Is this God?

[Skyes]

Hello everyone. I am new here, and I like the forum so far.

I am 25, and have pure O OCD (purely obsessive), so it feels like my mind is my ''enemy'', and never leaves me alone or in peace. It keeps giving my horrific images, thoughts and scenes all the time.

I am extremelly anxious as well, wich is the cause for the OCD.

So, after a few years, I learned that whenever I prayed asking God to relieve me from this pain, He did, instantly. It seemed like He placed His hands in my head an pulled all the negative thoughts and energy out. It seemed like magic.

It also happens in other situations where I suffer, as in relationships, for example. I suffer a LOT in relationships. If I like a girl and she doesn't like me back, I just happen to sit in my room and cry for weeks, and It takes more than a year for me to forget her (it happenned 3 times already, with 3 different girls). So, I found out that if I pray to God, asking him to relieve me of that pain, He also does the same. I feel instantly at peace. But it is a constant struggle. I have to repeat the prayer everytime I think of her or that I feel bad, or have intrusive thoughts (caused by the OCD).

The question is, is this really God? Or could this be my own mind playing tricks with me?

If it is God, why do I have to keep constantly asking for His help, as if it was a duel of magic against my own mind? Why don't He already relieve me from my torment forever?

How can I get closer to Him, if that is the case? I have tried many things, but I feel like I am far away from Him. I read the bible, I pray a lot every day, I do fastings of all kind. Even stood eating only rice and bread for a week. I felt really close to Him that time, tho.

I also fear that if I pray too much and "abuse" this "power", I will get addicted to it and it won't work anymore, or I will stop living life as a normal, thinking human.

 

Anyway, sorry for the wall of text. I had to get it out of my chest. I hope I can get some opinions on this. Anything will be greatly appreciated. But no flaming, please.

 

God bless.

[Tiger Eye]

Hi Skyes, welcome.

Your questions and feelings are not new.So don't feel it's just you.

 

Do you have a Bible believing church that you attend?

Having fellowship with other believers is a sure way to learn and understand who God is and what he has in store for you.

 

Women problems?

When I got saved, I wanted my old girl friend back. I wanted her to get saved.

But I realized my love for Jesus was greater than my love for her.

 

I let go and prayed that Jesus would put the perfect woman in my life.
I kept praying everyday, and in time, the right woman came along and we have a Jesus centered marriage for 27 1/2 years now.

 

Stay strong in the Lord.

He probably wants you to draw closer to him and at the right time (his time), the right woman will come along.

Count on it.

He loves us and he knows our needs.

Don't ever stop praying for your heart's desire.

[OneLight]

Welcome.

God does not do magic. May I ask if you have accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior? It seems like He is trying to get your attention ...

[Skyes]

Welcome.

God does not do magic. May I ask if you have accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior? It seems like He is trying to get your attention ...

Yes, I did. I was even baptized 6 years ago. My father used to be a pastor from our local church, and I used to play guitar and sing in the youth band. I have aways been in the church, and grew up with the commandments of God. But I never really got those questions answered. Actually, I never asked them to our local pastors either. 

[Skyes]

Hi Skyes, welcome.

Your questions and feelings are not new.So don't feel it's just you.

 

Do you have a Bible believing church that you attend?

Having fellowship with other believers is a sure way to learn and understand who God is and what he has in store for you.

 

Women problems?

When I got saved, I wanted my old girl friend back. I wanted her to get saved.

But I realized my love for Jesus was greater than my love for her.

 

I let go and prayed that Jesus would put the perfect woman in my life.

I kept praying everyday, and in time, the right woman came along and we have a Jesus centered marriage for 27 1/2 years now.

 

Stay strong in the Lord.

He probably wants you to draw closer to him and at the right time (his time), the right woman will come along.

Count on it.

He loves us and he knows our needs.

Don't ever stop praying for your heart's desire.

Thank you my friend

[OneLight]

Welcome.

God does not do magic. May I ask if you have accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior? It seems like He is trying to get your attention ...

Yes, I did. I was even baptized 6 years ago. My father used to be a pastor from our local church, and I used to play guitar and sing in the youth band. I have aways been in the church, and grew up with the commandments of God. But I never really got those questions answered. Actually, I never asked them to our local pastors either.

It is nice that you were brought up Christian, but I was digging a little deeper. DO you follow God in every way today? Is He first in your life?

[Guest Teditis]

Hello everyone. I am new here, and I like the forum so far.

