please die (rewrite)

[Ghostdog]

this is the mental health battle i face.

 

Look at you, you're pathetic
And this isn't the first time I've said it
Look at you standing tall with that chest puffed out
Inside your insecurities are just dying to bust out
You're a bust now
You're lucky those inmates didn't snuffed you out
You cut your friends off, so you got nobody to trust now
But you did this to you
I hope you're proud that time you ended up in the news
And you really think we care when you announce you're back in the booth
Nobody's got your back, and it's true
I hope I see you beat until you're black and you're blue
Give me that head, and I'll crack it in two
'Cause the old you is missing now your back with the crew
Back then you had the anointing, and you were passionate, too
I know you've thought about it, just do it you coward and fasten that noose
That guilt keeps piling up, so who you passing it to?
'Cause God knows you never own up to your own mistakes
Stiff spine? Yours bends 'til it breaks
And you talk about Jesus, but you don't live like Him
And you tell people to help others, but you don't give like them
What ever happened to the old you?
I knew you'd end up like this, man, I told you
You spent more time online dating than praying
Cat got your tongue? Do you hear what I'm saying?
Well, that cat's out of the bag now, and that spotlight's fading
You could have been somebody, you could have done things right
You got an army behind you, but you'd rather run than stand up and fight
What's wrong with you man?! Wake up
For God's sake, stop reliving your regrets and shape up
This is bigger than you
Don't you see? This is bigger than me
And what about the ones who look up to you?
You can't even drag yourself out of bed, man, what's up with you?!
You were called to be different, and you were made to be great
But when I see you, I see everything that I hate
You're a messenger who's a mess, you're down and depressed
And if you don't get help, you're gonna die like this
I told myself I wouldn't cry like this
But look at you man, what are you doing?!
Watching you suffer like this is grueling
But you chose to love your sin more than your Maker
And you blame them for what happened, but you're the faker
And you keep playing in the dirt like it's gonna satisfy you
I might just pull this trigger, would you be mad if I do?

 

Do it, coward, you won't because you're scared, too
And don't blame me for where we're at, you were there, too
You could have done something (I couldn't stop you!)
You could have asked for help, but you didn't because of your pride
Our sins are out in public now, and we have nothing to hide, and that kills you inside
I'm the part of us who doesn't care about the past or what we do
And you have no idea what your high expectations have put us through
And now that we're failures, it kills you, too
Give up the chip on your shoulder, don't lie
You're really the one who wants us to die
So if you wanna pull out the past on us, here, so will I

[missmuffet]

God has you and He loves you. God doesn't create junk. You are precious in His sight. 

[Marathoner]

You aren't alone, my friend. 

[Jayne]

Hello Ghostdog - I have mental/emotional issues myself.  I have regular visits with my therapist.

Let me just say that this poem you wrote took a lot to do:  It took a lot of -

• time
• mental effort
• emotional effort
• focusing on the extreme negative
• self-loathing
• and toxic thinking

No wonder you are in the place you are in.

Suppose you took the same time, mental effort, and emotional effort and drove yourself in the opposite direction - into focusing on God and his mercies, self-purpose through Christ, and godly thinking.

I wonder what kind of poem you might come up with then?

[TheBlade]

We know that Satan is a liar he can not will not tell the truth can only lie.. so FLIP the lies. God is moving in your life or he would not come to steal kill and destroy. Stand. Joseph OT God gave him a dream yet look what happen to him. Look at all those YEARS where it would seem God left him.. the enemy just over and over and over trying to kill him yet he never failed to stand believe what God showed him. Resist the enemy he HAS TO flee in JESUS name. When the enemy talks like this.. say NO its written.. greater is HE that is in ME then he thats in the world. I can do all things through Jesus Christ which strengthens me.. so on so forth. 

Focus on read what GOD said...sad.. sing to the lord.. His JOY is not going to be not might be but IS your strength. You are not going to be not might be but you ARE strong in the lord in the power of HIS might. Put on HIS armor.... yet it says we put on the WHOLE not parts of it but the WHOLE armor of God. HE has not left you ....He is for you never against you.....KNOW READ who you ARE in Christ Jesus. The enemy has no right to touch us unless we allow it.