any?

OR maybe God amongst my broken heart, is trying to break my spirit, and because I won't let go of the pieces of my heart, neither can be accomplished, meanwhile I am swimming among deep scary waters, looking up, and yet going down.

Well Beth, do you think that being broken on the inside would be part of being broken before God and being humbled by Him? :hug:

[ServingHim]

[Guest koppen]