please pray for me if you can.

[Guest cw777]

Praying!

t.

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Thank you. God bless you.

[his]

Hey Christiana-

I am praying for you. Even though you feel worthless KNOW that you are not worthless. I am a single mom and sometimes I feel well, like... what am I doing here!!! I just cook, clean, go to school, and raise my son. Then I realized that I didn't know anybody that had a more important job. I am raising a baby into a man that hopefully will have a very close relationship with GOD. My baby could serve a really great purpose...he could be an instrument to GOD and minister to others or anything big. I want to raise him to be willing to stand up for and if necessary even give his life for GOD without hesitation. Raising a child to love GOD that much will not be an easy task. I would rather live poor in a clean house than rich in a messy home and the good feeling from cleaning it is awesome...after you finish. I see home cooked meals much more important than a little extra money...what would that money go towards anyway...even if you didn't have to pay for daycare? Most end up spending it on eating out and entertainment... My point is that family values are not appreciated anymore. Be proud of the awesome job you have. In the bible it says what ever you do, do it as if you were doing it for the LORD. I will continue to pray for you. You seem very sweet and God brought you here for a reason. He will not let you go...continue to seek him. You are HIS royal daughter. When things happen that seem bad to you remember that it is GOD's perfect will that is in play and it will eventually end up as a blessing. My favorite bible verse is James 1:2. Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask GOD, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. ...Also, Christina, when you previously mentioned that sometimes you feel spiritually drained (which IS normal). When you feel so burdened that you have a difficult time praying and cannot really get into the word just 'be still and know that he is GOD' (I can get you references if you need them...I have a hard time remembering exactly where things are but can find out quickly...let me know) Take care and GOD BLESS...don't let anyone make you question your value. Under the shadow of HIS wing-HIS

[other one]

Christina, it is not you that needs counceling, but your husb and. Take a week or two vacation and visit your mother or something like that and let him see just what it is that you do.

I know how you feel. I used to be one of those redneck husbands and after a short time of my wife being sick and me having to take care of everything, my attitude changed very quickly (kids were about two and three years old).

Praying for both of you and your young ones.

[ted]

What color is you neck now, Sam?

t.

[Guest cw777]

Hey Christiana-

    I am praying for you.  Even though you feel worthless KNOW that you are not worthless.  I am a single mom and sometimes I feel well, like... what am I doing here!!! I just cook, clean, go to school, and raise my son.  Then I realized that I didn't know anybody that had a more important job.  I am raising a baby into a man that hopefully will have a very close relationship with GOD.  My baby could serve a really great purpose...he could be an instrument to GOD and minister to others or anything big.  I want to raise him to be willing to stand up for and if necessary even give his life for GOD without hesitation.  Raising a child to  love GOD that much will not be an easy task.  I would rather live poor in a clean house than rich in a messy home and the good feeling from cleaning it is awesome...after you finish.  I see home cooked meals much more important than a little extra money...what would that money go towards anyway...even if you didn't have to pay for daycare?  Most end up spending it on eating out and entertainment...  My point is that family values are not appreciated anymore.  Be proud of the awesome job you have.  In the bible it says what ever you do, do it as if you were doing it for the LORD.  I will continue to pray for you.  You seem very sweet and God brought you here for a reason.  He will not let you go...continue to seek him.  You are HIS royal daughter.  When things happen that seem bad to you remember that it is GOD's perfect will that is in play and it will eventually end up as a blessing.  My favorite bible verse is James 1:2.  Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.  Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.  If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask GOD, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.  But he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. ...Also, Christina, when you previously mentioned that sometimes you feel spiritually drained (which IS normal).  When you feel so burdened that you have a difficult time praying and cannot really get into the word just 'be still and know that he is GOD'  (I can get you references if you need them...I have a hard time remembering exactly where things are but can find out quickly...let me know)  Take care and GOD BLESS...don't let anyone make you question your value.  Under the shadow of HIS wing-HIS

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His,

Thank you so much for your prayers. I have started to think that whatever I do I should do it for God and not for my husband because as far as I'm concerened he will never be satisfied. I can't help feel like it's just a whole in my heart that just keeps getting bigger and bigger. I can't wait for the day when I can be with Jesus and there won't be any sorrow, pain, suffering, anthing like that. God bless you and if there is anything that I can pray for you let me know.

Christina

[his]

Hey Christina-

I just noticed that you said that you don't have any friends...do you drive? If you can you should get involved in a bible study. There are a lot of Wednesday morning groups. Reguardless to how 'not worth it' you may feel every body NEEDs friends. In the beginning GOD said 'it is not good for man to be alone' We need people and fellowship. If you cannot drive...be brave and call a local church. If the church is WORTH going to someone would be more than glad to pick you up every week and most have child care...even if your children dont like to be seperated from you it is usually only two hours and you are probably over due some time without them all over you. The ONLY time without my son is during school and church....it helps beyond measure...he enjoys playing with the other children. A lot of wonderful friend ships start at church.