I am 25, and have pure O OCD (purely obsessive), so it feels like my mind is my ''enemy'', and never leaves me alone or in peace. It keeps giving my horrific images, thoughts and scenes all the time.

I am extremelly anxious as well, wich is the cause for the OCD.

So, after a few years, I learned that whenever I prayed asking God to relieve me from this pain, He did, instantly. It seemed like He placed His hands in my head an pulled all the negative thoughts and energy out. It seemed like magic.

It also happens in other situations where I suffer, as in relationships, for example. I suffer a LOT in relationships. If I like a girl and she doesn't like me back, I just happen to sit in my room and cry for weeks, and It takes more than a year for me to forget her (it happenned 3 times already, with 3 different girls). So, I found out that if I pray to God, asking him to relieve me of that pain, He also does the same. I feel instantly at peace. But it is a constant struggle. I have to repeat the prayer everytime I think of her or that I feel bad, or have intrusive thoughts (caused by the OCD).

The question is, is this really God? Or could this be my own mind playing tricks with me?

If it is God, why do I have to keep constantly asking for His help, as if it was a duel of magic against my own mind? Why don't He already relieve me from my torment forever?

How can I get closer to Him, if that is the case? I have tried many things, but I feel like I am far away from Him. I read the bible, I pray a lot every day, I do fastings of all kind. Even stood eating only rice and bread for a week. I felt really close to Him that time, tho.

I also fear that if I pray too much and "abuse" this "power", I will get addicted to it and it won't work anymore, or I will stop living life as a normal, thinking human.

 

Anyway, sorry for the wall of text. I had to get it out of my chest. I hope I can get some opinions on this. Anything will be greatly appreciated. But no flaming, please.

 

God bless.

 

I have similar issues and I truly understand how frustrating it can all be.

In truth, I don't know the answers because, like I'm sure you're already aware of, it's a pervasive problem and has always

​been with me and probably always will. Still, I think that a combination of modern medicines and psycho-analysis help me

smooth out the rougher times.

 

For me, I have come to the understanding that these problems of mine actually work in my favor in that in keeps closer to God than I would be

if I didn't have these issues to deal with daily. So on that note.... I think that we can never over use prayer, it's exactly where God wants folks like

us to be.

~t

Edited September 23, 2014 by Teditis

[Skyes]

 

Hello everyone. I am new here, and I like the forum so far.

I am 25, and have pure O OCD (purely obsessive), so it feels like my mind is my ''enemy'', and never leaves me alone or in peace. It keeps giving my horrific images, thoughts and scenes all the time.

I am extremelly anxious as well, wich is the cause for the OCD.

So, after a few years, I learned that whenever I prayed asking God to relieve me from this pain, He did, instantly. It seemed like He placed His hands in my head an pulled all the negative thoughts and energy out. It seemed like magic.

It also happens in other situations where I suffer, as in relationships, for example. I suffer a LOT in relationships. If I like a girl and she doesn't like me back, I just happen to sit in my room and cry for weeks, and It takes more than a year for me to forget her (it happenned 3 times already, with 3 different girls). So, I found out that if I pray to God, asking him to relieve me of that pain, He also does the same. I feel instantly at peace. But it is a constant struggle. I have to repeat the prayer everytime I think of her or that I feel bad, or have intrusive thoughts (caused by the OCD).

The question is, is this really God? Or could this be my own mind playing tricks with me?

If it is God, why do I have to keep constantly asking for His help, as if it was a duel of magic against my own mind? Why don't He already relieve me from my torment forever?

How can I get closer to Him, if that is the case? I have tried many things, but I feel like I am far away from Him. I read the bible, I pray a lot every day, I do fastings of all kind. Even stood eating only rice and bread for a week. I felt really close to Him that time, tho.

I also fear that if I pray too much and "abuse" this "power", I will get addicted to it and it won't work anymore, or I will stop living life as a normal, thinking human.

 

Anyway, sorry for the wall of text. I had to get it out of my chest. I hope I can get some opinions on this. Anything will be greatly appreciated. But no flaming, please.

 

God bless.

 

I have similar issues and I truly understand how frustrating it can all be.

In truth, I don't know the answers because, like I'm sure you're already aware of, it's a pervasive problem and has always

​been with me and probably always will. Still, I think that a combination of modern medicines and psycho-analysis help me

smooth out the rougher times.

 

For me, I have come to the understanding that these problems of mine actually work in my favor in that in keeps closer to God than I would be

if I didn't have these issues to deal with daily. So on that note.... I think that we can never over use prayer, it's exactly where God wants folks like

us to be.

