Valleys and hills

[Marilyn C]

Hi Rifkah,

 

That would have been a frightening experience for you today. I don`t get out much also, but for lack of strength. But it sort of hits you in the face, the busyness & lots of strangers etc. Now we all can get funny thoughts in our heads, from many sources or what we have read, seen or tablets taken. Even sleeping tablets can make you feel funny the next day. Thus said if something like that happens, sing a song that encourages you about Jesus, or say a line from God`s word. We need to put in good thoughts otherwise these other ones will control us.

 

`...we are taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ.`  (2 Cor. 10: 5)

 

`Lord, I pray for my sister here, who the enemy would try & frighten & confuse with wrong thoughts. I ask that you strengthen her to be able to replace those thoughts with some from you. In Jesus` precious name.`

 

 

Blessings, Marilyn.

[Rifkah]

Lol thanks.

I'm all up for the eternal purpose in your interest section!

[Marilyn C]

Hi Rifkah,

 

Not quite sure what you mean by `I`m all up for the eternal purpose in your interest section!` Does that mean you are ready to move from this ole world & begin fresh with no pain, sorrow etc?

 

Blessings, Marilyn. 

[kwikphilly]

Blessings Rifkah

     I don't think there are many people that understand what "psychosis" means,,,,,and you certainly do not have to begin explaining or divulging anything that you do not feel comfortable with,,,,,,so I hope it is a little comforting to know that I really do not believe that people are intentionally alienating you or rejecting you because of your state of mind......many people simply do not know how to help,what to say ,how to act.......it is their ignorance or their fear or their not understanding....not you   And then you have to always consider that it may be a delusion or hallucination,as you say"You cannot trust your own thoughts"

     My heart goes out to you,deeply.........I cannot begin to know the courage it must take you to step out into society to do the things you did the other day ,what is very simple tasks for most people,,,,,for people that deal with what you are going through can seem like a world of sheer terror,,,,,,I am very sorry that you are going through this at this time,truly

     Rifkah,you said that you are troubled with what Gods Word has to say about this condition,is it something you would like to talk about,,,,,perhaps that would be a good start,hopefully you can find some Comfort & Peace,that is what we should get from our Father of Comfort,,,,,,that is what our Loving Father wants to give us

       Do you have a local church that you attend,a pastor to talk with someone to help you wiith spiritual guidance ,support,prayer?I believe you can benefit greatly with help from a good professional Christian Counseling or psychiatrist.......God Bless you ,you are in my prayers                                  With love-in Christ,Kwik

[Rifkah]

Hi Rifkah,

 

Not quite sure what you mean by `I`m all up for the eternal purpose in your interest section!` Does that mean you are ready to move from this ole world & begin fresh with no pain, sorrow etc?

 

Blessings, Marilyn.

I'm not considering a sharp self made exit Marilyn but I have in the past.

I just mean I'd like something to give me a purpose to do.

Feel so useless.

[Rifkah]

Blessings Rifkah

     I don't think there are many people that understand what "psychosis" means,,,,,and you certainly do not have to begin explaining or divulging anything that you do not feel comfortable with,,,,,,so I hope it is a little comforting to know that I really do not believe that people are intentionally alienating you or rejecting you because of your state of mind......many people simply do not know how to help,what to say ,how to act.......it is their ignorance or their fear or their not understanding....not you   And then you have to always consider that it may be a delusion or hallucination,as you say"You cannot trust your own thoughts"

     My heart goes out to you,deeply.........I cannot begin to know the courage it must take you to step out into society to do the things you did the other day ,what is very simple tasks for most people,,,,,for people that deal with what you are going through can seem like a world of sheer terror,,,,,,I am very sorry that you are going through this at this time,truly

     Rifkah,you said that you are troubled with what Gods Word has to say about this condition,is it something you would like to talk about,,,,,perhaps that would be a good start,hopefully you can find some Comfort & Peace,that is what we should get from our Father of Comfort,,,,,,that is what our Loving Father wants to give us

       Do you have a local church that you attend,a pastor to talk with someone to help you wiith spiritual guidance ,support,prayer?I believe you can benefit greatly with help from a good professional Christian Counseling or psychiatrist.......God Bless you ,you are in my prayers                                  With love-in Christ,Kwik

This is a really sweet reply thanks.

I'm not looking for sympathy just a little understanding.

My church pretty much cast me out, haven't had the confidence to find a new one.

They believed it was demonic and didn't want me around.

I have a psychiatrist, they dole out drugs that make me sleepy and fat but quieten things down.

The members of the church said unkind things about my changed appearance and used that as further evidence I was harbouring evil.

Meh. Don't think it's just psychosis as they could be pretty mean to depressed people too. Just ignorance I guess.

Part of the deal is social withdrawal so I'm pretty raw when people say things and don't have a great drive to be in company.

Rifkah

[kwikphilly]

Blessings Rifkah

     God Bless you sweet Sister in Christ,,,,,,,forgive them,they know not what they do,,,,,,,,,,,if it is any consolation,though it is not easy to know or relate to what you are going I can tell you that I understand that it hurts,,,,,,,,,to be shunned & treated so badly hurts,I'm sorry that is what you found from the ones that should have embraced you with love & compassion,they need prayers

       Be encouraged,you are loved & welcomed here with open arms,not out of pity but because Jesus loves you.........He loves us beyond compare,He never turns His back and never lets you go.....................no one is here to judge you,to diagnose you or to fix you,just to love you as you are      God will do the fixing,our hope is in Christ,,,,,,,there is deliverance for physical,emotional,mental & spiritual bondage.....in Gods Perfect Time,His Perfect Will,His Perfect Plan,His Perfect Grace & Love..........you remain in my heart & prayer

                                                                                                                                                  With love-in Christ,Kwik

 

Try not to worry or get depressed that the medications having made you gain weight,thank God things have quieted down for you........hopefully after your body adjusts you will not be so sleepy.I completely understand about gaining weight from Rx's when I went through a cancer ordeal,,,,,,still not happy about weight gain but it's not a permanent thing.......mental & physical health has to be the priority,not appearance,,,,,,,I think,as women,it is very difficult to deal with but it is something that cannot be helped,,,,,,,,,,shame on anyone who looks on the outside anyway,I bet you are beautiful!!!!!!!

[Rifkah]

You really do have a gift for writing soothing words.

Erm, you know 1% of the population is schizophrenic then more have psychosis.

So there is probably people in your church who suffer like me.

Worrying that something so common is not understood.

[Marilyn C]

Hi Rifkah,

 

Now you have asked a most important question. Many people go through their lives doing stuff & often self centred, & there you have asked the special question that is close to God`s own heart. He has made us for a purpose. The most important one is to know Him & that takes patience & appreciation of what is around us. Every day I try to look & say what I see & appreciate what I do have.

 

Then there is the `purpose,` of doing. Now you know we all have giftings. You rightly recognised Kwik`s great gift for `writing soothing words.` We read Kwik`s writings all over Worthy & she so encourages people. Now she has been laid up & also going through grief, but there she is, reaching out to others helping them. Now I wonder what your gift is. often we don`t recognise what it is but others will see it.

 

My suggestion is to start out doing something you like, & then use that to help someone. Or if people are difficult to relate to at this time, then help an animal. They are always appreciative. We all need to reach out, for then into our heart comes `purpose.` God reached out to us & we do the same to Him & others. It is a gradual thing that will grow as you grow emotionally stronger.

 

All the best, & please share how you are going. Marilyn.