Now when you last wrote you said you cannot wait to go to heaven....I cannot either....but I cannot wait to go to heaven because I love my Father...not because I hate this world....consider being here a blessing...GOD has plans for you...you could serve him in some way...namely raising your children to love HIM and serve him.

Question:

DO you love your husband?

I was asked that before I filed for divorce...I DO love my husband. I expressed my love until he told me to file. If you DO love your husband. Then reguardless to how mean he is to you continue to serve him....love him with a Christ like love. Submit....not be a doormat but show respect...men like respect and notice that more than a lot else. Loving someone that is undeserving is VERY difficult to do...but that is what a Christ like love is. We didn't deserve Christ's love...but he loved us anyway.

Instead of ONLY worring about what GOD thinks try to also to please your husband...(even if he is hurtful and undeserving).

I highly recommend the book A WOMAN AFTER GOD'S OWN HEART...among MANY things it addresses how a woman can maintain a GODLY marriage.

If after careful thought you realize you DON"T love your husband do NOT run out and get a divorce. If you don't love him maybe if you do some changing in your own heart then noticing a difference, he will be compelled to work on it too. Also, a christian marriage counselor would help no matter how your hearts fare. They often have a sliding scale and churches have grants for the christian counseling centers also.

I am whole heartedly praying for you and your marriage. It is my prayer for you to have a marriage like Christ intended. God Bless you and keep you.

Under the shadow of his wing, HIS

P.S. I hope I don't come across as a know it all because I do not know it all...All I know for sure is that GOD can make things better and this is NOT how he wants them to be. He wants all HIS children to be happy. I cannot wait for you to post stating that things are getting better. Don't give up and it IS worth some effort.

[Guest cw777]

Hey Christina-

    I just noticed that you said that you don't have any friends...do you drive?  If you can you should get involved in a bible study.  There are a lot of Wednesday morning groups.  Reguardless to how 'not worth it' you may feel every body NEEDs friends.  In the beginning GOD said 'it is not good for man to be alone'  We need people and fellowship.  If you cannot drive...be brave and call a local church.  If the church is WORTH going to someone would be more than glad to pick you up every week and most have child care...even if your children dont like to be seperated from you it is usually only two hours and you are probably over due some time without them all over you.  The ONLY time without my son is during school and church....it helps beyond measure...he enjoys playing with the other children.  A lot of wonderful friend ships start at church. 

Now when you last wrote you said you cannot wait to go to heaven....I cannot either....but I cannot wait to go to heaven because I love my Father...not because I hate this world....consider being here a blessing...GOD has plans for you...you could serve him in some way...namely raising your children to love HIM and serve him. 

Question:

DO you love your husband?

I was asked that before I filed for divorce...I DO love my husband.  I expressed my love until he told me to file.  If you DO love your husband.  Then reguardless to how mean he is to you continue to serve him....love him with a Christ like love.  Submit....not be a doormat but show respect...men like respect and notice that more than a lot else.  Loving someone that is undeserving is VERY difficult to do...but that is what a Christ like love is.  We didn't deserve Christ's love...but he loved us anyway. 

Instead of ONLY worring about what  GOD thinks try to also to please your husband...(even if he is hurtful and undeserving). 

I highly recommend the book  A WOMAN AFTER GOD'S OWN HEART...among MANY things it addresses  how a woman can maintain a GODLY marriage. 

If after careful thought you realize you DON"T love your husband do NOT run out and get a divorce.  If you don't love him maybe if you do some changing in your own heart then noticing a difference, he will be compelled to work on it too.  Also, a christian marriage counselor would help no matter how your hearts fare.  They often have a sliding scale and churches have grants for the christian counseling centers also. 

I am whole heartedly praying for you and your marriage.  It is my prayer for you to have a marriage like Christ intended.  God Bless you and keep you.

                                                          Under the shadow of his wing, HIS

P.S. I hope I don't come across as a know it all because I do not know it all...All I know for sure is that GOD can make things better and this is NOT how he wants them to be.  He wants all HIS children to be happy.  I cannot  wait for you to post stating that things are getting better.  Don't give up and it IS worth some effort.

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His,

I do love my husband with all of my heart. He is not all bad either but when he says those hurtful things it breaks my heart. I guess if I didn't love him it wouldn't bother me so much. I will not give up though. Through all of this though I have found a strength that is not from me but from God. He keeps me going through it all. I am truly grateful for all the prayers everyone has given for me and my family. I know that God loves me and my family. I am encouraged by all the words of wisdom from everyone. I will not give up the fight. I will not let satan be victorious in my life. I do realize that the fight will be difficult but I can say after listening to everyone that God will not let me go through this alone.

Again God bless you.

In Christ,

Christina

[ted]

Amen!

t.