~t

 

 

Hello friend. It is so good to know I am not alone in this. I think like you do, but don't you think that it all make God kinda... lame? For example, if you are a father, and see your son or daughter suffering, won't you like to help them once and for all, instead of letting them keep begging for your help everytime? Specially in this case, that is not regarding sins or anything (as far as I know). It is more like a mental illness, so, I honestly think we need healing. 

I go to psychiatrist as well, and take antidepressants and pills to sleep. I still can't understand why God don't simply heal us, as I (and I think you too) have begged for so much. 

I am not against Him or angry with Him. I just want to understand Him

 

 

 

Welcome.

God does not do magic. May I ask if you have accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior? It seems like He is trying to get your attention ...

Yes, I did. I was even baptized 6 years ago. My father used to be a pastor from our local church, and I used to play guitar and sing in the youth band. I have aways been in the church, and grew up with the commandments of God. But I never really got those questions answered. Actually, I never asked them to our local pastors either.

 

It is nice that you were brought up Christian, but I was digging a little deeper. DO you follow God in every way today? Is He first in your life?

 

 

Well, to be honest, I used to be much closer to Him in the past. Today he is not the first anymore. I had great disappointments when it comes to church. I just can't agree with many principles that are being taught in the churches anymore. I think things are not so simple or black and white, as to simply say that homossexuals will go to hell, for example. God is much deeper and bigger than that, and I couldn't understand or find Him in religion anymore, so I backed off. And I don't know where to look for Him anymore. I miss the old days were I could just feel His presence and talk to Him all day as if He was by my side. But honestly, I can't stand going to the church anymore. Everything is so shallow, so wrong. I can't stand seeing people singing and preaching about prosperity while there are beggars right outside of the front door, and they don't do ANYTHING. The love is not being preached anymore...

[Willa]

I have normally found that the criticisms I have for other people are the things God is trying to show me about myself.

If you see others not reaching out to the poor, that is probably what God is asking you to do.

God does love gay people and wants them to come to repentance just like everyone else. He asks for alcoholics to come to repentance as well. They also have a genetic weakness that is difficult to overcome, but they must first agree that it is sin to receive His help.

And He does want us to be totally dependant upon Him. Our pastor says He doesn't need Jesus for a crutch, he needs Jesus to be his gurney, or his stretcher. He puts his full weight on Jesus.

Prayer does not work. If you put your faith in prayer, you will be disappointed. It is God who works on our behalf. Put your faith in the Living God.

It is God Who stands behind His word, and Who pours out life through the Bible. I never trust in feelings and don't seek them. I trust in God and I seek His Kingdom and His righteousness. Put your trust in the Living God.

[Skyes]

God does love gay people and wants them to come to repentance just like everyone else. He asks for alcoholics to come to repentance as well. They also have a genetic weakness that is difficult to overcome, but they must first agree that it is sin to receive His help.

And He does want us to be totally dependant upon Him. Our pastor says He doesn't need Jesus for a crutch, he needs Jesus to be his gurney, or his stretcher. He puts his full weight on Jesus.

Prayer does not work. If you put your faith in prayer, you will be disappointed. It is God who works on our behalf. Put your faith in the Living God.

It is God Who stands behind His word, and Who pours out life through the Bible. I never trust in feelings and don't seek them. I trust in God and I seek His Kingdom and His righteousness. Put your trust in the Living God.

 

Well, to be honest, I don't really see why it would be a sin. How come it is a sin to be homosexual? It is not their fault. It is not the fault of alcoholics to be the way they are as well. Even some thieves just steal to have enough to eat or to feed their children. I am not justifying all that, but I am trying to see how the problems are much deeper than most people think it is.  

I understand that we have fallen from grace in the past, and now we are living a life surrounded by sin. We are sinners, all of us, and we sin all the time. I can understand that some things became part of our soul, so that is why we can't understand or identify what is a sin and what is not anymore. But this is also the root of many evils. I know of a girl that was the daughter of a pastor, and she went out to drink one night with her friends, hidden from her father. When her father found out what she did, he spanked her. Then she killed herself by throwing fire upon her own body. Today I understand that drinking is not a sin. (I don't know what you guys think).

I still have a huge challenge understanding what is a sin and what is not. I feel like the church oftenly preaches fear and try to bind us, saying everything is a sin. 

Edited September 24, 2014 by Skyes